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So I am in my 1st yr of med school. I moved across the country with 2 babies and a husband to attend school here. My husband and kids are amazing and they do not interfere at all with school. I left an amazing family, friends, and support system. But I was excited to pursue my dreams and felt that it was my purpose/ passion in life. Also I was just not satisfied with the life of being a stay at home mom, it was not for me, I need more drive/craziness in life.
Now I am in med school... I have never been a social butterfly but I feel that I connect with no one at school. In my practice interviewing class I am constantly criticized by my professor when everyone else in my group receives praise. Criticism is basically that I am too quiet and socially awkward to sum it up. I also seem to have gotten into little arguments with some of my classmates, these are now resolved but I just seem to be having a hard time getting along with people here. I feel that everyone hates me and thinks that I am socially awkward. I feel that people are always judging me. When I talk to people I am dismissed and people seem to not want to get to know me. I really make an effort to be social but it gets exhausting. I do have a couple friends here but don't really have time to hang out because I have a family and kids at home. I don't have anyone to relate to here. I also tend to start hating people because of this, get resentful.
After going home for break I had a great time and everyone respects me/us there. We have great, great friendships, amazing family, strong social standing there, husband was making BANK(more than most doctors), go out to restaurants with other couples, we were LIVING THE LIFE. I got my confidence back but then when I returned here it was crushed again. I am sitting here crying because I don't know why I even moved here. I am miserable. The only thing that keeps me holding on is the small hope that maybe everyone is judging me wrong and I just get nervous during my practice interviews and that in real life I will be better with my future patients. Do I have false hope? Should I just quit and return to my amazing life at home? Please advise, I have no one else to go to.
Now I am in med school... I have never been a social butterfly but I feel that I connect with no one at school. In my practice interviewing class I am constantly criticized by my professor when everyone else in my group receives praise. Criticism is basically that I am too quiet and socially awkward to sum it up. I also seem to have gotten into little arguments with some of my classmates, these are now resolved but I just seem to be having a hard time getting along with people here. I feel that everyone hates me and thinks that I am socially awkward. I feel that people are always judging me. When I talk to people I am dismissed and people seem to not want to get to know me. I really make an effort to be social but it gets exhausting. I do have a couple friends here but don't really have time to hang out because I have a family and kids at home. I don't have anyone to relate to here. I also tend to start hating people because of this, get resentful.
After going home for break I had a great time and everyone respects me/us there. We have great, great friendships, amazing family, strong social standing there, husband was making BANK(more than most doctors), go out to restaurants with other couples, we were LIVING THE LIFE. I got my confidence back but then when I returned here it was crushed again. I am sitting here crying because I don't know why I even moved here. I am miserable. The only thing that keeps me holding on is the small hope that maybe everyone is judging me wrong and I just get nervous during my practice interviews and that in real life I will be better with my future patients. Do I have false hope? Should I just quit and return to my amazing life at home? Please advise, I have no one else to go to.