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@MixedAnimals77 it's a hard place to be. My personal experience with my sister:
1. My sister did complete her attempt back in 2018. And in the moment, there was only grief, absolutely. But later as I healed and was able to look back and see my life for what it was, I did develop frustration and anger at my sister and the situation. It ****ed up my second year academically and ****ed me up as a person for a while.
2. I obviously think about the "what ifs" all the time. What if she lived? Then obviously I spiral because she could have absolutely had health issues as a result. The spiraling just goes from there. What if she tried again? Etc. It gets wild. Some thoughts are less gracious than others. Which leads me to say that these feelings are honestly not weird in any way.
3. If you ever want to talk, just let me know. It's a hard place to be. I would say I wouldn't express these feelings outwardly to the core family right now. But finding support elsewhere isn't a bad idea.
1. My sister did complete her attempt back in 2018. And in the moment, there was only grief, absolutely. But later as I healed and was able to look back and see my life for what it was, I did develop frustration and anger at my sister and the situation. It ****ed up my second year academically and ****ed me up as a person for a while.
2. I obviously think about the "what ifs" all the time. What if she lived? Then obviously I spiral because she could have absolutely had health issues as a result. The spiraling just goes from there. What if she tried again? Etc. It gets wild. Some thoughts are less gracious than others. Which leads me to say that these feelings are honestly not weird in any way.
3. If you ever want to talk, just let me know. It's a hard place to be. I would say I wouldn't express these feelings outwardly to the core family right now. But finding support elsewhere isn't a bad idea.
