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I'm pretty sure I am having an issue with benadryl dependancy. I know it sounds crazy but I've been taking 50mgs of it almost every night due to allergies. It normally knocks me out. And now I'm laying here trying to sleep and I can't. Been this way for 3 days.

I'm ridiculous.

Unisom is just 50mg of diphen and it's "supposed" to be non-habit forming. Maybe try to wean yourself off or something?
 
Me, too. Take it almost every night +/- melatonin so I can sleep.

I took 3 melatonin pills last night. Fell right asleep at 11. Still woke up wide awake at 4 AM. I haven't been sleeping well at all. I think it's stress. I've had a horrible few months. I also noticed about 15 grey hairs the other morning. I'd found one or two a couple of times before but to notice that many at once makes me think I'm seriously stressing myself too much (PLUS I dye my hair every 6-10 weeks, so you've got to be a persistent ****er for me to notice you're grey).
 
I have NEVER EVER EVER in my life been late to an exam I woke up this morning at 7:30 this morning for my exam that started at 7:30. 😱

I literally jumped out of bed through on some jeans and a bra grab a pencil and my formula sheet and run out the door, drove my car to campus. I normally take the bus which can take upwards of 30 minutes. Parked illegally in a reserved for this person space, and ran up three flights of stairs I got to the room at 7:55. Profusely apologize the professor he is like its okay calm down. Sit down and realize I dont have a calculator for a math exam, run to prof who manages to find a financial calculator for me to use. Took my exam first two questions I was like :scared: then after i calmed down i realized I knew them.

Turn my exam in before some people who got there on time and the professor ask me if I has substantial time to finish it and told me I could take more if i had to.😍

All of that and I got a ticket for parking illegally and passing through lovely do not cross after this time barrier. A minor battle wound in the scheme of things

I'd call that a RAVE not a RANT. Everything worked out fine. Parking tickets suck, but oh well.
 
I have NEVER EVER EVER in my life been late to an exam I woke up this morning at 7:30 this morning for my exam that started at 7:30. 😱

I literally jumped out of bed through on some jeans and a bra grab a pencil and my formula sheet and run out the door, drove my car to campus. I normally take the bus which can take upwards of 30 minutes. Parked illegally in a reserved for this person space, and ran up three flights of stairs I got to the room at 7:55. Profusely apologize the professor he is like its okay calm down. Sit down and realize I dont have a calculator for a math exam, run to prof who manages to find a financial calculator for me to use. Took my exam first two questions I was like :scared: then after i calmed down i realized I knew them.

Turn my exam in before some people who got there on time and the professor ask me if I has substantial time to finish it and told me I could take more if i had to.😍

All of that and I got a ticket for parking illegally and passing through lovely do not cross after this time barrier. A minor battle wound in the scheme of things

Makes life exciting, doesn't it!!! 😛 bet that got ur heart racing
 
I took 3 melatonin pills last night. Fell right asleep at 11. Still woke up wide awake at 4 AM. I haven't been sleeping well at all. I think it's stress. I've had a horrible few months. I also noticed about 15 grey hairs the other morning. I'd found one or two a couple of times before but to notice that many at once makes me think I'm seriously stressing myself too much (PLUS I dye my hair every 6-10 weeks, so you've got to be a persistent ****er for me to notice you're grey).

I take 2 melatonin and a valerian root. I sleep really well with those. Without them, forget it.
 
I take 2 melatonin and a valerian root. I sleep really well with those. Without them, forget it.

👍 valerian

I take three valerian pills if I'm having trouble falling asleep - the bottle says to take 3 and I think each pill is 530mg. I've also seen it sold for stress/anxiety at a lower dosage and I did find it to work well for anxiety during a recent car trip (I only took one).
 
Had a meeting with my research boss in which she was super passive-aggressively nasty to me. I am still fuming. While looking at my data, she says, "Your thesis is not a trash can and you cannot just put anything you want into it. When I asked her about my graduation prospects because I am flying my mother out for my MS graduation, boss says "Oh it's just walking across a stage, but sure it is great that your family wants to come for it." I am sorry but for a person whose mom never went to college and whose dad never went to high school, this is a big deal.

When I ask about my thesis, she says I should just focus on writing a paper for submission to be a more sane individual; the thesis doesn't really matter. She also said she can't guarantee I will have a MS; I wasn't looking for a guarantee. I was looking for a realistic timeline and she could not give me one, and yet she rejected all the experiments I have planned saying I don't have enough time. I responded that I am not looking for a freebie and I have been working very hard and want to know where we stand on this matter, because she has never given me a straight answer. She loves playing these mind games. This type of rudeness is unbelievable, she does not even pay my salary--I am self supported through teaching, so I am free labor in the lab for her. I work weekends, I'm usually on campus from 7am until 8 or 9 pm and I am by no means a slacker, so I don't understand where her attitude or rude demeanor toward my data is coming from. And thing is, I will explain my data and she doesn't understand it anyway and imply it is trash. I wish I had a punching bag to get all this anger out.
 
So twice in the last two weeks (the second one just now) I have asked about a thing that I applied to and been told "Oh my goodness, you haven't been told yet? We are so sorry, that is totally our fault, you should have been told WEEKS ago...You were rejected." 😡

The being rejected is what's making me sad (and a little stressed), but the not being told when I was supposed to be is making me pissed off. I could have been planning things! I could have applied to other things! I could have found other options! But no, someone forgot and made a mistake and I know they're sorry, and shortly that will make me stop being mad but right now it isn't.

I probably would be taking this more in stride except that I'm dealing with a safety recall on my car (the letter includes the instruction to not park in an enclosed space until I get the problem fixed because it's an explosion hazard), finding a cognitive psychologist and making an appointment for cognitive assessment testing (which is basically a few days of COMPLETE MISERY), and getting some stuff done that I have no idea how to do. None. It's like not knowing how to swim and told "now swim to the other side of this lake. If you can't figure out how to swim, you'll drown, but if you don't try, someone will be along shortly to shoot you." It's not quite that dire, but it sure feels that way right now. I woke up in the middle of the night stressing out about it and couldn't fall back to sleep because I'm so anxious. :scared: I've asked some people for advice and got "well, y'know, just swim" sorts of answers. To make things worse, I've got a time limit and if I miss that I probably won't be able to fix the problems it causes for at least a year, probably more like several years.
 
You know its raining a lot when a 4 wheel drive truck gets stuck in the mud at the bottom of a "hill" after trying and failing five times to make it to the top. And you have to get another truck to come put the chain on and haul your butt out. Maybe today wasn't the best day for us to be mapping out our trail ride to see how many miles we rode the other day :laugh: Time for me to go shower!
 
You know its raining a lot when a 4 wheel drive truck gets stuck in the mud at the bottom of a "hill" after trying and failing five times to make it to the top. And you have to get another truck to come put the chain on and haul your butt out. Maybe today wasn't the best day for us to be mapping out our trail ride to see how many miles we rode the other day :laugh: Time for me to go shower!

Ugg I am dreading going out in the mud. I have 5 miles of dirt road before I get to 51. Do you go trail riding much around stilly?
 
You know its raining a lot when a 4 wheel drive truck gets stuck in the mud at the bottom of a "hill" after trying and failing five times to make it to the top. And you have to get another truck to come put the chain on and haul your butt out. Maybe today wasn't the best day for us to be mapping out our trail ride to see how many miles we rode the other day :laugh: Time for me to go shower!

You guys would get stuck out in the mud. We need this rain so bad, though, so thank you for your sacrifice to the rain gods. :laugh:
 
We were up in Glencoe, probably not too far from you :laugh: It was more "dirt road riding" than trails.

Ha I'm too scared of the drunk Glenconians to ride out on the dirt roads around here. Our house is on 360 acres that I ride on, but it gets kinda boring on the same land all the time. Husband's boss has another about 1500 acres, but I'm too lazy to hook up the horse trailer.
 
Ha I'm too scared of the drunk Glenconians to ride out on the dirt roads around here. Our house is on 360 acres that I ride on, but it gets kinda boring on the same land all the time. Husband's boss has another about 1500 acres, but I'm too lazy to hook up the horse trailer.

We will have to touch base at some point so I can figure out where you are compared to where I usually am haha
 
Today is just a bad day. In addition to my above rant, I can't get hold of a bunch of people I need to schedule appointments with, and the one person I did manage to get hold of was the intern co-ordinator at the vet clinic where I've been interning, and she told me that I won't be able to come in this quarter because they're full up with new people. I shouldn't really complain, since the only reason I managed to get a spot there last quarter was the fact that they give precedence to new people, but it still sucks.

Oh well. At least she told me that she wants me to contact them for the summer to see if they have a spot, and I don't think she's the kind of person to say that unless she actually did want me back in the clinic. So I can feel good about that I guess.

I think I'll just go into denial now and spend the rest of the day eating bread and cheese and chocolate and watching TV. That's a good plan, right?
 
Ha I'm too scared of the drunk Glenconians to ride out on the dirt roads around here. Our house is on 360 acres that I ride on, but it gets kinda boring on the same land all the time. Husband's boss has another about 1500 acres, but I'm too lazy to hook up the horse trailer.

😱 I'm going to come over (all the way from Canada) and live with you and trail ride every day. Cool? Cool.
 
I decided to give ex-SO another chance a couple months ago.
Said SO breaks up with me today.
On my birthday.
 
I really want to go crawl into a hole and die right now.

This is my second UTI in two weeks caused by some ongoing lady-problems I've been having (for which I'm going to see the doc next week). So twice now I've had to explain to people why I can't work or do X even though I'm not coughing up a lung or because of some other generic calling-in-sick reason. I had a coworker sweetly yet suspiciously (I.e. judging the crap out of me) ask my about my...hem...sexual habits and it's *super* humiliating because even though something like 70% of UTIs in women are related to sexual activity, mine are totally not... Maybe I'm just being too dramatic, but either way this blows.

Misery.
 
I really want to go crawl into a hole and die right now.

This is my second UTI in two weeks caused by some ongoing lady-problems I've been having (for which I'm going to see the doc next week). So twice now I've had to explain to people why I can't work or do X even though I'm not coughing up a lung or because of some other generic calling-in-sick reason. I had a coworker sweetly yet suspiciously (I.e. judging the crap out of me) ask my about my...hem...sexual habits and it's *super* humiliating because even though something like 70% of UTIs in women are related to sexual activity, mine are totally not... Maybe I'm just being too dramatic, but either way this blows.

Misery.

Kindly(and by that I mean very UNkindly) remind them that it's like Mono, you can get it from more than just kissing. 😡 People need to mind their own business with things like that.
 
I really want to go crawl into a hole and die right now.

This is my second UTI in two weeks caused by some ongoing lady-problems I've been having (for which I'm going to see the doc next week). So twice now I've had to explain to people why I can't work or do X even though I'm not coughing up a lung or because of some other generic calling-in-sick reason. I had a coworker sweetly yet suspiciously (I.e. judging the crap out of me) ask my about my...hem...sexual habits and it's *super* humiliating because even though something like 70% of UTIs in women are related to sexual activity, mine are totally not... Maybe I'm just being too dramatic, but either way this blows.

Misery.

Apple juice? Cranberry pills?
 
Apple juice? Cranberry pills?

I'm on it! I have a huge jug of cranberry juice and a carton of OJ. The LNP I just saw told me to eat lots of yogurt, too. I just tried the Chobani pomegranate flavor. Yum.
 
You know its raining a lot when a 4 wheel drive truck gets stuck in the mud at the bottom of a "hill" after trying and failing five times to make it to the top. And you have to get another truck to come put the chain on and haul your butt out. Maybe today wasn't the best day for us to be mapping out our trail ride to see how many miles we rode the other day :laugh: Time for me to go shower!

Do you ride a lot I'm really hoping that I can keep it up in vet school. Working and going to school full time now has really eaten into my riding time. I see my horse maybe twice a week right now. The upside of working is that I can afford to pay someone else to ride him. I've invested A LOT in his training and I really want to be able to still ride. I feel when I get into vet school because I'm so time strapped now when I stop working I may have more time on my hands then I think.
 
I'm on it! I have a huge jug of cranberry juice and a carton of OJ. The LNP I just saw told me to eat lots of yogurt, too. I just tried the Chobani pomegranate flavor. Yum.

Have you tried Azo? It is AMAZING! Eliminates that I hate being female feeling...
 
I really want to go crawl into a hole and die right now.

This is my second UTI in two weeks caused by some ongoing lady-problems I've been having (for which I'm going to see the doc next week). So twice now I've had to explain to people why I can't work or do X even though I'm not coughing up a lung or because of some other generic calling-in-sick reason. I had a coworker sweetly yet suspiciously (I.e. judging the crap out of me) ask my about my...hem...sexual habits and it's *super* humiliating because even though something like 70% of UTIs in women are related to sexual activity, mine are totally not... Maybe I'm just being too dramatic, but either way this blows.

Misery.

I used to get UTIs ALL THE TIME. I wasn't even sexually active when it started. I swear some people are just more prone than others. I started by making a point to drink at least 2 gals of water a day and peeing as SOON as I had to. I used to have a bad habit of holding it due to work and being busy and then BAM! UTI a few hours later. They're ALL awful and excruciating.
 
Have you tried Azo? It is AMAZING! Eliminates that I hate being female feeling...

Oh yes. I bought it OTC last time, but the this time I was able to get a prescription for phenazopyridine pills that are double the size (mg) of the Azo brand pills (but cost about the same). Sweet relief. Well, briefly haha.
 
I used to get UTIs ALL THE TIME. I wasn't even sexually active when it started. I swear some people are just more prone than others. I started by making a point to drink at least 2 gals of water a day and peeing as SOON as I had to. I used to have a bad habit of holding it due to work and being busy and then BAM! UTI a few hours later. They're ALL awful and excruciating.

Oh my, that sounds awful. My mom is that way... You're right, I think some people are just more prone to getting them.
 
Do you ride a lot I'm really hoping that I can keep it up in vet school. Working and going to school full time now has really eaten into my riding time. I see my horse maybe twice a week right now. The upside of working is that I can afford to pay someone else to ride him. I've invested A LOT in his training and I really want to be able to still ride. I feel when I get into vet school because I'm so time strapped now when I stop working I may have more time on my hands then I think.

I don't own a horse, but my good friend does and we ride them about twice a week. There is time in vet school to do the things you want, it just may come at the cost of other things. Example... I like to work out, go to the archery range, sing & play guitar, and keep my relationship going 😍 but it means I ride the B/C train for grades. But to me, I'd rather have a B and still enjoy life, than work for As and have no life. I'd say if you make it a priority you definitely can.
 
Do you ride a lot I'm really hoping that I can keep it up in vet school. Working and going to school full time now has really eaten into my riding time. I see my horse maybe twice a week right now. The upside of working is that I can afford to pay someone else to ride him. I've invested A LOT in his training and I really want to be able to still ride. I feel when I get into vet school because I'm so time strapped now when I stop working I may have more time on my hands then I think.

First year I didn't ride at all (But that was more lack of opportunity than lack of time) Since then I've been riding 3+ times a week most weeks. I'll skip crazy exam weeks and things like that but for the most part it's one of those things I MAKE the time for. The closer your horse is, the better off you'll be. I have to drive ~25 minutes away and its tough sometimes to get motivated to make the drive and lose an hour of study time. (Could care less about losing study time for ponies but the drive feels like a waste :laugh: )
 
I'm on it! I have a huge jug of cranberry juice and a carton of OJ. The LNP I just saw told me to eat lots of yogurt, too. I just tried the Chobani pomegranate flavor. Yum.

Cranberry juice is definitely the way to go! My first UTI was about a year ago and I was absolutely miserable because I didn't realize what was going on until about the third day . . . I was running a fever and peeing blood by the time I went to the doctor. 🙁

When I felt one coming on a few months ago, I went to the grocery store and bought two big bottles of no sugar added cranberry juice. Drank an entire bottle in about an hour, then drank the second one over the course of the next day. Knocked the UTI down in no time. Unfortunately, I'd forgotten that most artificial sweeteners are laxatives . . . but at least the UTI was gone!
 
(Could care less about losing study time for ponies but the drive feels like a waste :laugh: )

I feel this way any time I have to go somewhere, especially if I have to go to school for only one or two lectures... the school is an hour and a half away by bus and it feels like a waste of time when I could just sit at home and work through the lectures myself. Same thing when going to the store, it is a good 15 minute walk away... the walk seems like a waste of time, but I like the shopping... 🙂
 
I don't mind if you have backyard chickens, but backyard roosters in suburbia = asking for complaints. I don't like waking up at dawn because you want more chickens. I don't like having to turn music/tv on loudly so I don't have to hear your rooster. And it is illegal in this city.
 
First year I didn't ride at all (But that was more lack of opportunity than lack of time) Since then I've been riding 3+ times a week most weeks. I'll skip crazy exam weeks and things like that but for the most part it's one of those things I MAKE the time for. The closer your horse is, the better off you'll be. I have to drive ~25 minutes away and its tough sometimes to get motivated to make the drive and lose an hour of study time. (Could care less about losing study time for ponies but the drive feels like a waste :laugh: )

Awesome I keep pony about 15 minutes away! I really hope I'm able to ride at least 3 days a week.
 
First year I didn't ride at all (But that was more lack of opportunity than lack of time) Since then I've been riding 3+ times a week most weeks. I'll skip crazy exam weeks and things like that but for the most part it's one of those things I MAKE the time for. The closer your horse is, the better off you'll be. I have to drive ~25 minutes away and its tough sometimes to get motivated to make the drive and lose an hour of study time. (Could care less about losing study time for ponies but the drive feels like a waste :laugh: )

Donkey isn't enough motivation for you?
 
Not really a rant, but everyone else in my department is running at least Vista on their work PCs. How am I stuck with Windows XP? Who is 3 OSs behind nowadays? :lame:

Loving the 22" dual monitors....but XP....really.....
 
I really want to go crawl into a hole and die right now.

This is my second UTI in two weeks caused by some ongoing lady-problems I've been having (for which I'm going to see the doc next week). So twice now I've had to explain to people why I can't work or do X even though I'm not coughing up a lung or because of some other generic calling-in-sick reason. I had a coworker sweetly yet suspiciously (I.e. judging the crap out of me) ask my about my...hem...sexual habits and it's *super* humiliating because even though something like 70% of UTIs in women are related to sexual activity, mine are totally not... Maybe I'm just being too dramatic, but either way this blows.

Misery.

Get D-Mannose. It's a miracle for me. A lot of times after particularly active weekends with my man, I'll end up feeling like I'm getting one (or getting one). I take 3 pills, 3 times a day and within a few hours of the first dose symptoms are going away. I've now honestly started to take one a day preemptively when I know we're going to be spending lots of time together. Seriously it's a great thing to just have on hand.
 
These are the ones I use.
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Get D-Mannose. It's a miracle for me. A lot of times after particularly active weekends with my man, I'll end up feeling like I'm getting one (or getting one). I take 3 pills, 3 times a day and within a few hours of the first dose symptoms are going away. I've now honestly started to take one a day preemptively when I know we're going to be spending lots of time together. Seriously it's a great thing to just have on hand.

Ballin'. I'll give it a try. Although I have a hunch this recent bout is due to another medical issue I've been dealing with, since this is certainly unusual for me. Not emptying one's bladder all the way (which is in all likelihood what's been happening because of said medical issue) is a sure fire way to get a UTI 🙁
 
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