On my rotation yesterday, I had a pretty tough but interesting case. Things didn’t go perfectly, but we got there in the end and I learned a lot from it. Fast forward to today… When I came in, I listened to the technicians complain about how incompetent I am for close to 10 minutes because I didn’t immediately know what was going on in this patient with extremely vague signs. I already have really bad imposter syndrome and my anxiety has gotten so bad as graduation approaches and now I just feel like I’m going to be an awful doctor and I’m not excited for graduation at all.
Okay. I'm going to say something that may or may not earn me some heat, because I've seen this scenario play out
so many times:
Some techs in teaching/specialty hospitals have hyper-inflated, but also very delicate, egos. Like, to the point where they feel like they are the doctors. That's not to say they aren't talented techs or intelligent - they could probably go through vet school if they wanted (but they didn't). Part of it is 'I've seen this 1000 times and knew what to do, but I'm forgetting this is your
very first time seeing this' the other part is the fact that some techs have a hard time taking direction from students/new grads/interns +/- have an inferiority complex, and it makes them feel better to make you feel small. Honestly I think they have an issue seeing someone typically half their age with less years in the field call the shots, but that might just be stemming from the techs I know who behaved like this constantly. I've personally never experienced this outside of a teaching or specialty hospital.
I'm sorry no one was around to stick up for you. I've had no problem checking techs who do this with interns. It's hazing, plain and simple. The majority of techs in this world are perfectly pleasant people, but the small percent that aren't can absolutely make your life terrible.
Easier said than done, but don't let it get you down. If it happens again, honestly just turn around and remind them this is a teaching hospital - if they don't have
constructive criticism to offer in the moment or after, then they can keep their b*tching at happy hour.