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Well, I had a huge dissappointment today. I had applied for a program here that sends 10 pre-med students to 3rd worl coutnries each year. It is very selective group and while I didnt really think I had cahnce at first, I ended up getting an interview. THey only granted 15 so I felt pretty honored. Then they eliminated 2 people, which put me on the list for the 13 member group itnerview. I went to that last night and I thought it went pretty well, only I had no idea how things would turn out because everybody there was so deserving of it. We were told that we would find out within 24 hours whether we were chosen or not. So the day wore on and on and hour by hour I got more and more depressed, as I was coming to the realization that I was not going to be called. And as the 24 hour mark passed, I was had to accept that fact that I had been gotten so close to this thing that I have wanted for a whole year, yet didn't get it. I was left only to wonder what was it about me that singled me out from the rest of the group. I am not quite sure how to feel now, after my initial emotional breakdown. I want to tell myself that there is something else out there for me and that if this was meant to be for me it would have been. And while I am coming closer to accepting this, but I have not fully realized it yet. I dont have the time to worry about it though as I have an organic chem 2 test friday, and retreat this weekend. Now I am wondering what I will do to get medical volunteer experience. I dont really have more than a couple hours a week to give, and they arent during the day, so I feel pretty boxed in. If anybody has any advice as to what I should now, about volunteer work, and about the getting out of a slump I would appreciate.