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Hello,
I have been a long time SDN creep but finally decided to create an account today. I have read a few threads recently (the thread on mental illness and one where the guy was charged with drug posession for example) that have inspired me to seek some advice from you all on some things that I am worried about when it comes to DS. I have been clinically diagnosed with OCD. I have several ticks or rituals as they are often called but really they are just compulsive behaviors triggered by various stimuli that I can not control. I have found a way to surpress, or work around the majority of these behaviors however there are two that I have not. I was accepted to dental school, will start this fall, however thinking about it makes me severely anxious. I want to share my "Big two" and get some advice. I am very ashamed and embarrased by these behaviors, however this being an anonomyous forum, I am willing to share and wade through the mean comments and jokes and find some genuine advice, as I believe past posters have. Well here goes.
1. Every time I hear some one cough, sneeze, clear their their throat, etc. I immediately and very audibly mimic them(You would NOT BELIEVE how often people cough if you werent paying attentioin to it) . This has caused many problems in class, I have been kicked out of class many times for this, and I fear the same will happen in DS and I will fall behind. I have warned professors about this behavior in the past, but it has still been a disruption.
Let me preface #2 by saying I am not JOKING. This behavior affects my personal life more often than class, but I am worried about the small class size and study groups, etc. you'll see. ALSO I have seen a therapist many times and we have gotten to the root of this problem which I will share later. I do not have insurance so I am only able to see a therapist as often as I can affort to pay for the office visit, which is not cheap.
2. Every time I enter ANY bathroom, public or private I can not leave until I masturbate. This is not a joke. It isnt like a bathroom gets me excited or whatever, sometimes it takes some effort and time to make it happen. I have tried leaving without however I have episodes of panic and cant function until I do. I grew up in a very full house, shared a room so when I came of age and needed to take care of those types of things I would do it in the bathroom, the only place I could get privacy, my therapist thinks this has something to do with this. I have not been able to have a lot of friends because I fear this will be found out if I hang out in a small group.
For those of you who have no experience with OCD may not be able to identify and I am sure some jokes will be made, I am fine with that, but I hope there are others who can help me out give me some confidence. Thanks for reading this long winded vent. Feel free to ask any questions. I am fine answering them.
Thanks.
I have been a long time SDN creep but finally decided to create an account today. I have read a few threads recently (the thread on mental illness and one where the guy was charged with drug posession for example) that have inspired me to seek some advice from you all on some things that I am worried about when it comes to DS. I have been clinically diagnosed with OCD. I have several ticks or rituals as they are often called but really they are just compulsive behaviors triggered by various stimuli that I can not control. I have found a way to surpress, or work around the majority of these behaviors however there are two that I have not. I was accepted to dental school, will start this fall, however thinking about it makes me severely anxious. I want to share my "Big two" and get some advice. I am very ashamed and embarrased by these behaviors, however this being an anonomyous forum, I am willing to share and wade through the mean comments and jokes and find some genuine advice, as I believe past posters have. Well here goes.
1. Every time I hear some one cough, sneeze, clear their their throat, etc. I immediately and very audibly mimic them(You would NOT BELIEVE how often people cough if you werent paying attentioin to it) . This has caused many problems in class, I have been kicked out of class many times for this, and I fear the same will happen in DS and I will fall behind. I have warned professors about this behavior in the past, but it has still been a disruption.
Let me preface #2 by saying I am not JOKING. This behavior affects my personal life more often than class, but I am worried about the small class size and study groups, etc. you'll see. ALSO I have seen a therapist many times and we have gotten to the root of this problem which I will share later. I do not have insurance so I am only able to see a therapist as often as I can affort to pay for the office visit, which is not cheap.
2. Every time I enter ANY bathroom, public or private I can not leave until I masturbate. This is not a joke. It isnt like a bathroom gets me excited or whatever, sometimes it takes some effort and time to make it happen. I have tried leaving without however I have episodes of panic and cant function until I do. I grew up in a very full house, shared a room so when I came of age and needed to take care of those types of things I would do it in the bathroom, the only place I could get privacy, my therapist thinks this has something to do with this. I have not been able to have a lot of friends because I fear this will be found out if I hang out in a small group.
For those of you who have no experience with OCD may not be able to identify and I am sure some jokes will be made, I am fine with that, but I hope there are others who can help me out give me some confidence. Thanks for reading this long winded vent. Feel free to ask any questions. I am fine answering them.
Thanks.