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[oweue]

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FAFSA not showing the correct loan limit which could be that there’s an error OR that it hasn’t yet switched over to the BBB rules since those technically start in June. wow could it be more annoying??

 

[battie]

I thought I only had 11 shifts left, but I actually have 12 😭

 

[overcastkidjuno]

Major TW for self harm

Found out I failed part of my OSCE today and I have to drive 7 hours back to do it tomorrow. I did great on everything except open gloving. Of course I failed open gloving. I've been in a really bad state mentally for other reasons and this pushed me over the edge. When I got this email and the school refusing to accomodate any other date than tomorrow I tried to hurt myself really badly. I was obviously unsuccessful, my boyfriend is with me now so I'm safe but I feel so sick. I'm just going to fail again tomorrow. I might as well just drop out and not go back because what's the point? Why do I keep trying?

 

[katiemcat]

Major TW for self harm

Found out I failed part of my OSCE today and I have to drive 7 hours back to do it tomorrow. I did great on everything except open gloving. Of course I failed open gloving. I've been in a really bad state mentally for other reasons and this pushed me over the edge. When I got this email and the school refusing to accomodate any other date than tomorrow I tried to hurt myself really badly. I was obviously unsuccessful, my boyfriend is with me now so I'm safe but I feel so sick. I'm just going to fail again tomorrow. I might as well just drop out and not go back because what's the point? Why do I keep trying?

I’m so sorry you’re going through this. Vet school is very hard and it’s hard feeling to be failed on something.

Does your school offer a vet school specific counselor you can talk to? They tend to understand what you’re going through more than most mental health professionals.

Regardless, school is never worth your health or your life. If you need a break you should absolutely take one.

Take care of yourself friend.

 

[soupshark]

Major TW for self harm

Found out I failed part of my OSCE today and I have to drive 7 hours back to do it tomorrow. I did great on everything except open gloving. Of course I failed open gloving. I've been in a really bad state mentally for other reasons and this pushed me over the edge. When I got this email and the school refusing to accomodate any other date than tomorrow I tried to hurt myself really badly. I was obviously unsuccessful, my boyfriend is with me now so I'm safe but I feel so sick. I'm just going to fail again tomorrow. I might as well just drop out and not go back because what's the point? Why do I keep trying?

Regardless, school is never worth your health or your life. If you need a break you should absolutely take one.

Take care of yourself friend.

Echoing what Katie said. Vet school is not worth your life. Please get the support and help you need, there is so much more to life than vet school.

 

[overcastkidjuno]

I'm so sorry it was really inappropriate of me to post something so personal like this I'm just not in my right mind atm dealing with aother issues than the exam. I just hate surgery. I can cut and suture fine (well, enough to pass that part of the OSCE) but for whatever reason gloving / gowning up has always been by far the hardest part and it never gets easier is now somehow getting worse. I wish I could just be a doctor and do everything but surgery but I understand I can't.

 

[katiemcat]

I'm so sorry it was really inappropriate of me to post something so personal like this I'm just not in my right mind atm dealing with aother issues than the exam. I just hate surgery. I can cut and suture fine (well, enough to pass that part of the OSCE) but for whatever reason gloving / gowning up has always been by far the hardest part and it never gets easier is now somehow getting worse. I wish I could just be a doctor and do everything but surgery but I understand I can't.

There are plenty of GP vets that don’t do surgery as well as multiple non surgical specialties!

Surgery is a huge learning curve though, and it’s nerve wracking. It just takes a whole lot of practice.

 

[_rae_]

I'm so sorry it was really inappropriate of me to post something so personal like this I'm just not in my right mind atm dealing with aother issues than the exam. I just hate surgery. I can cut and suture fine (well, enough to pass that part of the OSCE) but for whatever reason gloving / gowning up has always been by far the hardest part and it never gets easier is now somehow getting worse. I wish I could just be a doctor and do everything but surgery but I understand I can't.

I’m sorry you’re feeling this way, friend. I think I can safely speak for everyone here that we’d rather have you quote unquote “overshare” here and seek the help you need than hear that you successfully harm yourself or more.

I was able to spay a cat with DVM supervision last year but I had a surgery OSCE today and I failed because of my intramuscular injection and need to remediate as well. You will not be a bad doctor because you’re struggling with this. You may not even be bad at surgery.

There’s billions of people on this planet, but there’s only one of you. You can take some time off if you need to, but the world can’t replace you, and it’s better with you in it. Take care of yourself ❤️

 

[HorseObsessed]

I'm so sorry it was really inappropriate of me to post something so personal like this I'm just not in my right mind atm dealing with aother issues than the exam. I just hate surgery. I can cut and suture fine (well, enough to pass that part of the OSCE) but for whatever reason gloving / gowning up has always been by far the hardest part and it never gets easier is now somehow getting worse. I wish I could just be a doctor and do everything but surgery but I understand I can't.

Hi. I don't know you personally, but I've dealt with severe mental illness and can totally understand wanting to shout into the void of the internet.

If you need to shout into the void some more, you can message me. I'm not a vet student yet, but understand deeply how complex dealing with mental illness and school and personal life and EVERYTHing at the same time can be. I'm wishing the very best for you and hoping your coping skills and external supports come through for you in this time. I'm also really really hoping you have good external supports (proper diagnosis and medication saved my life).

Best of luck to you through this trying weeks and hoping that the days following are not as trying.