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So a bit after the ex and I broke up I (stupidly) told him I'd hate to not be friends and wanted to stay in touch and blah blah blah. This was before I realized I was REALLY mad at him for stringing me along for months, letting me spend a lot of money to go to Ireland to see him, and then even though he had been planning on breaking up with me forever, doing it the night before my orgo final and two nights before the rest of my exams.

Now, more than 2 months since we broke up and more than a month since he got home from Ireland he decides to text me saying he wants to catch up and that he's sorry for being a stranger since he got home. I really didn't know what to say but ended up telling him I wasn't sure because I was pretty hurt by the way things went down and whatnot. He writes back this big long thing explaining his reasoning for breaking up a bit better than he did originally (and his reasoning is sound, just not his timing). But I don't know, I just feel so s***ty about it. I hadn't really been thinking about him, I was doing fine without having anything to do with him. But now I'm just upset about it all over again. And now I miss him and that really sucks. With most other things in my life crapping on me at the moment too, it's just kind of crappy timing.

I have an ex like that, too, do I understand how exhausting the being friendly thing can be. Ugh. I'm sorry he reappeared at a time when you didn't need him to.
 
So a bit after the ex and I broke up I (stupidly) told him I'd hate to not be friends and wanted to stay in touch and blah blah blah. This was before I realized I was REALLY mad at him for stringing me along for months, letting me spend a lot of money to go to Ireland to see him, and then even though he had been planning on breaking up with me forever, doing it the night before my orgo final and two nights before the rest of my exams.

Now, more than 2 months since we broke up and more than a month since he got home from Ireland he decides to text me saying he wants to catch up and that he's sorry for being a stranger since he got home. I really didn't know what to say but ended up telling him I wasn't sure because I was pretty hurt by the way things went down and whatnot. He writes back this big long thing explaining his reasoning for breaking up a bit better than he did originally (and his reasoning is sound, just not his timing). But I don't know, I just feel so s***ty about it. I hadn't really been thinking about him, I was doing fine without having anything to do with him. But now I'm just upset about it all over again. And now I miss him and that really sucks. With most other things in my life crapping on me at the moment too, it's just kind of crappy timing.


I had a very similar situation with an ex. He broke up with me the night before a very important final, but he didn't care because his finals were finished. We tried the friends thing for awhile, but a couple of months into it I realized how sh***y he treated me and decided a clean break was the way to go. One of the greatest decisions I ever made....that and adopting a dog to replace the boy :laugh:
 
So a bit after the ex and I broke up I (stupidly) told him I'd hate to not be friends and wanted to stay in touch and blah blah blah. This was before I realized I was REALLY mad at him for stringing me along for months, letting me spend a lot of money to go to Ireland to see him, and then even though he had been planning on breaking up with me forever, doing it the night before my orgo final and two nights before the rest of my exams.

Now, more than 2 months since we broke up and more than a month since he got home from Ireland he decides to text me saying he wants to catch up and that he's sorry for being a stranger since he got home. I really didn't know what to say but ended up telling him I wasn't sure because I was pretty hurt by the way things went down and whatnot. He writes back this big long thing explaining his reasoning for breaking up a bit better than he did originally (and his reasoning is sound, just not his timing). But I don't know, I just feel so s***ty about it. I hadn't really been thinking about him, I was doing fine without having anything to do with him. But now I'm just upset about it all over again. And now I miss him and that really sucks. With most other things in my life crapping on me at the moment too, it's just kind of crappy timing.

Take my word, it's totally not worth it. I have an ex who I broke up with nearly 5 years ago after he cheated on me - he's a total loser, lacks ambition, and has also gotten incredibly fat. At least once a year he sends me an FB message or an email, even though we aren't FB friends, to see how I am, where I am, ask if we can be friends, etc etc etc. Frankly I have no desire to be friends with him, and although I've told him several times, he continues to contact me. I just got an FB message last week from him. After not receiving a reply, I got a couple of early morning (like 3am) prank calls from a NY number which I am convinced is him. How mature. 🙄
Basically, if you feel that way, don't bother. It'll just mess with your head.
 
I didn't want to jump in on this and sway you, but there is no way in hell I would even think about dealing with it. He has had 2 months to come up with a nice cushy reason to tell you, and he obviously wasn't thinking about your feelings at all 2 months ago. Now that HE probably misses YOU, he thinks he can just get what he needs. Obviously I don't know him and I'm not trying to make him out to be a monster that he probably isn't, but I'm just saying.
If you have been doing really well without him, then let that be a sign to you. If he really really wants to be in contact again and he's truly sorry, he'll be there if you change your mind 😉
 
Visiting family. If I hear one more story about people they know "wasting" money on veterinary treatments for their animals, I might chuck them out a moving vehicle.

Not really, but seriously? They don't bat an eye on vacations, nice homes, nice cars, but spend money on a living creature and it's wasteful and should be going to feed starving people in Africa.

grr. 👎
 
Don't do it! At least not yet if you're going to consider it. I started talking to my ex pretty quickly after we broke up. Basically just as much as when we were dating, if not more. I posted last week on here about how he's now kind of seeing someone (we've been broken up two months) and that he still wanted me to come up and visit last weekend if I wanted to. I flipped a s*** on him and haven't talked to him since. I'm not even that pissed off about the girl . He's the kind of person who is almost always in a relationship, so I figured he'd find someone before I did, especially since I'm living at home still. I'm more pissed off about him lying to me saying he's just busy and thinking it's totally okay for me to come up and visit under the pretense that we'd probably hook up and then decide to tell me he's seeing someone once I'm there. No thank you. I don't want to become the "other girl" nor do I want to sit and watch you text/talk about her constantly when I just told you I don't know want to hear about you with other girls yet cause I'm not ready for that. I guess I'm also pissed about how ended things as well and how I don't think he should have said that we were dating when he wasn't fully over his other ex. She totally just kept getting in the way and he kept trying to make small parts of our relationship like their's. Of course, I dealt with it cause I figured he still needed to talk about her to get over her (at least that's how I was with my last ex). So now he's getting the cold shoulder. If he really cares about me like he says he does , he needs to prove himself to gain my trust back.

So basically, I agree with Emiloo. Give it some more time especially since you've been doing well and see what happens later on down the road. I thought I was okay with things and apparently I wasn't...
 
My dad is the same way. It's very very frustrating to have your family constantly criticize the profession you've been working toward for 15 years.
 
My rant. I registered with a new doctor the other day to try to get my shoulders checked out. I called them just a little bit ago to set up appointment and first get told they're not accepting new patients (but I still registered as one somehow) and then am told they can't get me in until September...

Guess I need to find a new doctor or go to Urgent Care and foot the medical bill again cause I'm on a HMO plan and need referrals for every single freaking thing. Or, I can wait until my expensive Penn insurance kicks in and take advantage of everything down there and hope I don't mess up my shoulders more than they currently are. Carrying cats in carriers really shouldn't hurt as much as it did...
 
Okay, my new computer is driving me crazy!! I can just be typing or something and the mouse will wander down to the task bar, and than *poof* my screen goes to my desktop. Oh I am getting sooo annoyed!! 😡😡
 
Okay, my new computer is driving me crazy!! I can just be typing or something and the mouse will wander down to the task bar, and than *poof* my screen goes to my desktop. Oh I am getting sooo annoyed!! 😡😡


You can fix that...just right click down on the corner of the task bar and dis-select the "peek at desktop"
 
Bummer! I would get so annoyed when my computer did that...took me 6 months to figure out how to change it
 
Bummer! I would get so annoyed when my computer did that...took me 6 months to figure out how to change it

Oh, believe me, I am very annoyed. So tempted to just chuck it out a window. I wont have a problem doing that if it wasn't brand new. +pissed+
 
You guys are the best 😍😍.

But yeah, I ended up just responding to him with a thanks for the expanded explanation and left it at that. He didn't say anything else so I think he got the idea. If I change my mind so be it, but I just felt so icky about it this morning that I don't think that'll be happening any time soon.
 
Okay, my new computer is driving me crazy!! I can just be typing or something and the mouse will wander down to the task bar, and than *poof* my screen goes to my desktop. Oh I am getting sooo annoyed!! 😡😡


Hahaha. Sorry, I know you don't find it funny, and I know it is annoying, but it's still funny. 😛

Is it a laptop? When you are typing does part of your palm accidentally rest on the touchpad?

Is it an external optical mouse? Are you in sunlight usually? What brand computer is it?(Dell's are notorious for this) Have you gone through 'mouse settings' and poked around, changed things, to see if it will stop?

If it's a PC, try going to 'mouse controls'(not sure what it is called in whatever you are running), find Pointer/Options, de-select 'enhance pointer precision'. Restart computer. See if that helps.
 
Okay, I know this is a discount airline, so I'm willing to put up with a lot from them. Like how annoying their website is with making you say no to upgrades and stuff multiple times, 'cause I know that's how they make their money. But really? Not posting the gate until half an hour before the gate is supposed to close? People might end up having to run across the entire terminal and may not make it! I see no reason this is adventageous for you, airline. You need to make the information available! None of the other airlines at this airport are doing that, and I don't see any reason for you to except to be jerkish to your customers. Not really okay with that.
 
You guys are the best 😍😍.

But yeah, I ended up just responding to him with a thanks for the expanded explanation and left it at that. He didn't say anything else so I think he got the idea. If I change my mind so be it, but I just felt so icky about it this morning that I don't think that'll be happening any time soon.

Good for you! 👍 It's so easy to fall back into things like that and end up much more hurt in the end. Hope everything works, whichever way that means :xf:
 
This ear infection, it will not end! Since when do adults get these? 😡
I got one in college. I now have permanent hearing deficiency in my right ear.
I had to pay the ER bill out of pocket too, I had a friend drive me there because I wasn't able to keep my balance any more. But the student insurance ruled that I needed to wait for urgent care in the AM.
 
Came to get my tires rotated and oil changed and they only rotated my tires 🙄
So now "it's gonna be at least 45 minutes bc [they] have another car up on the lift now." And that's my problem HOW??
He tried to say I didn't tell him and then his two workers called him out and agreed that they heard me say oil change for sure. That was my reason for coming dude. You do the tires anyway 🙄
And I was so excited it was done because it's like 37 degrees in here!! Brrrrrr!

And who the hell shoots up a movie theatre killing 14 people and injuring 30 more???? 😡
 
Only 1 more day. An I won't even have my puppy to cuddle with me when I'm alone tomorrow night. 🙁
 
And who the hell shoots up a movie theatre killing 14 people and injuring 30 more???? 😡

omg that was so horrible.....I would really like to know what that dude's motive was (probably just plain, bat-s**t crazy).
 
Came to get my tires rotated and oil changed and they only rotated my tires 🙄
So now "it's gonna be at least 45 minutes bc [they] have another car up on the lift now." And that's my problem HOW??
He tried to say I didn't tell him and then his two workers called him out and agreed that they heard me say oil change for sure. That was my reason for coming dude. You do the tires anyway 🙄
And I was so excited it was done because it's like 37 degrees in here!! Brrrrrr!

And who the hell shoots up a movie theatre killing 14 people and injuring 30 more???? 😡

omg that was so horrible.....I would really like to know what that dude's motive was (probably just plain, bat-s**t crazy).

WTF is wrong with people. Seriously. That's just wrong. It makes me really sad even though I don't know anyone there.
 
Hahaha. Sorry, I know you don't find it funny, and I know it is annoying, but it's still funny. 😛

Is it a laptop? When you are typing does part of your palm accidentally rest on the touchpad?

Is it an external optical mouse? Are you in sunlight usually? What brand computer is it?(Dell's are notorious for this) Have you gone through 'mouse settings' and poked around, changed things, to see if it will stop?

If it's a PC, try going to 'mouse controls'(not sure what it is called in whatever you are running), find Pointer/Options, de-select 'enhance pointer precision'. Restart computer. See if that helps.

Its okay, I know its kinda funny, but soo annoying. It is a laptop, the horrible thing is, I can set my computer down, not even touch it, and it will still act on its own. My roommate and I have resigned to saying that it is possessed.

I have done everything. I have downloaded drivers, I have restarted it, I have even "tapped" it... :laugh: Nothing seems to work.
 
Did you bleed it yet? Maybe going to hundreds of years old practices will help.. 😉
 
Did you bleed it yet? Maybe going to hundreds of years old practices will help.. 😉

Get me some leeches on it? I don't know if they are fond of electronics... though right now I don't think anything could hurt. :laugh:
 
Might as well try. 😀

Those always scared me so much. I went swimming in a lake near our house for years and then I saw one person with a leech and it completely stopped me from going there. Lol
 
Because my BF and I have SOOOOOO much time left together, Delta thinks it will be ok to just cancel his flight for the night and not allow him on anymore because they're all booked. Three days down to two. I'm so effing pissed right now 😡
 
Because my BF and I have SOOOOOO much time left together, Delta thinks it will be ok to just cancel his flight for the night and not allow him on anymore because they're all booked. Three days down to two. I'm so effing pissed right now 😡

I'm so, so sorry, lovey!!! 🙁
 
I'm so, so sorry, lovey!!! 🙁

He's mad because he is an aviation electrician on his way home from getting his advanced certificate and there's an electrical problem on the plane that he can fix but they (obviously) won't let him :laugh:
 
He's mad because he is an aviation electrician on his way home from getting his advanced certificate and there's an electrical problem on the plane that he can fix but they (obviously) won't let him :laugh:

Cosmic irony. The universe has one sick sense of humor!
 
I rant way too much lately.. 🙄

I'm having breathing problems lately and it's getting very annoying. It started (sorry about details) with my bras feeling they are way too tight and like they're pressing on my chest so much that I can't inhale enough air. But by now I still have the problem when I don't wear them. I only have to walk for a few minutes and I get way out of breath. I have to really focus on breathing in deeply for a while before getting back to normal. It's getting really annoying.

My mom thinks it might be because I'm sleeping on a sucky mattress on the floor and that my back pain might be a part of that, so we're trying to get a new one tomorrow and get the bed all fixed up. Hopefully that helps. If not, I'll be going to the doctor when school starts again. It's hard to walk to places like this, so having to walk on campus wouldn't be easy.
 
I rant way too much lately.. 🙄

I'm having breathing problems lately and it's getting very annoying. It started (sorry about details) with my bras feeling they are way too tight and like they're pressing on my chest so much that I can't inhale enough air. But by now I still have the problem when I don't wear them. I only have to walk for a few minutes and I get way out of breath. I have to really focus on breathing in deeply for a while before getting back to normal. It's getting really annoying.

My mom thinks it might be because I'm sleeping on a sucky mattress on the floor and that my back pain might be a part of that, so we're trying to get a new one tomorrow and get the bed all fixed up. Hopefully that helps. If not, I'll be going to the doctor when school starts again. It's hard to walk to places like this, so having to walk on campus wouldn't be easy.

That really doesn't sound good. I hope you start feeling better soon!
 
That really doesn't sound good. I hope you start feeling better soon!

Thanks. 😳 It feels like there's always something heavy sitting on my chest, which sucks when I have to clean stalls all day. But my mom offered to pay for the mattress so that's nice. :laugh:
 
I rant way too much lately.. 🙄

I'm having breathing problems lately and it's getting very annoying. It started (sorry about details) with my bras feeling they are way too tight and like they're pressing on my chest so much that I can't inhale enough air. But by now I still have the problem when I don't wear them. I only have to walk for a few minutes and I get way out of breath. I have to really focus on breathing in deeply for a while before getting back to normal. It's getting really annoying.

My mom thinks it might be because I'm sleeping on a sucky mattress on the floor and that my back pain might be a part of that, so we're trying to get a new one tomorrow and get the bed all fixed up. Hopefully that helps. If not, I'll be going to the doctor when school starts again. It's hard to walk to places like this, so having to walk on campus wouldn't be easy.


I used to feel like this, back about a two years ago, lasted for about a year. I finally just attributed it to stress and slight panic episodes. It too, started with my bras feeling 'way too tight', even though they weren't. Eventually, it moved to even when I wasn't wearing them, but not as often. Looking back, I'm pretty sure the stress in my life then was the trigger that started it, but after a few months my mind kind of took over and made it continue ' in my head'. I would feel it, then think about it for hours, essentially making it worse and then worry about it, which made it even worse. :laugh: Thinking about it made me panicky about it, and being panicky made it worse, which just made me think more about it. Round and round.

Got a job I love 😍, have gotten rid of a lot of the stressers I had(sadly, one was a friend of mine, but you do what you have to do) and I don't think I've had an episode in nearly a year. At least I don't remember having one. It sort of just disappeared. Makes me think mine was purely slight panic episodes. The mind can do impressive things to your body. (think psuedo pregnancy too)


E: forgot to say, when it would start, my ribs would feel compressed and I couldn't get my diaphram to expand fully enough for a deep breath. Felt like something was 'stopping it' just before it would reach 'deep breath stage'. I would try over and over to take a deep breath, which only made it worse. Bending over and trying to deep breath did help a bit sometimes.
 
I rant way too much lately.. 🙄

I'm having breathing problems lately and it's getting very annoying. It started (sorry about details) with my bras feeling they are way too tight and like they're pressing on my chest so much that I can't inhale enough air. But by now I still have the problem when I don't wear them. I only have to walk for a few minutes and I get way out of breath. I have to really focus on breathing in deeply for a while before getting back to normal. It's getting really annoying.

My mom thinks it might be because I'm sleeping on a sucky mattress on the floor and that my back pain might be a part of that, so we're trying to get a new one tomorrow and get the bed all fixed up. Hopefully that helps. If not, I'll be going to the doctor when school starts again. It's hard to walk to places like this, so having to walk on campus wouldn't be easy.

I have this same issue on occasion.. Usually at night when I am trying to fall asleep and my chest feels really tight. Then the next morning when I wake up I can not take a full breath without searing pain. I hope it goes away soon for you... It is not a pleasant feeling to have.
 
The weird this is that there is no pain (besides in my back, but nothing when I'm breathing). It could be stress related, I guess, although it also happens when I'm completely relaxed on a walk and not thinking about anything but the puppy. I'm nervous about starting school again because I'm worried about not doing great in my classes again. And then there's my fiance (still weird to say that) moving back to Mexico for an unknown period of time and I have no clue when I'll see him again. I have to find roommates for the house or otherwise I'm gonna have to pay rent for to mom. I know everyone else has to pay rent, but I tried hard to get this job and it doesn't pay enough to be able to pay rent. And I don't want to get another one because I don't want to mess up my grades. Ugh.

What's weird is that when I don't think about having to breath normally, I start breathing very slowly and even stop sometimes until I realize it because I don't have enough air... go me. 😎
 
What's weird is that when I don't think about having to breath normally, I start breathing very slowly and even stop sometimes until I realize it because I don't have enough air... go me. 😎

:laugh: I do that too sometimes. I blame myself in high school for it though. I was in track & Field and was purposely slowing my breath to regulate it when I ran. And it just became habit, even when I'm not running. I think that's why I yawn ALL the time, whether I am tired or not. My brain is not getting enough oxygen. :smack:
 
I'm having a lot of trouble getting large animal experience.

The first vet that I planned to shadow was nasty and she was not someone that I had any desire to be around.

The second one didn't come through. I asked a vet tech that I know if she could ask the vet that she works for if I could shadow him. I got a yes, but she said that they couldn't get me in until later in July (this was the end of June). She was going to call me when I could come in, but I still have not received a call. I facebook messaged her twice, but there was no reply, and at this point, I am not expecting one 👎.

It really sucks becuase I'm applying this year and all of my experience is small animal general practice.
 
Did you try contacting the vet yourself? That might help. Just say that you do it as a reminder and when would be the best time for you to come in.
 
Getting really tired of this weather. 80's to high 90's everyday with over 75% humidity. (I'd take 100 degress with dry humidity any day!) It's only rained once in the last 2 weeks(sprinkled a few times, but that doesn't count). Thank god it's suppose to rain this weekend, but temps will still be high 80's/low 90's.

I wouldn't normally complain about this, but there is no AC in this house! Windows are too small for the unit my roommate has. There is ONE window that the unit could fit in, but we found out during the last rain storm that that window is directly under a water collecting area. Basically, all the water on our roof collects and dumps over that one window, so water pours into the house through the AC. No gutters as roof is rotting away(landlord hasn't fixed it YET 🙄) Next paycheck I'm going to try and rig something at the top of the window to deflect the water and protect the AC. But until then... 🙁 I'm HOT! Sweating just sitting down in front of a fan. 👎

And I work outside constantly moving, so that doubles my complaint about not having AC at home when I get done with work. I take cold showers, but have a hard time getting dry! :laugh:
 
Getting really tired of this weather. 80's to high 90's everyday with over 75% humidity. (I'd take 100 degress with dry humidity any day!) It's only rained once in the last 2 weeks(sprinkled a few times, but that doesn't count). Thank god it's suppose to rain this weekend, but temps will still be high 80's/low 90's.

I wouldn't normally complain about this, but there is no AC in this house! Windows are too small for the unit my roommate has. There is ONE window that the unit could fit in, but we found out during the last rain storm that that window is directly under a water collecting area. Basically, all the water on our roof collects and dumps over that one window, so water pours into the house through the AC. No gutters as roof is rotting away(landlord hasn't fixed it YET 🙄) Next paycheck I'm going to try and rig something at the top of the window to deflect the water and protect the AC. But until then... 🙁 I'm HOT! Sweating just sitting down in front of a fan. 👎

And I work outside constantly moving, so that doubles my complaint about not having AC at home when I get done with work. I take cold showers, but have a hard time getting dry! :laugh:

Try 106 plus humidity. That is my forecast tomorrow.
 
We had a few of 100-104's before it rained, I was working the dairy cattle. Please never again! 🙁 Pretty sure I drank over a gallon of water each of those days.
 
Working the State Fair (lots of fun - not a rant) but I have to be there tomorrow AM at 6 in order to do vet checks. Which means I have to be up much earlier than that because i live 45 minutes away form the fair. yadda yadda.... just woke up from a "scary dream" and am all effed up and can't fall asleep. Too much reading the news before bedtime!!
 
I rant wayyyy too much on here, but I hate complaining in person, so I rant here instead of irritating my friends/family. Commence rant.

Dog has worms. Tapeworms? She's on heartguard, so I guess they're ivermectin-resistant worms. Which sounds nasty.... And looking back I can see some signs that I didn't put together until I saw the freaking worm next to her anus this morning. She loves having her butt itched around her tail, which I thought was just dry skin from summer. She had GI issues last week, which I just attributed to a combo of a virus & drinking saltwater at the beach because they went away by the end of the weekend. And she eats wayyy more than package directions to maintain her weight. But that's been true since I adopted her and I thought her metabolism was just high because she runs around like crazy.

I feel as though I should somehow know everything about veterinary issues simply because I've been accepted to vet school. And I know nothing. (Ok. Slightly more than nothing. But nowhere near what I feel like I ought to know).
 
I rant wayyyy too much on here, but I hate complaining in person, so I rant here instead of irritating my friends/family. Commence rant.

Dog has worms. Tapeworms? She's on heartguard, so I guess they're ivermectin-resistant worms. Which sounds nasty.... And looking back I can see some signs that I didn't put together until I saw the freaking worm next to her anus this morning. She loves having her butt itched around her tail, which I thought was just dry skin from summer. She had GI issues last week, which I just attributed to a combo of a virus & drinking saltwater at the beach because they went away by the end of the weekend. And she eats wayyy more than package directions to maintain her weight. But that's been true since I adopted her and I thought her metabolism was just high because she runs around like crazy.

I feel as though I should somehow know everything about veterinary issues simply because I've been accepted to vet school. And I know nothing. (Ok. Slightly more than nothing. But nowhere near what I feel like I ought to know).


You should consult your vet. But if they look like grains of rice, they are probably tapeworms (and don't do much to the metabolism, actually). Tapeworms don't respond to ivermectins, typically they respond to prazi- or epsi-quantels. Good luck!
 
You should consult your vet. But if they look like grains of rice, they are probably tapeworms (and don't do much to the metabolism, actually). Tapeworms don't respond to ivermectins, typically they respond to prazi- or epsi-quantels. Good luck!
Thanks for making me feel better!

See what I mean about everything that I don't know? I thought ivermectin hit everything and that's why we used it.

I called the vet this morning and dropping off a stool sample on Monday. 👍
 
Did you try contacting the vet yourself? That might help. Just say that you do it as a reminder and when would be the best time for you to come in.

No, I didn't. I'm going to try that Monday. Thanks for the suggestion!
 
Just when I thought life couldn't s**t on me any more this week...
As of this morning I had 3 foster kittens, the one I'm keeping and her sister and another 5 week old singleton. I've been keeping them separated in case of any disease issues. Occasionally she's run out of the room she's confined to and I've let her out in the living room a little, but as soon as she was close to my other kittens I put her away. I came home yesterday and my family had let her out and she had been playing with the other kittens all day. I got all paranoid (even though she's been perfectly healthy) and decided to test her for FIV/FELV today just to put my mind at ease. And then she tested positive for FELV. Twice. I am so freaking devastated right now, not only did we have to put her down, but now there's a chance that my other two could have it. I don't even know what to do with myself. I cried all day at work and can't stop and I just feel so guilty.
 
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