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Don't give up just yet!I have been working at drilling very intensely. We are doing Class I, II, and V amalgam and composites on typodonts, with a narrow deadline, and I have yet to complete a single one. I asked my professor for guidance, and she said to come in extra hours. I already do that. I was in the lab an extra 20 hours this week alone, and I am not getting any better. I try to stay positive, but it is hard to not become heartbroken that, so far into my education, I may not be cut out for this field. There have been other indications - I failed to make an ABO study model with the correct dimensions, I couldn't properly mount a cast on an articulator, my prior drilling exercises were subpar but passable. It's all adding up to me not being able to drill. Sure, more time and guidance would make it doable, but time is not a luxury in dental school, especially when you are in a classroom at least 5 hours a day (mandatory) and required to do research at the same time.
I want to be able to do this, especially 2 years and $200,000 into the game, but I am wondering if this is the time to just say it isn't the field for me and figure out my life. I have really not gotten any better, and I don't know what else to do at this point.
Sometimes things can get frustrating when I thought everything was good and then the faculty found a tons of flaws. I have very little to no patience so I applied more pressure on the bur than I probably should have and at max speed (got told by some adjunct faculty). Since then, I use slower speed and/or smooth/fine bur when I think I might damage it and always under-shooting the measurement. For example: if ideal depth is 1.5 mm to 2 mm, I will drill normally until 1 mm or so and then I decrease the pressure applied by my hand as I am approaching 1.3 mm and turn down the speed if needed beyond 1.3 mm.Thanks for the encouragement and reply. I've been telling myself not to give up for the entire preclinical year... not sure it was worth my investment, unfortunately.
So far they are all too wide, the wrong M/D dimensions, not cervical enough on the Class V, uneven depth at the pulpal floor, and only after about 2 hours of working on the same tooth do they ever get smooth. I just keep having issues with all of the preps and can't seem to figure it out, and I push the doubt and fear away to survive the week only to become a mess by Friday night. I even thought I should seek help of a counselor so I don't become this way each week after failing so miserably in school, and, lo and behold, our school neither has counselors for us nor allows us excused absences to meet with self-pay counselors (as if anyone could afford that). I can't imagine that anything in life is worth this, and my professors are offering no assistance other than saying 'practice.' The thing is, you could tell me to practice riding a bike for years (I'm 25!) and I still won't be able to bike in a straight line; practice doesn't always make for success, and I am very worried this is the case in dentistry. I just simply don't understand what you supposed to do when you struggle so much with the handskills...
What tooth and prep are you working on? What burs are you using?So far, nothing has made a difference. I have drilled eight hours a day since this post and have nothing to show for it. Of course, the school has also run out of teeth, so I can't practice the preps until next week. It's just incredibly hard and I am the very bottom of my class. I lack the stamina to drill any more than that in a day after sitting in lectures for 5+ hours, and am just completely overwhelmed. And I end up so tired that I have neglected all my studying since the drilling began three weeks ago. When I ask the professors about the repercussions of not finishing by the deadline, they just say to keep coming in and I will finish ... but that sounds rather unlikely at the rate I am working. If I make a smooth prep, it takes 4 hours and is the wrong dimensions. If the dimensions are passable - never just right - the floor is too deep, too shallow, all jagged... None of my preps are coming out right, even with the help of everyone around me. It's like my hands just lack the coordination for this career. The scariest part to me is that I was bad at wax-ups, I was bad at making ABO models, I was bad at the drilling exercises that preceded this typodont work... the school pushed me through, but it's all adding up to this defeating mess of not being able to do a thing right. I literally hate waking up in the morning and find myself in tears of defeat and exhaustion at the end of the day. I don't know how much longer I can stick with dental school. Professors are saying they won't accept loupes greater than 2.5x, too; I asked. Nothing is working. Nothing is worth this.
I have been working at drilling very intensely. We are doing Class I, II, and V amalgam and composites on typodonts, with a narrow deadline, and I have yet to complete a single one. I asked my professor for guidance, and she said to come in extra hours. I already do that. I was in the lab an extra 20 hours this week alone, and I am not getting any better. I try to stay positive, but it is hard to not become heartbroken that, so far into my education, I may not be cut out for this field. There have been other indications - I failed to make an ABO study model with the correct dimensions, I couldn't properly mount a cast on an articulator, my prior drilling exercises were subpar but passable. It's all adding up to me not being able to drill. Sure, more time and guidance would make it doable, but time is not a luxury in dental school, especially when you are in a classroom at least 5 hours a day (mandatory) and required to do research at the same time.
I want to be able to do this, especially 2 years and $200,000 into the game, but I am wondering if this is the time to just say it isn't the field for me and figure out my life. I have really not gotten any better, and I don't know what else to do at this point.
I was really bad at waxing. 76 first practical, 70 on second practical, failed the last practical(to be fair, I couldn't have been any more emotionally distant that day, dog died). C for the course
Then direct(composite) came. Nothing higher than 80, always in the 70s. C for the course
Then fixed came, nothing but +90s(except one failure on a 4% practical). Ended course with 89 avg
Then direct(amalgam) came. 88/85/90 on practicals. Most of my Excellent categories were my preps.
For fixed and direct(amalgam), I hardly practice for practicals anymore after the first month or two. People told me that fixed wouldn't help with hand skills with other classes, but it obviously it helped me. Taught me to be steady with my hands, taught me what to look for and what looked ideal. I think about 30 or so people failed the first practical for fixed, and I had a 90. 100 on second.
So, please don't beat your self up too much. I did and it wasn't fun. I kept comparing my self to my peers who were faster and getting better grades. Keep practicing, keep getting feedback. Its one thing to practice a lot, its another to practice and get actual feedback. Don't over do it. I practiced so much for direct composite, it wasn't even funny. I'm a lot more laid back about practice now and I honestly believed it helped me. I pretty much only practice now to see if things go wrong and how to fix them. I also started using only my high speed now and not my slow speed. Thats how much more steady I am now.
If you are using carbide burs, try using diamonds instead. I find they are a bit more forgiving. Real teeth are so much easier to drill on than the plastic ones. Make sure you're not running the handpiece at full speed. Do you have loupes and a light? IMO, you should go with at least 3.5x mag so you have a better close-up view of the depth and angle of the bur. I use 5.5x since my 3rd year and I will never go back.
EDIT: sorry for the necrobump.
OP, have things gotten any better 6 months later?
I recently used a diamond bur for the first time for an MO. Sooooo smooth.
I'm tempted to go from 4.5x to 5.5 too 🙁
If I end up in GP, then I'm for sure getting microscopes. I'm not gonna give up my neck or back for this career.
As long as your loupes as set up properly there is not be much gain in ergonomics from using a microscope.
Nowadays there are already some companies developing 3d technology (3d glasses and tv) for clinical dentistry. Microscopes are good but the learning curve can be hard so I believe this 3d technology can be the future of dentistry as it gets developed more.I also believe microscope dentistry will be the future, replacing loupes.