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I need some help guys. Today is my final day of residency. I've been moonlighting quite a bit over this last year, so I have gotten some "real world" experience under my belt. But I can't shake this awful feeling that I am woefully underprepared. I could have definitely read more during residency, I could have tried harder. I feel as though I skated by on my outgoing demeanor and good personality. I got stellar reviews in residency, but I genuinely feel like I've duped people.
I still find myself looking up basic things. I still find myself not knowing basic things. Like, what are all the labs/tests I should check before starting clozapine? Yeah I would need to look this up right now. I feel as though medico-legally, I still have no clue what I'm doing with regards to things like, how to terminate a patient, how to deal with a patient who isn't paying their bills, etc things like that. I do feel like I have the ability to write a good note/suicide assessment so I have that going for me.
But otherwise, I just feel completely lost and overwhelmed and I havent even started work yet (this begins in August). To be honest, I feel like a complete fraud. I am starting with a therapist to help me work on some issues, but I'm just scared and really down righ now. Any feedback would be helpful.
I still find myself looking up basic things. I still find myself not knowing basic things. Like, what are all the labs/tests I should check before starting clozapine? Yeah I would need to look this up right now. I feel as though medico-legally, I still have no clue what I'm doing with regards to things like, how to terminate a patient, how to deal with a patient who isn't paying their bills, etc things like that. I do feel like I have the ability to write a good note/suicide assessment so I have that going for me.
But otherwise, I just feel completely lost and overwhelmed and I havent even started work yet (this begins in August). To be honest, I feel like a complete fraud. I am starting with a therapist to help me work on some issues, but I'm just scared and really down righ now. Any feedback would be helpful.