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I'm not particularly concerned by this turn of events bc I've been coughing a lot lately from some plague and now it's gotten very cold and dry here.

But it's annoying.

It's going around campus tbh 😬 blame the vet students bc about half my classmates have been coughing on and off for weeks

 

[apoptosis09]

Part of this is a rave, because I have two interviews on Monday! One is a holiday temp job at Bath and Body Works and the other is a veterinary receptionist job. They're both an hour drive away and not ideal, but I'm the definition of "beggars can't be choosers" right now and I would literally get on my hands and knees and beg if it would get me a job. I'm really hoping for Bath and Body Works because it's temporary anyway and if I get a research job in the meantime, I wouldn't have to quit and feel ****ty about wasting anyone's time. I'm really really hoping a research job or something career track is just around the corner. I've been doing so many applications, I have to get something soon, right? The receptionist job is a different story and I already have a lot of anxiety about it. I haven't worked in reception since getting my hearing aid so it might be a little better now, but it was so hard when I did it before and I never imagined I'd have to do it again. I would also want to leave as soon as I get any other offer, which feels a little dishonest, especially if I'm only there for a few months. But I desperately need some kind of income and there are very few options here, and if the receptionist job turns into an offer I will absolutely take it. I wouldn't have applied but there's just so few jobs anywhere right now, and I felt like I couldn't risk not applying.

I'm trying not to dwell in a bad mindset but this week has been really hard and the stress and rejections have been getting to me more than usual. I have my December bills covered and then I'm officially and completely broke. Just, ugh. It's all hard and I'm ready for something positive to happen. It also just feels like, everyone who has graduated from this lab is doing great and immediately got into their dream career and I'm the only one who is failing so badly. They didn't have to job hunt this year and their circumstances and everything are different, but part of me is wondering if I just interview that badly, or am I just that much less qualified than everyone else who's job hunting right now? A good friend also left her post doc this summer and has already been in a new job for a few months, so some people are finding things. I'm living with my parents but my mom has also been talking about being stressed for money and it all feels so precarious and scary. Anyway. I just wanted to put all that somewhere to get it off my chest.

I'm sorry friend. I'm sure I'm not the first to tell you that struggling to get a research job in general, let alone in this climate, is hardly a personal failing. To say the market is tough right now would be the understatement of the century, and even years ago when I finished my masters in bio in a bit of an economy bubble it was tough. Myself and about half my cohort ended up in industry.

As for the reception job, I don't think it's a problem at all if you only plan to work short term; the turnover for any vet support staff is pretty high by standard.

Hope you enjoy whatever you find! Even if you don't stay there long!

 

[PrincessButterCup]

As for the reception job, I don't think it's a problem at all if you only plan to work short term; the turnover for any vet support staff is pretty high by standard.

This actually makes me feel a lot better, thanks! I know it's ridiculous to worry about quitting a job I don't even have yet so I'll try to not overthink myself into an anxiety spiral and just see how the interview turns out. With the way things have been going, I might be there a year or longer anyway

 

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I'm on a lot of long term meds and this time of year is always when all my refills and prior authorizations run out. I'm a terrible patient so I always forget until the last minute and then go "**** **** **** I need those". This is my own fault but I am still crabby about it.