I guess you'll never really know. You can't beat a character (and this two dimensional medium does present us as such) as someone who'll : "never judge someone for their […]," and proceed to judge. What do you know about life, love, death, mutilation, crime, punishment, consequences? Truly what do you know about war, terror, those miserable things you read about, or see on television? You don't know me, merely a few phrases, some random thoughts without context, yet surge toward concluding character as a reflection of your own 22-26 years of life? You're in medical school. By f***k ups your imaginations leapt to conclusions within the scope of your life experiences, yet haven't defined, and don't see why I would clarify, or detail those things. However none were contingent upon so called "me first" traits, or defense mechanisms to assuage guilt. As the years pass your hastening to "judge" will be tempered, hopefully, by experience.