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[WelshCob]

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No more mail on Saturdays in the United States! That means longer wait times for snail mail acceptances. I got my KSU acceptance in the mail last Saturday I'd have been devastated if I had to wait around till Monday.

 

[wildcatj]

No more mail on Saturdays in the United States! That means longer wait times for snail mail acceptances. I got my KSU acceptance in the mail last Saturday I'd have been devastated if I had to wait around till Monday.

Huh? Since when?
Edit: apparently won't be starting until August and they will still deliver packages. Interesting.

Double Edit rant from me:
I have a horrendous head cold. Fever, coughing, stuffy nose, feel like my brains are coming out my eyeballs, ya know. And of course I have a 4 hour herpetology lab today that I cannot miss. We're discussing some overly complicated journal article and then working on all sorts of wacko computer business and modeling junk. Any other day I would be happy, but my brain is so non functional today this is going to be a pile of poo to get through. Wah!

 

[Abnerrs]

No more mail on Saturdays in the United States! That means longer wait times for snail mail acceptances. I got my KSU acceptance in the mail last Saturday I'd have been devastated if I had to wait around till Monday.

Huh? Since when?
Edit: apparently won't be starting until August and they will still deliver packages. Interesting.

That is interesting. And lame.

 

[WelshCob]

Huh? Since when?
Edit: apparently won't be starting until August and they will still deliver packages. Interesting.

So I admit that I didnt read the whole article. 😳

 

[wildcatj]

So I admit that I didnt read the whole article. 😳

To be double fair, I only read like 2 lines. They just made the decision though I guess. I would only really care if I was applying for schools next year. Sucks for those folks!

 

[deleted497320]

The labs I've worked in and the training courses I've attended have discouraged CO2 asphyxiation for euthanasia because there have been reports of the rats experiencing hypoxia and distress before becoming unconscious. At the university I worked at the only methods for euthanasia in rodents that were approved were cervical dislocation, barbiturate overdose, decapitation or intracardiac blood draw (followed by overdose to ensure death). The animal had to be completely anesthetized prior to administering whatever method of euthanasia. CO2 asphyxiation is an accepted method; I just wanted to point out that it is not the preferred method everywhere and some universities no longer approve of its use.

My lab does primary method of death = CO2, secondary method = cervical dislocation/rigor mortis. The secondary method is specific to whatever your lab's protocol approves, but the CO2 primary method was what I learned in the general training I received from my uni's lab animal med unit.

I did read a few papers that basically argued about whether or not knocking the animal out with something before CO2 asphyxiation (isoflurane in the papers I read, perhaps others have been looked at) reduces stress/pain. Overall inconclusive- different research groups got different results.

I'm not saying CO2 asphyxiation is wrong/right, humane/inhumane, just that it's an active topic of discussion and research. I personally don't like it- reminds me way too much of a gas chamber. 🙁 I'm eager for more research surrounding it to be produced and for the development of even more humane methods of euthanasia.

RANT: I had a panic attack in the cell culture room 2 days ago about getting a C in my last vet school pre-req. Physics, you are the bane of my existence.

 

[equineconstant]

To be double fair, I only read like 2 lines. They just made the decision though I guess. I would only really care if I was applying for schools next year. Sucks for those folks!

Eh, my school's post office isn't open on Saturdays anyway. Not much of a change for me.

My rant: I am so sick of packing and being away from school and travelling ALL the time. Thank goodness I'll be done once I get back on Saturday.

 

[ky261682]

I did read a few papers that basically argued about whether or not knocking the animal out with something before CO2 asphyxiation (isoflurane in the papers I read, perhaps others have been looked at) reduces stress/pain. Overall inconclusive- different research groups got different results.

This is what I found when I looked for research on the subject. I think the university I worked at decided to err on the side of caution and stop using CO2 until more conclusive research comes out. It's an interesting subject and I like learning about other institutions' policies.

Good luck with physics!

 

[Trematode]

I am supposed to drive a 6 hour round trip on Saturday to get our cat, but it is giving 50cm of snow. Grr.

I have to leave for work in 15 minutes. I have eaten but I am still not out of bed. Even though I am on the right path to figuring out why the heck I doze off at work and cannot get out of bed, I am still incredibly angry at my body.

 

[Emiloo4]

So so tired of feeling like I'm 90 years old every day. It's starting to take its toll on me mentally. Back to the rheumatologist at the end of the month. Hoping they can manage this better.

 

[equineconstant]

I am supposed to drive a 6 hour round trip on Saturday to get our cat, but it is giving 50cm of snow. Grr.

I'm taking a bus to Ithaca today and back on Saturday, and it's supposed to snow like crazy over the weekend. I'm pretty worried about it.

 

[DVMDream]

So so tired of feeling like I'm 90 years old every day. It's starting to take its toll on me mentally. Back to the rheumatologist at the end of the month. Hoping they can manage this better.

I know how you feel. I hope they can manage it better for you. 🙂

 

[Trematode]

Now they are saying it will be as bad as the blizzard we got in 2004. We had 90-some cm that storm. 🙁

Home now. I was feeling nauseous since I got up so I decided to go home. Cab cost a little less than what I made today 🙁

Also, the cleaning staff left me a passive aggressive note.

Our company has been mad at the cleaners because they do not do a lot of what they are supposed to. The office staff has their own concerns, but in the lab, the floors are never ever done. I dropped a pen yesterday and there were little dust bunnies stuck to it (no wonder I get stuffed up from being in there). Cleaning staff is mad at us because one of our workers pees a bit on the floor. He comes from a different culture and it is a sensitive topic. It goes back and forth.

I have a 50L container for one of my tests that I make nutrient water in. I put a garbage can underneath the spigot to catch any drips I may have. Yesterday, my arm must have caught the spigot while I was walking by because I lost 10 L in the garbage can.

I should have cleaned it up that day, but my thought process was "I an very busy today. Since I have no priorities tomorrow, I will clean out the garbage can first thing." I didn't think to ask about the cleaning schedule.

They cleaned it for me... but left me a note, for all staff to see, that said (in caps) "Next time you pour water in the garbage, you can empty it yourself."

What if the container had leaked, which it tends to do sometime?

Everyone hates the cleaners, so it wasn't a big deal. I just felt embarrassed and a little upset that I made someone angry. I think our manager is calling the company to complain.

I may be wrong, but this is how I see it:
Cleaners are paid to clean.
Did you see me leaving notes for the people who peed on the floor in my fast food job?
Did you see me leaving notes for people when I had to clean a foot of sour ice cream and pop from garbage cans because customers did not leave their half-full shakes and sodas on top of the can?
Do hotel workers leave notes whenever they have to clean up a sex bed?!

Apparently empty soap dispensers, brooms and water is foreign concept. They should have just left it.

End rant. I am going for a nap. Zzz.

 

[EngrSC]

I need sleep

 

[macita183]

Not looking forward to going to my Public Speaking class after work. The whole giving a speech thing tonight doesn't bother me, I just don't want to drive home after 9 pm on country roads for 30 minutes when it has been snow/freezing rain all day.

 

[WelshCob]

I hate assignments that have a brief description and are on things not covered in class. Yes I know WTH benchmarking is but I have no idea how to do it or even begin. This is also going to sound bad but two of my teammates are foreign students, I can not understand anything they are saying. If you talk to them directly they start shaking and wont look you in the eye. They wanted to do the assignment over email and messaging and I was like NO we need to meet and they were SOOOO reluctant.

 

[equineconstant]

Buses are apparently bloody expensive and I'm about to spend 6 hours traveling what should be a 2 hour drive and I didn't have enough cash for the taxi and I just want to break down and cry but the bus terminal is too sketchy. I'm hating Cornell already for putting me through this.

 

[Trematode]

Buses are apparently bloody expensive and I'm about to spend 6 hours traveling what should be a 2 hour drive and I didn't have enough cash for the taxi and I just want to break down and cry but the bus terminal is too sketchy. I'm hating Cornell already for putting me through this.

I feel your pain. I used to do a 5 hour trip in 9 hours on a bus... and still had to drive an hour home because the bus never went that far.

Buses suck sometimes 🙁

 

[Lab Rat83]

You hear about the Metro Transit bus shooting Trema? People are sick. No one was hurt but people still suck and are crazy.

 

[BlackDog17]

My birth control is making my face break out like crazy. I have two interviews next week and I do not want to be all pimply and feeling gross. 🙁

My electric bill for this month just came in, and it is horrifically high. Worst part is, I don't have a clue why.

 

[Abnerrs]

I am stressing eating. Bad. I feel so FAAAATTTTTT. Ugh. Fantastic way to feel 2 days before an interview. Sure hope I fit in my stupid suit.


OMG. Could you imagine the seat busting out of my pants when I sat down in the interview? That would be hilarious....after the fact......

 

[wildowl]

I am stressing eating. Bad. I feel so FAAAATTTTTT. Ugh. Fantastic way to feel 2 days before an interview. Sure hope I fit in my stupid suit.


OMG. Could you imagine the seat busting out of my pants when I sat down in the interview? That would be hilarious....after the fact......

Me too! Last night I started out with dinner, then fries..then raided cabinet for some chips. Ended with ice cream and chocolates 😳

 

[EngrSC]

You hear about the Metro Transit bus shooting Trema? People are sick. No one was hurt but people still suck and are crazy.

Dude, what has the world come to? Some policeman got fired from his job and he's been on a shooting rampage trying to kill other cops today. I'm not sure if he's been detained yet but the military base in the area he's at is on lock down.

People are freaking crazy!!

 

[Abnerrs]

Also. There was a giant white envelop in my mailbox. I got this huge adrenaline rush and then realized it was something stupid. I could just barf right about now.

 

[ky261682]

You hear about the Metro Transit bus shooting Trema? People are sick. No one was hurt but people still suck and are crazy.

I'm so happy my bf takes the car to work instead of the bus. I've never felt safe on certain Metro Transit routes. I've been on the bus when fights have broken out, clearly intoxicated people have gotten out of control (at 1pm on a Wednesday 🙄), and one time some high school kid pulled out a knife. Ridiculous.

 

[Escalla]

Those of you on the east coast remember this? Greyhound bus decapitation...🙁
http://www.canada.com/windsorstar/news/story.html?id=5e5e949c-989a-47f7-86da-53801510af24

 

[Abnerrs]

Me too! Last night I started out with dinner, then fries..then raided cabinet for some chips. Ended with ice cream and chocolates 😳

I swear I am eating like 5 or 6 meals a day. What is wrong with me?!


Also, this is a rather alarming and disconcerting turn this thread has taken!

 

[Trematode]

You hear about the Metro Transit bus shooting Trema? People are sick. No one was hurt but people still suck and are crazy.

Yup.

It is even sicker that it was a group of 16-17 year olds. Makes me gracious that I have not had to use transit lately.

 

[wildcatj]

Those of you on the east coast remember this? Greyhound bus decapitation...🙁
http://www.canada.com/windsorstar/news/story.html?id=5e5e949c-989a-47f7-86da-53801510af24

Ugh. I forgot about that. That was so freaky.

 

[EngrSC]

I swear I am eating like 5 or 6 meals a day. What is wrong with me?!


Also, this is a rather alarming and disconcerting turn this thread has taken!

Twix

 

[Abnerrs]

Twix

My worst offense lately has been raw cookie dough. I can't even....

 

[Trematode]

The other week, they locked down both schools in my hometown and the street which is a block away from my parents place. A mentally ill man was threatening to kill his father. They found 8 guns, weed and cocaine in the house, which was about a block away from the elementary and junior/senior high school.

 

[BlackDog17]

I am stressing eating. Bad. I feel so FAAAATTTTTT. Ugh. Fantastic way to feel 2 days before an interview. Sure hope I fit in my stupid suit.


OMG. Could you imagine the seat busting out of my pants when I sat down in the interview? That would be hilarious....after the fact......

I started dieting recently for this exact reason.

 

[Lupin21]

I am stressing eating. Bad. I feel so FAAAATTTTTT. Ugh. Fantastic way to feel 2 days before an interview. Sure hope I fit in my stupid suit.


OMG. Could you imagine the seat busting out of my pants when I sat down in the interview? That would be hilarious....after the fact......

😆 I had this same problem!! So I tried on my business slacks this weekend for my interview on the 14th, and to my horror, the outline of my pockets is very apparent through the wool 😱😳. Needless to say, I've got a few pounds to get rid of, at least in my thighs, in... 7 days now.

 

[orcagirl]

This is a two part rant. One part regarding food and the other not. Both dealing by my vet school BFF, who I love to death, but she just frustrates me sometimes. The first part is the fact that she, who is of average size, is trying to lose weight. She wanted to do it to fit into her wedding dress. Well she tried it on a few weeks ago and it needs to be taken in. So you'd think she's stop being so crazy about it, but it's gotten worse. And I'm a skinny person and I'm trying to just brush it all off, but I feel one mental snap away from an eating disorder. I'm eating really healthy and looking at the calories in everything I eat. I'm not a calorie counter. And I love eating cookie dough and fun stuff like that. I mean I do feel great eating better, but I feel a food obsession coming on. I want my friend to be happy with who she is, but every time we eat something, which as vet students is like every class, she mentions some new part of her diet. The worst part is because of all of this I'm eating better than she is. Like she's not eating the healthiest and she cheats on her diet all the time, getting chocolate bars and eating all of them. I just don't know how to tell her to back off all the talk about food without hurting her feelings. As she put it "she's only happy when she had food in her mouth." It just scares me to feel the way I do.

The next part is about veterinary care. So this friend acts like she spends frugally. This is totally not true. As sweet as it is, she gave cards and goodies to a few friends today. This has to have cost her a little bit of money. And we went shopping and she bought $40 leggings. I don't care how good they fit or how long they'll last, leggings should not cost that much. And she doesn't shop for food cheaply or healthily, but rather for convenience. She will buy a snack from the vending machine or cafeteria everyday. Like between $1 and $4 a day. However, if she would just buy a bag of pretzels at the grocery store she could get like 10x as much for the same price. Anyway, her dog has this weird tic, which may be like Turrets. She doesn't want to pay the internal med consult fee, claiming it will be hundreds of dollars. Yeah it's not going to be $12 like it is at the wellness center, but you do what you need to for your animals. She's not worried about it right now, but this tic might end up causing respiratory distress has happened twice this week. Personally, I'd be all over taking my emergency money and at least going to see internal med. However, she claims she doesn't have the money. I call bull because if she spent money more wisely, she would totally have the money.

And catching up on all my favorite threads is keeping me from studying for next week's test.

I miss my high school BFF, aside from my family and my husband, she's the only person I don't feel like I have to censor myself around. She's back in AZ and I miss her like crazy. All of this is probably the hormones talking, but there are some friends you just never forget.

 

[Trematode]

Hey orca:

You shouldn't be upset that you are choosing healthier options. I don't think it is a bad thing at all! Everyone is allowed to indulge every once and a while, but just because you aren't doing it as often shouldn't be seen as a bad thing. All of my coworkers live off microwave meals and fast food. It is refreshing to hear or see someone eating right. Doc was quite proud that I could not quantify the number of vegetable servings I eat per day. It rarely makes me feel guilty when I go for some dark chocolate, the almond bars at the farmers market or homemade cookies. I think everyone should be obsessed enough with their food to understand exactly what they are putting into their bodies.

A coworker of mine went on this cleanse for one week. No gluten, dairy, added sugar or meat (except for fish). She cheated badly a few times, which she announced to everyone. She also announced that she lied to her boyfriend and his mother who were doing it with her. She is an attention-seeking brat with zero willpower. People like that suck. I try to shrug it off and think "Hey, I am doing things better than her. Yay me!"

 

[orcagirl]

Hey orca:

You shouldn't be upset that you are choosing healthier options. I don't think it is a bad thing at all! Everyone is allowed to indulge every once and a while, but just because you aren't doing it as often shouldn't be seen as a bad thing. All of my coworkers live off microwave meals and fast food. It is refreshing to hear or see someone eating right. Doc was quite proud that I could not quantify the number of vegetable servings I eat per day. It rarely makes me feel guilty when I go for some dark chocolate, the almond bars at the farmers market or homemade cookies. I think everyone should be obsessed enough with their food to understand exactly what they are putting into their bodies.

A coworker of mine went on this cleanse for one week. No gluten, dairy, added sugar or meat (except for fish). She cheated badly a few times, which she announced to everyone. She also announced that she lied to her boyfriend and his mother who were doing it with her. She is an attention-seeking brat with zero willpower. People like that suck. I try to shrug it off and think "Hey, I am doing things better than her. Yay me!"

I don't feel bad that I'm eating healthy. It was something I was working towards anyway. However, I shouldn't be looking at the calories that I eat all the time. It's not healthy for me. I am not typically that kind of person. It's more this negative attitude towards food that can easily turn into an obsession. Not to mention, even though I'm eating a lot I'm hungry all the time. Like I get full when I eat, but then I'm hungry not too long after. The past couple of mornings I've been starving when I wake up. And part of me is like "at least my body will eat all of it's own fat." Mind you I've always been at the low end of normal or even below normal for my percent body fat. Tonight I had two chicken thighs covered in spinach and feta. It was about half chicken/half spinach. That was about three hours ago and I feel like I haven't eaten in a much longer amount of time. I know eating healthy is good for me, but my mentality about this right now is not. It started out as something good, but now I'm wanting to give up PB, which I really only eat in candy or on applies, for some other nut butter just because of how many calories are in it. Though it was a healthy snack and it kept me full for hours. Does any of that make sense?

 

[MommaFox]

It sounds like your metabolism is speeding up

 

[orcagirl]

It sounds like your metabolism is speeding up

It's always been fast. I'm one of those people who you want to avoid when I'm hungry and unless I'm always snacking, then I'm usually hungry. Though dinner usually holds me over quite well. Not sure why it hasn't been. It is possible for an already fast metabolism to get even faster? Does it mean I'm just not eating enough? I think I'm going to go make myself some biscuits (pumpkin ones). I love prepping things and then freezing them for times like this.

 

[Trematode]

I will tell you that if you make a drastic, sudden change to your eating habits, you will feel hungry all of the time for the first little while. I cannot remember exactly how long it was for me. I was eating more food than I usually eat, but way healthier and was hungry all of the time. Then it was almost like a switch went off... when I eat my snack, I am not hungry come lunch time. I could eat my salad or sandwich for lunch and feel too full for the rest of my meal. Hunger has a different feeling too. They say that you feel real hunger in your chest, not your gut. It is weird. I just wanted to point that out.

I replaced my processed peanut butter with nut butter. Cashew butter is a lot tastier and does not have the oil on top that natural peanut butter has.

I understand though. It is really frustrating to have calorie counting on your brain when you don't need to worry or don't want to worry about it. If you like real smooth peanut butter, eat it. I personally like it in the form of a cup 🙂

 

[wildowl]

Freaking out over the amount of work that has piled up in the past week.. 3 journal article summaries, journal article presentation, prepare to teach, grade quizzes and worksheets, work on review for my boss, study for an exam on Friday, flying to Illinois And a fellow TA asked for multiple extensions for midterm grading and is now late x2, delaying all of us from entering grades that were supposed to be due tomorrow. I'm about to pull my hair out/stuff my face with ice cream now..

 

[dyachei]

Orca, if you're concerned about it, go talk to someone about it! You'd hate for it to get out of hand. Maybe you could politely ask your friend if she could bring it up less often. If you tell her why you're concerned about YOURSELF then I hope she'd be understanding. Part of it sounds like there's a little competitiveness though. Try to stop comparing if you can.

Also I think I broke my finger cleaning. I'm pretty sure it's a sign....

 

[KCgophervet]

I'm currently taking Gen Chem II (need it as a prereq and my undergrad only had 1 semester of gen chem, so even though I've taken organic already I still need the "second semester of general chemistry"). There's a lab, and it runs on Thursday nights from 6-9pm and my first rant is about the fact that our TA stated the first day that we weren't allowed to leave more than 30 minutes early from lab. I'm sorry, but if you're in a rocking group and you get your **** done, why the heck can't we leave early?? I go to lab straight from working an 8+ hour day and the last thing I want to do is hang around longer just because of some arbitrary rule.

Second part of my rant is the fact that we were randomly assigned lab partners. My lab partners are two college freshmen. Don't get me wrong, I have nothing against first-year students, but my partners are just dumb(naive, ignorant, new at the lab scene?) as rocks. And we have group assignments every week, each week written up by a different member of the group. So far, we keep getting docked points because my lab members either don't believe me when I say something (even if I point at it on the rubric), forget to write something down, or just ignore me when I try to mention that it states we should write x, y, and z, and they've only written x. I also make mistakes, and I'm not perfect, but they didn't write up any of the prelab info, wasting the first 15 minutes of lab time copying mine down, refuse to agree on what we should do next, and overall make lab feel like it's taking forever. And actually take forever. Almost every other group had their coats on and were out the door by the 8:30pm "earliest we're allowed to leave" time. Our group stayed late.

I have a life! I just wish I could be a group of one, get my stuff done, and go home.

 

[pooter]

I don't feel bad that I'm eating healthy. It was something I was working towards anyway. However, I shouldn't be looking at the calories that I eat all the time. It's not healthy for me. I am not typically that kind of person. It's more this negative attitude towards food that can easily turn into an obsession. Not to mention, even though I'm eating a lot I'm hungry all the time. Like I get full when I eat, but then I'm hungry not too long after. The past couple of mornings I've been starving when I wake up. And part of me is like "at least my body will eat all of it's own fat." Mind you I've always been at the low end of normal or even below normal for my percent body fat. Tonight I had two chicken thighs covered in spinach and feta. It was about half chicken/half spinach. That was about three hours ago and I feel like I haven't eaten in a much longer amount of time. I know eating healthy is good for me, but my mentality about this right now is not. It started out as something good, but now I'm wanting to give up PB, which I really only eat in candy or on applies, for some other nut butter just because of how many calories are in it. Though it was a healthy snack and it kept me full for hours. Does any of that make sense?

Hey orcagirl, just chiming in to say that I get it. I've noticed the same tendencies in myself, though in my case it was something that developed secondary to worsening depression. Long story short, a few years back I lost about ten pounds that I didn't have to lose and lost the ability to enjoy food for a while. If I got any benefits from dropping the pounds, I didn't notice them--they were outweighed by the harm from being hungry, grouchy, and tired all the time. I had to train myself to like food again. I might get some flack for this, but I don't think it's normal to walk around feeling hungry when you don't have to. It's easy for people to get into this cycle where they're so committed to dieting that food feels like sin and hunger feels like virtue, but that way badness lies (at least for me). If you feel like you're being pulled into unsafe waters, you're completely justified in asking your friend to tone down the diet talk.

 

[Trematode]

Hopefully my last rant for a while:
I was up all night throwing up. I really need to throw up now but nothing comes up. No work for me... yet, I could really use the money. I am on antibiotics for yet another UTI. I think that may be the culprit. I hate being sick. 🙁.

 

[orcagirl]

I will tell you that if you make a drastic, sudden change to your eating habits, you will feel hungry all of the time for the first little while. I cannot remember exactly how long it was for me. I was eating more food than I usually eat, but way healthier and was hungry all of the time. Then it was almost like a switch went off... when I eat my snack, I am not hungry come lunch time. I could eat my salad or sandwich for lunch and feel too full for the rest of my meal. Hunger has a different feeling too. They say that you feel real hunger in your chest, not your gut. It is weird. I just wanted to point that out.

I replaced my processed peanut butter with nut butter. Cashew butter is a lot tastier and does not have the oil on top that natural peanut butter has.

I understand though. It is really frustrating to have calorie counting on your brain when you don't need to worry or don't want to worry about it. If you like real smooth peanut butter, eat it. I personally like it in the form of a cup 🙂

I like Jiffy Natural. It's a good in between for me. Though my all-time favorite is the SmartBalance. It's just too darn expensive for how much I was eating.

Orca, if you're concerned about it, go talk to someone about it! You'd hate for it to get out of hand. Maybe you could politely ask your friend if she could bring it up less often. If you tell her why you're concerned about YOURSELF then I hope she'd be understanding. Part of it sounds like there's a little competitiveness though. Try to stop comparing if you can.

Also I think I broke my finger cleaning. I'm pretty sure it's a sign....

Hey orcagirl, just chiming in to say that I get it. I've noticed the same tendencies in myself, though in my case it was something that developed secondary to worsening depression. Long story short, a few years back I lost about ten pounds that I didn't have to lose and lost the ability to enjoy food for a while. If I got any benefits from dropping the pounds, I didn't notice them--they were outweighed by the harm from being hungry, grouchy, and tired all the time. I had to train myself to like food again. I might get some flack for this, but I don't think it's normal to walk around feeling hungry when you don't have to. It's easy for people to get into this cycle where they're so committed to dieting that food feels like sin and hunger feels like virtue, but that way badness lies (at least for me). If you feel like you're being pulled into unsafe waters, you're completely justified in asking your friend to tone down the diet talk.

Thanks so much for all the support. 😍 I love this girl, but sometimes I feel like I'm walking on eggshells around her. She tends to be a little dramatic. I think it could be competitive, but in a way, it's almost like I feel guilty for eating what I want around her and I also feel that if I eat better, then someone she will too. Or maybe she'll stop being so crazy about it. I've told the husband and I've got him on alert. I recently changed BCP (another runaway topic of discussion on here) and am not the same emotionally as I was before. Though I do think I'm about at my natural level of emotional stability. It's hard to me to admit that, but I am also pretty sure depression runs in my family. According to the husband I am handling things much better now.

I do still love food, but maybe I'm not making all the right choices. I do feel overall pretty good, other than the hunger and maybe the looking at calories too much. I will say right now I'm only at the point where I look at them. I haven't been giving up foods because of the calories. I think I'm going to add some junk food to the shopping list (well not real junk food since the grease on potato chips has made me sick for the past couple of years). I think I just need to add more carbs back into my diet. It seems like if I eat a reasonable amount, I stay full longer (if I also have protein/fat at the same time). I would say I've always walked around a little hungry. Lately it's felt like my stomach is trying to eat me. I'll let you all know how things are going. I'm hoping that my emotions will just stabilize a little more, and I'll try talking with my friend. It shouldn't be as big of a deal now because her mom is doing the same type of diet she is. Before she didn't have any support system.

Sorry that everything sounds like a ramble. I love that you guys care so much about everyone and that I have such a good support system at home.

 

[XiLove]

I don't feel bad that I'm eating healthy. It was something I was working towards anyway. However, I shouldn't be looking at the calories that I eat all the time. It's not healthy for me. I am not typically that kind of person. It's more this negative attitude towards food that can easily turn into an obsession. Not to mention, even though I'm eating a lot I'm hungry all the time. Like I get full when I eat, but then I'm hungry not too long after. The past couple of mornings I've been starving when I wake up. And part of me is like "at least my body will eat all of it's own fat." Mind you I've always been at the low end of normal or even below normal for my percent body fat. Tonight I had two chicken thighs covered in spinach and feta. It was about half chicken/half spinach. That was about three hours ago and I feel like I haven't eaten in a much longer amount of time. I know eating healthy is good for me, but my mentality about this right now is not. It started out as something good, but now I'm wanting to give up PB, which I really only eat in candy or on applies, for some other nut butter just because of how many calories are in it. Though it was a healthy snack and it kept me full for hours. Does any of that make sense?

Hi Orca. I've struggled with this for quite a while, but I'm finding some good things. How often are you eating? To lose the max amount of weight, you should be eating 5-6 small meals a day. Generally, I like to have yogurt and granola with fruit for breakfast, pack an apple for a snack in class, pack a lunch, pack another snack (like a protein bar) and then come home after that. It looks like you're eating the right stuff (chicken/spinach/feta), but you should try having a protein for a snack. This will help with the hunger. I really love Luna protein bars - they're delicious (my favorite is Peppermint Chocolate) and fill you up! Don't forget - water is key! You should be drinking 8 x 8oz of water every day! Hope this helps!

 

[orcagirl]

Hi Orca. I've struggled with this for quite a while, but I'm finding some good things. How often are you eating? To lose the max amount of weight, you should be eating 5-6 small meals a day. Generally, I like to have yogurt and granola with fruit for breakfast, pack an apple for a snack in class, pack a lunch, pack another snack (like a protein bar) and then come home after that. It looks like you're eating the right stuff (chicken/spinach/feta), but you should try having a protein for a snack. This will help with the hunger. I really love Luna protein bars - they're delicious (my favorite is Peppermint Chocolate) and fill you up! Don't forget - water is key! You should be drinking 8 x 8oz of water every day! Hope this helps!

I'm not trying to lose weight. I'm eating three meals plus snacks, which generally works for me. Aside from a glass of milk in the morning, I pretty much only drink water.

 

[dvmdreamer]

I am stressing eating. Bad. I feel so FAAAATTTTTT. Ugh. Fantastic way to feel 2 days before an interview. Sure hope I fit in my stupid suit.


OMG. Could you imagine the seat busting out of my pants when I sat down in the interview? That would be hilarious....after the fact......

I had to buy a high-waisted--down-to-the-knee super gurtle thing to fit attractively in my pants before my last interview. I could almost even breathe the whole time.

(actually, it wasn't that bad and did the trick- Khol's has a really good selection if you find you need something)

 

[macita183]

I had to buy a high-waisted--down-to-the-knee super gurtle thing to fit attractively in my pants before my last interview. I could almost even breathe the whole time.

I did the same thing for my interview - I had something to suck my stomach in and something to suck my thighs in (looked like biking shorts but made a heck of a difference!) It made me sit up straighter for my interview so that was an added bonus🙂