The passiveness is sort of what is holding me back. At my job, nothing about what I do is passive. I am the one helping remove ployps and cauterizing bleeds, as well as having the ability to see the start to finish of the doctors’ interaction with patients. I feel like if I pursue shadowing on top of this (where I personally feel I would get much less out of compared to my job) I am simply just doing it to “check a box.”