I feel like I dont actually know a lot of the stuff I was supposed to learn this first semester of medical school. I also did fairly poorly in my classes and found them to be very boring. I dont feel like this was completely due to the difficulty of medical school. It was also probably due to me being unappy and uninterested in medical school. (although I did find medical school to be very difficult) I really would like to do better for several reasons including not wanting to fail out, wanting to do okay on step 1, and wanting to become a competent physician. I plan on taking a bit different approach to my studies this spring semester in an attempt to do better, but I am worried that my lack of knowledge from first semesters classes may be a problem if this next semester builds upon what we were already supposed to know. I also am worried about the fact that I found only a small fraction of what was covered in last semesters classes to be interesting. It would be much easier to learn the stuff if it didnt feel like I was flogging myself with a hose while learning it. I really desperately want to be come more interested in the material and more proficient with it. I guess Im just confused as to what to do. I am looking for any type of advice that you feel may be helpful. Additionally, I suffer from depression and anxiety I have been taking medication for this problem for a couple of years now. My medication does help considerably, but significant symptoms still linger. I was able to function adequately through undergrad while depressed before medication even, but I feel that now that I must work more efficiently the remianing symptoms that I have are more of a significant factor in my academic success. I dont know what to do about this as I dont feel like I have time to **** around with different medications. Also I am not getting noticible side effects on my current med so I like that about it. Guess I dont know how to handle this.