Spoke w/someone at UCSD's office about my lack of 2dary and what this means.  I was really looking for uplifting commentary that I wouldn't have believed, but would've made me feel better.  UNFORTUNATELY, that's not what I got.  "Yeah, it doesn't look promising," is the repartee to my query.  That felt like ****.  I think I approached this process wrong, basically from the day I started as an undergrad.