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This. All of this.
Hedgehog, I don't know you at all so take what you want from this and leave the rest, but you come across as being very indecisive and it seems like you enjoy the planning more than the execution. I think you're telling yourself a story that you want to gain more marketable skills and experience, which sounds good on its face but is a deflection from having to do The Thing. The job market is a very real problem, I would never deny that, but you haven't even finished school yet. Everything you said about not wanting to do a residency before, you would be doing if you went on for more school. I precepted many a student that didn't know when to stop information gathering, be satisfied with what they knew and then apply that knowledge. I suffer from that a bit myself. But when you're paralyzed by not knowing when you have researched enough, it can be paralyzing. That's a skill you can hone, however, it's not just a personality trait you have to live with.
I find it helpful to remember that most decisions are not permanent. If you go out into the job market this May and can't find a job, that doesn't mean you can't decide to go back to school in 6 months. It's not either/or. While you're still in school, it might help to use the school health service to talk to a counselor to figure out why you get stuck in planning mode. I suspect you have a nonstop internal monologue that needs to be harnessed for good (I have this as well). This will benefit you in all facets of life as the big decisions are only just starting...
I appreciate the advice, although I would honestly have to disagree with your assertion that I'm stuck in planning mode. That's just the thing; I've actually been trying to do the opposite of more planning. To be more specific (and I'm not sure if you saw the thread I made a few months ago in which I described doing this), but I actually have been getting in touch with many, many hospital DOPs and recruiters about entry-level positions I might qualify for. I am being 100% honest when I say that out of 50-60+ people, not one of them had a positive thing to say about my chances of getting a job as a new graduate. Pretty much all of them said the same thing: every time they post an opening, they receive so many applications (including from experienced and residency-trained pharmacists) that they're probably going to have a hard time sifting through all the apps from experienced pharmacists and therefore wouldn't even consider an application from a new grad.
Of course, that speaks to the necessity (as you and others have pointed out) of doing a residency, right? Well, I don't know if you've seen me mention it on the forums before, but I worked as an intern from my P2 year until December of my P4 year (hospital fired all interns) and have kept in touch with the most recent group of graduates from the hospital's residency program. Out of 10 graduates who entered the market back in June 2019, only 3 of them have found jobs so far. One took a management-level job no one else wanted, another one took a new second shift position that had been created, and the third one was hired as a PRN pharmacist. The rest of them are STILL looking for positions almost 9 months later.
So having said that, when almost all the residency program graduates I know of locally haven't been able to secure jobs, why should I think my experience as a residency program graduate would be any different? From what recruiters and other pharmacists have told me, doing a residency should make me competitive for hospital jobs in smaller cities, and then after spending a few years working in such a town, I should be competitive for positions in medium-sized cities like my hometown, which I was hoping to be able to move away from at some point (sooner than later) because it's just a relatively undesirable area all-around.
And that's another thing... even if I did a residency, it sounds like it still wouldn't lead to an outcome I'd be happy with in terms of location preferences. As I stated in the preceding paragraph, I was hoping to be able to move to a NICER city than the one I'm from, not be forced to downgrade by having to move to an even smaller town for a few years, *then* move back to a town like this one, and then maybe after 2-3 more years hope to be competitive for jobs in bigger cities. I'm not even talking about cities like NYC, SD, Boston, Miami, etc., but just nice medium-/large-sized cities with a good standard of living.
It's a shock to most people here that my city is saturated, because if you Google it, you'll see that it has the distinction of appearing on numerous "Worst Cities to Live In," "Most Undesirable Midsized Cities," "Cities With the Lowest Standards of Living," and other lists, so the fact that a city like mine is saturated doesn't bode well for how bad things must be in legitimately decent cities. I was hoping to be able to move to somewhere better, not feel lucky to be able to eventually move back here after getting experience somewhere even more desolate.
On a related note, I know the most logical thing to ask is, "Why did you pick pharmacy when you have such specific location requirements?" To put it simply, my location preferences were different when I started pharm school back in 2016. Over the last few years, though, I have realized that I want something different than I thought I wanted when I first started school.
Anyways, all of this is just a long-winded way of saying that I just don't think I'm likely to end up with an outcome I'd be satisfied with in pharmacy. And even though I was a good student GPA-wise and did a few things to set myself apart from other students, I didn't do nearly enough in that regard given the level of competition, and that's on me to deal with. So why should I think that I'll have an easier time finding a job than pharmacists (including residency grads) who did much more to set themselves apart?
... On the other hand, I could complete a CS masters degree in less than 1.5 years (depending on school) for around $20k or less, get an intern job at a local tech company making $25/hr while still a student (I was told by a front-end developer there that they would absolutely hire me if I can pass their technical interview), and almost definitely get a job as a programmer/software engineer in a decent city *somewhere*, even if it's not NYC/Boston/SD/SF.
To summarize, this is how I look at it -- what does it say about the state of things in the pharmacist job market that working as an intern and getting excellent professional evaluations wasn't enough to even land a PRN pharmacist position, while brief chats with a software engineer acquaintance as well as a relative who works as an engineer for Cisco were all it took to get a favorable reception regarding job prospects from hiring managers?
BTW and for what it's worth, the pharmacists I work with even offered to write LORs for me if I do decide to apply to other programs. When I asked them if they'd recommend doing so, they mentioned the state of the job market and simply said, "It wouldn't be a bad idea to look into it." It's just getting so hard to stay motivated to not at least consider pursuing something else because there isn't one positive, encouraging factor I can point to when it comes to the job market or my prospects of getting a (non-retail) job.