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I don't really have anyone I can bounce this off of so I'm posting it here instead. Warning, kinda whiny brain dump ahead.
I can't seem to shut out the siren song of money, of wanting more, or maybe it's just wanting something different. I just left a job where I was making about $275 an hour W2 for a job that makes about $250/hr 1099, on a partner track of 1.5-2 years where the average partner pay has been around 360-375/hr - with seeing over just above 1.5pph, so not bad at all. Very fair and equitably group. Didn't just leave for the potential of more money, but also because my prior group was too small and scheduling was too stressful - if one person took a vacation everyone felt the strain. New group is much bigger and scheduling is much easier, plus holidays/weekends are completely equitable, more so than the previous group. In a bigger city with relatively more stuff to do, restaurants, a university, etc. Plus, the old hospital had so many staffing problems. There were plenty of reasons to leave despite the pretty decent pay, so the most recent switch was not just motivated by money.
But every time I see a job posting, or someone talking about their unicorn job on reddit making $450 an hour with scribes and residents seeing 2 patients in 24 hours right next to ski slopes and ocean I just can't help but think "well what the hell am I doing at this job, let's move the family across the country so I can retire earlier!" and that mindset is driving myself and my spouse nuts. Or a coresident recently posting a job where they are that can be 400+ but is associated with a CMG and is strictly RVU based, and I know myself well enough to know that the constant push to see as many PPH as possible is not good for my mental health or longevity.
Any ideas on finding contentment with the pay I have? I'm so acutely aware that even if I was making 100/hr that we are so much better off than basically everyone in this country, and I have relatives that struggle with money, so I feel grateful for what I have, I really do. At the same time, I know my time of doing this job is limited because, well, US healthcare is a nightmare hellscape.
Compounding this is that my job isn't near my family or my spouse's family. Both of those are in very tight markets where even if I could manage to get a job it would be an immediate 1/3 or so pay cut and also both are higher cost of living. So those don't feel like options. Problem being, I don't feel particularly tied to the areas where we've lived and it just feels like why not live in that random area over this random area if the next random area pays more. The only thing that keeps me from moving is that my kids are in school and making friends, but I just don't feel "rooted" in these areas yet and making friends has proven difficult, so I just feel somewhat adrift. I'm not writing off the new job yet for that as I'm just getting started.
I don't know. Just throwing this out into the ether. Happy to hear any thoughts. Not trying to be a whiner when realistically I have so much to be thankful for, just wondering if anyone is in any similar situation and can relate. Thanks for reading.
I can't seem to shut out the siren song of money, of wanting more, or maybe it's just wanting something different. I just left a job where I was making about $275 an hour W2 for a job that makes about $250/hr 1099, on a partner track of 1.5-2 years where the average partner pay has been around 360-375/hr - with seeing over just above 1.5pph, so not bad at all. Very fair and equitably group. Didn't just leave for the potential of more money, but also because my prior group was too small and scheduling was too stressful - if one person took a vacation everyone felt the strain. New group is much bigger and scheduling is much easier, plus holidays/weekends are completely equitable, more so than the previous group. In a bigger city with relatively more stuff to do, restaurants, a university, etc. Plus, the old hospital had so many staffing problems. There were plenty of reasons to leave despite the pretty decent pay, so the most recent switch was not just motivated by money.
But every time I see a job posting, or someone talking about their unicorn job on reddit making $450 an hour with scribes and residents seeing 2 patients in 24 hours right next to ski slopes and ocean I just can't help but think "well what the hell am I doing at this job, let's move the family across the country so I can retire earlier!" and that mindset is driving myself and my spouse nuts. Or a coresident recently posting a job where they are that can be 400+ but is associated with a CMG and is strictly RVU based, and I know myself well enough to know that the constant push to see as many PPH as possible is not good for my mental health or longevity.
Any ideas on finding contentment with the pay I have? I'm so acutely aware that even if I was making 100/hr that we are so much better off than basically everyone in this country, and I have relatives that struggle with money, so I feel grateful for what I have, I really do. At the same time, I know my time of doing this job is limited because, well, US healthcare is a nightmare hellscape.
Compounding this is that my job isn't near my family or my spouse's family. Both of those are in very tight markets where even if I could manage to get a job it would be an immediate 1/3 or so pay cut and also both are higher cost of living. So those don't feel like options. Problem being, I don't feel particularly tied to the areas where we've lived and it just feels like why not live in that random area over this random area if the next random area pays more. The only thing that keeps me from moving is that my kids are in school and making friends, but I just don't feel "rooted" in these areas yet and making friends has proven difficult, so I just feel somewhat adrift. I'm not writing off the new job yet for that as I'm just getting started.
I don't know. Just throwing this out into the ether. Happy to hear any thoughts. Not trying to be a whiner when realistically I have so much to be thankful for, just wondering if anyone is in any similar situation and can relate. Thanks for reading.