What's wrong with *wanting* to be called a doctor in the first place?
My knee-jerk take on your posts, and I believe based on what you've posted thus far is the right one, is that you have some romantic notion that you will be revered and looked-up-to by people if you have the title of "doctor"... that people will
necessarily and
inherently respect you just because you are a physician.
I would suggest, if you are possibly capable of such introspection at such a tender and innocent age, that you really,
really look into the reasons why you feel "giddy" at the thought of being called doctor. This speaks to some ego need you have that, in my vastly greater experience at this "game" (and in life), I will cautiously and most gravely forewarn you will not likely be fulfilled once you actually become a physician... if you actually make it that far.
There are plenty of people in this world, quite frankly, who won't give two sh*ts that you are a doctor. And, most of these people work in the hospital and are the people who will form the bulk of your daily interactions. Trust me.
Ask yourself what is lacking in your life right now that makes you seek this perceived reverence and respect you crave? Is it a failed relationship with a parent figure? Is it a general inadequacy you think will be mollified if you go into medicine? Do you think that doctors are the be-all, end-all in the medical food chain? Do you have some megalomaniacal urge to wield power over people?
I don't know the answers to those questions. Only you do.
But, I will tell you this, there are a lot of people in your shoes who don't really know what it takes to become a physician, nor the regular smack-down you will get by your so-called colleagues and superiors while traveling that arduous path. You cannot possibly now fathom the toll it will take on you in terms of personal sacrifice as well as giving away some of the best years of your life. And, people - most people in medicine - will, quite frankly, not give you even one iota of the shred of the respect or deference you now falsely believe you think you'll deserve... despite the fact that, in all actuality, you probably will deserve it. You WILL get a lot of "cry me a river... you chose this path" if you complain, though.
I didn't go into medicine, personally, to garner the respect of being called "doctor". I genuniely believed that I was going to help grateful people who desperately needed my care, and were going to be appreciative for getting it. I thought I could actually make a difference. I couldn't care less about being called "doctor". I just wanted to help.
Forget about
any respect. The last 9 years have been, with the
rare exception of the occasional patient who actual is thankful, one of obstacles, argument, obfuscation, and disappointment. It has been filled with people who don't really have any desire to get better, nor do they really want me to do anything more than "fix" them so they can go back to their bad habits. I can't wait - and I know it'll happen - until the first time I get named in a lawsuit. That's going to be the real tester for me as to whether or not I say "f*ck it" altogether and go do something else with my life. I'm sure I'll be a lot happier, even if I'm making half as much as I now do.
So, sport,
you need to listen to people, whether you like what they say or not, who have
far greater experience in this business and in life when they offer you
free advice and
a truthful narrative about their experience who maybe, just maybe, once
used to be as naive as you.
It doesn't mean you have to agree with it. It doesn't mean you even have to like it. But, you're repeated posts only show your ignorance and hubris and, to many of us, look back and say to ourselves, "
Man, if I only had someone so honestly tell me that back when I was considering doing this as a career."
Be prepared for the vast majority of your colleageus, both as physicians and as nurses and ancillary staff, who just don't care: they don't care about you, they don't ultimately care about the patient, they don't care about
anything as long as they are getting their paycheck. That's the reality of this business, I hate to say it, and you will be fighting bureaucrats - even more than we are doing now - as well as people who have different opinions than you... most of who could care less that you are "the doctor".
Heed this advice. Print it out. And, if you succeed in going into medical school and getting your wish, look back on this in ten years. You'll say to yourself, I'm willing to bet,
I should've listened to that guy. I wish someone had done the same for me.
-copro