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[apoptosis09]

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Today is my last day in the US before I leave for school and it's such a weird melancholic feeling. I assume everyone gets like this before going to vet school, but there's constantly this little voice in the back of my head telling me it could have been different, if I just tried harder I could have gotten into my instate and things could have been so much easier, ect. I know it's part of that imposter syndrome that everyone suffers from, but the finality of it all really hammers it home. All of my belongings are in boxes at my parent's house or in 3 checked bags, my beloved pets are being cared for by parents and friends until I get things sorted over there in a year or so, and so I just can't help but wonder. Everyone keeps asking and saying how excited I must be, and I am! But there's a sense of loss there too, just thinking about 'what could have been'. I don't doubt I'm making the right decision, only if I could have tried harder in the past to get a different outcome. I'm sure I'll feel better once I'm there, making friends and doing the work, but I'll definitely have some part of homesickness that inevitably comes with moving away from familiar things.

I'm sorry, moving and culture shock are tough, especially moving to a new country.
But on the other hand - that's pretty awesome! Not only going to vet school, but getting to do it abroad. I definitely understand your in-state being cheaper and more convenient, but there are so many cool things you'll get to do and learn in a new country that you would never experience staying close to home. Honestly makes me a little jealous 😅. I hope you come to enjoy it! And if not, it's only a few school years until you can live and practice wherever you want.

 

[apoptosis09]

Yea people are giving me **** this year about sitting in the front row on a particular side of the room. They want to sit there bc they did last year, but my friends are on that side this year and I need front row bc I'm hard of hearing. If I'm there first, I don't really understand why it's such a big deal to sit on the specific side of the room in a specific chair every time. Like, go sit on the other side! The front row is open lol. If they get there before me then I will sit on the other side. It's really not deep and this is coming from someone with anxiety who relies on routine and predictability for comfort lol

Y'all are going to get the same lecture we did if they keep that up 💀

Also ironically I end up in the front few rows in our lecture hall because its the last to fill up and I'm not as early as everyone else 😅 the very front and center is avoided like the plague - probably because the lecturers like to bring gross specimens to class and it does smell a bit lol

 

[beans2020]

Today is my last day in the US before I leave for school and it's such a weird melancholic feeling. I assume everyone gets like this before going to vet school, but there's constantly this little voice in the back of my head telling me it could have been different, if I just tried harder I could have gotten into my instate and things could have been so much easier, ect. I know it's part of that imposter syndrome that everyone suffers from, but the finality of it all really hammers it home. All of my belongings are in boxes at my parent's house or in 3 checked bags, my beloved pets are being cared for by parents and friends until I get things sorted over there in a year or so, and so I just can't help but wonder. Everyone keeps asking and saying how excited I must be, and I am! But there's a sense of loss there too, just thinking about 'what could have been'. I don't doubt I'm making the right decision, only if I could have tried harder in the past to get a different outcome. I'm sure I'll feel better once I'm there, making friends and doing the work, but I'll definitely have some part of homesickness that inevitably comes with moving away from familiar things.

As someone who didn't get to go to her in state and had to move away from home - I felt exactly the same way when I moved to Missouri last year for school. The town I am from is literally 40 minutes from my IS vet school (close enough that I commuted there to work one summer). It stung when I realized I had to leave my home state and family for school. If I'm being completely honest, it still does sometimes. Something my family keeps telling me is that vet school is NOT forever and you can go back to your home state once you're done! And in the meantime, you will learn so much about yourself and will grow in ways you never thought you would. Plus you'll get to meet people and have experiences you would never have had otherwise! (Like apoptosis said). Sending some love your way - it'll be hard, but you've totally got this!! Best of luck tomorrow and with the start of your school year!

 

[BunnyFluffy]

I'm sorry, moving and culture shock are tough, especially moving to a new country.
But on the other hand - that's pretty awesome! Not only going to vet school, but getting to do it abroad. I definitely understand your in-state being cheaper and more convenient, but there are so many cool things you'll get to do and learn in a new country that you would never experience staying close to home. Honestly makes me a little jealous 😅. I hope you come to enjoy it! And if not, it's only a few school years until you can live and practice wherever you want.

As someone who didn't get to go to her in state and had to move away from home - I felt exactly the same way when I moved to Missouri last year for school. The town I am from is literally 40 minutes from my IS vet school (close enough that I commuted there to work one summer). It stung when I realized I had to leave my home state and family for school. If I'm being completely honest, it still does sometimes. Something my family keeps telling me is that vet school is NOT forever and you can go back to your home state once you're done! And in the meantime, you will learn so much about yourself and will grow in ways you never thought you would. Plus you'll get to meet people and have experiences you would never have had otherwise! (Like apoptosis said). Sending some love your way - it'll be hard, but you've totally got this!! Best of luck tomorrow and with the start of your school year!

Aww, thanks you guys! ❤️ I appreciate the kind words and wishes, really. I'm definitely grateful that I get to go abroad to get a great education, not something everyone can do for sure. And you're both right, it's only a little while in the grand scheme of life, and I've always gone by the motto of "I can do anything for x amount of time", and somehow it helps. I'm definitely excited to start school, it'll get my mind off of things for sure.

 

[fauna]

Today is my last day in the US before I leave for school and it's such a weird melancholic feeling. I assume everyone gets like this before going to vet school, but there's constantly this little voice in the back of my head telling me it could have been different, if I just tried harder I could have gotten into my instate and things could have been so much easier, ect. I know it's part of that imposter syndrome that everyone suffers from, but the finality of it all really hammers it home. All of my belongings are in boxes at my parent's house or in 3 checked bags, my beloved pets are being cared for by parents and friends until I get things sorted over there in a year or so, and so I just can't help but wonder. Everyone keeps asking and saying how excited I must be, and I am! But there's a sense of loss there too, just thinking about 'what could have been'. I don't doubt I'm making the right decision, only if I could have tried harder in the past to get a different outcome. I'm sure I'll feel better once I'm there, making friends and doing the work, but I'll definitely have some part of homesickness that inevitably comes with moving away from familiar things.

hey!! I am still in the US, so I know that my experience isn't the same as yours. But, I was really emotional during my move and leading up to it. I think I sobbed like two days after I got accepted, not out of happiness, but purely just out of being overwhelmed and feeling like I was really going to grieve my current life at the time. I love my hometown, I loved my job, my friends, my family. I honestly had never even gotten that ecstatic feeling of acceptance, I was mostly just really worried.

For me, starting school was the best thing. That is when I truly got that amazing feeling of "I made it!" and I am a month in and that feeling still hasn't faded. Sure, it's stressful and I still have anxiety, but, I am literally so happy to be learning all of this finally. I get stressed and I complain a lot lol, but in general, I still have this feeling of just being so happy to be here and this really amazing affirmation that I got what I always wanted (even if the location is different, even if it's not what I imagined). I feel like nobody says that vet school is fun, but it is! I know I am still early into school so I don't want to sound super naive but, genuinely, I feel so happy to be here.

I am so busy with school that I honestly don't feel like I have time to be homesick. I was pretty worried about being homesick because I moved far from home once before and got homesick within a week and then traveled home every chance I could-- which I knew wouldn't be possible as a vet student. The difference was I had a lotttt of freetime in that scenario and I didn't really have any friends or any "third places" to go to. Here, I am always working on something and I have a whole cohort of people going through the exact same thing as me that I can hang out with. I do miss my friends and family sometimes but I feel so much better when I give them a call and it works for me! My point is, with all the anxiety I had leading up to this, I have adjusted wayyy better than I thought I would.

Of course, there will still be an adjustment period and there's going to be some culture shock as well, so be kind to yourself and give yourself that space. But, I think, once you develop a routine, things will be really great!

 

[pp9]

Today is my last day in the US before I leave for school and it's such a weird melancholic feeling. I assume everyone gets like this before going to vet school, but there's constantly this little voice in the back of my head telling me it could have been different, if I just tried harder I could have gotten into my instate and things could have been so much easier, ect. I know it's part of that imposter syndrome that everyone suffers from, but the finality of it all really hammers it home. All of my belongings are in boxes at my parent's house or in 3 checked bags, my beloved pets are being cared for by parents and friends until I get things sorted over there in a year or so, and so I just can't help but wonder. Everyone keeps asking and saying how excited I must be, and I am! But there's a sense of loss there too, just thinking about 'what could have been'. I don't doubt I'm making the right decision, only if I could have tried harder in the past to get a different outcome. I'm sure I'll feel better once I'm there, making friends and doing the work, but I'll definitely have some part of homesickness that inevitably comes with moving away from familiar things.

I felt the exact same way going OOS and I was only 6 hours away from home. I still think about what could have been every once in a while, and I graduated in 2019. Although I guarantee you that you will do fine and have a very happy life despite not getting into your IS school, grieving what you always 'planned' for is completely normal.

On the bright side, in a few years you'll look back and be able to see how many people you've met and how many experiences you've had that you wouldn't have gotten at a US school. A lot of people would love to spend time overseas, so once the culture shock wears off you will probably be having a great time exploring and meeting people. Or as great as it can be considering it's still vet school, lol.

 

[indysadventures]

Today is my last day in the US before I leave for school and it's such a weird melancholic feeling. I assume everyone gets like this before going to vet school, but there's constantly this little voice in the back of my head telling me it could have been different, if I just tried harder I could have gotten into my instate and things could have been so much easier, ect. I know it's part of that imposter syndrome that everyone suffers from, but the finality of it all really hammers it home. All of my belongings are in boxes at my parent's house or in 3 checked bags, my beloved pets are being cared for by parents and friends until I get things sorted over there in a year or so, and so I just can't help but wonder. Everyone keeps asking and saying how excited I must be, and I am! But there's a sense of loss there too, just thinking about 'what could have been'. I don't doubt I'm making the right decision, only if I could have tried harder in the past to get a different outcome. I'm sure I'll feel better once I'm there, making friends and doing the work, but I'll definitely have some part of homesickness that inevitably comes with moving away from familiar things.

We’re here to support you, and I’m sorry you’re feeling this way! It’s really hard. I can also say I’ve felt the same feelings. Both the feeling of loss that comes from moving - moving is a time of big emotions, including grief - and that which comes from thinking about what could have been. For what it’s worth, I went back and forth between two choices and have wondered “what if?” A LOT during the months since I moved and since starting vet school. It’s made me question myself multiple times and worry that I made the wrong choice. All this to say that I think we all feel the pressures of what could have been, or the feeling of “the grass is greener at the other vet school” - it’s okay to grieve and mourn what wasn’t, but FWIW, I think the UK schools sound soooooooooo cool. I never applied to any because of my spouse, but sometimes (often) I wish I did. I can’t wait to hear about your adventures!

 

[PrincessButterCup]

Yea people are giving me **** this year about sitting in the front row on a particular side of the room. They want to sit there bc they did last year, but my friends are on that side this year and I need front row bc I'm hard of hearing. If I'm there first, I don't really understand why it's such a big deal to sit on the specific side of the room in a specific chair every time. Like, go sit on the other side! The front row is open lol. If they get there before me then I will sit on the other side. It's really not deep and this is coming from someone with anxiety who relies on routine and predictability for comfort lol

Other people have talked about getting an accommodation for seating, but I wanted to throw out my two cents about asking for more than that if you can, because I waited way too long to advocate for myself and when I finally got captioning services it literally changed my life.

My hearing disability had never been taken that seriously by my parents (they didn't want me to use a hearing aid as a kid, etc) so I was used to thinking my problems weren't "bad enough" to qualify for extra help. When I finally reached a breaking point in my last semester of undergrad, I went to the disability office not expecting much but they gave me captioning accommodations (with my audiology records from when I was 5, no less!) and it was incredible. I used captioning services all through grad school and I can't imagine getting through those courses without that help, and I have no idea how I lasted in undergrad for so long not being able to hear my professors. It was wild to compare what I thought I heard to what the captionist recorded and realize how different they were. I could tell when I couldn't hear something, but I never knew how much I was mishearing in addition to straight up missing. I think back to all of my lecture classes where I just tried my best to follow along and kick myself that I didn't realize I could have had help back then.

If your school has an option for captioning or anything beyond preferential seating and you think it *might* make a difference, I'd fully encourage you to go for it. I know disabilities are such personal things and we all experience them differently so this advice might not apply to you the same, but I wanted to share!

 

[indysadventures]

Other people have talked about getting an accommodation for seating, but I wanted to throw out my two cents about asking for more than that if you can, because I waited way too long to advocate for myself and when I finally got captioning services it literally changed my life.

My hearing disability had never been taken that seriously by my parents (they didn't want me to use a hearing aid as a kid, etc) so I was used to thinking my problems weren't "bad enough" to qualify for extra help. When I finally reached a breaking point in my last semester of undergrad, I went to the disability office not expecting much but they gave me captioning accommodations (with my audiology records from when I was 5, no less!) and it was incredible. I used captioning services all through grad school and I can't imagine getting through those courses without that help, and I have no idea how I lasted in undergrad for so long not being able to hear my professors. It was wild to compare what I thought I heard to what the captionist recorded and realize how different they were. I could tell when I couldn't hear something, but I never knew how much I was mishearing in addition to straight up missing. I think back to all of my lecture classes where I just tried my best to follow along and kick myself that I didn't realize I could have had help back then.

If your school has an option for captioning or anything beyond preferential seating and you think it *might* make a difference, I'd fully encourage you to go for it. I know disabilities are such personal things and we all experience them differently so this advice might not apply to you the same, but I wanted to share!

Thank you for sharing all of this for us

 

[spiane]

My hearing disability had never been taken that seriously by my parents (they didn't want me to use a hearing aid as a kid, etc) so I was used to thinking my problems weren't "bad enough" to qualify for extra help.

This is my current issue. I needed glasses my whole life and didn't get them until I was 17 and I really need to get my hearing tested but was never able to for the same reason. I don't think they offer it at the school's health center but I should look into it anyway. I need to work on advocating for myself more.

Also, thanks everyone for all your support 😭 I didn't check the thread for a while and wasn't expecting that at all

 

[mb421]

I have to find a new job because I went on medical leave and needed to do part time for a month, then my work said they can’t hire me back full time. I am struggling to get a job because of vet school applications. One place rejected me because they thought I was applying next year and still rejected me because they want someone long term. I’m not sure what to do, I don’t want to lie in interviews.

 

[battie]

I’m not sure what to do, I don’t want to lie in interviews.

I honestly wouldn't tell them you're applying at all. A lot can change in the next 11 months (suspected timeline up till moving for school). You could not be accepted. They can close their doors because of the pending recession. Etc.

Your future plans are not their business.

 

[mb421]

I honestly wouldn't tell them you're applying at all. A lot can change in the next 11 months (suspected timeline up till moving for school). You could not be accepted. They can close their doors because of the pending recession. Etc.

Your future plans are not their business.

Thank you, I will do that from now on. And you are right.

 

[honeyday]

I honestly feel so hopeless for this cycle. I know I shouldn’t compare, but it feels like so many people have better GPAs, so many more hours, more unique experiences, better essays and LORs, etc. I have so much regret not applying last cycle and I have so much regret about my senior year. I feel so sad because I feel like there’s no way I’d get accepted. I honestly wish I could erased everything from the second semester of my junior year to today and start over. At least I’ve learned a lot this cycle and can improve my application next year!

 

[apoptosis09]

I honestly feel so hopeless for this cycle. I know I shouldn’t compare, but it feels like so many people have better GPAs, so many more hours, more unique experiences, better essays and LORs, etc. I have so much regret not applying last cycle and I have so much regret about my senior year. I feel so sad because I feel like there’s no way I’d get accepted. I honestly wish I could erased everything from the second semester of my junior year to today and start over. At least I’ve learned a lot this cycle and can improve my application next year!

Tbh I wouldnt be surprised if this year's cycle is a bit lighter than the last few years due to the BBBill catastrophe (considering an upward trend of >10k applicants in recent years). There are also a few schools accepting an inaugural class this year, for better or worse. On the other hand, I suspect a lot of potential students are assuming the current loan restrictions will be overturned by the time they have to worry about it -- or just not not thinking that far ahead at all 🙃.

Taking the extra year to make your application more competitive or more make yourself better prepared isn't necessarily a bad thing in any case.

(And echoing above to not tell employers you have a timeline for leaving [for vet school or any reason moving forward]. The only reason to say you're applying to vet school is possibly if the practice is owned and managed by a DVM you want a LoR from. Otherwise it's not relevant).

 

[battie]

Today was the 7th anniversary of my younger sister's death. I have a good relationship with her death and the effects it had on me. But it is still sad to know what she has missed.

 

[indysadventures]

Anyone else having a hard time caring about vet school when the world is literally collapsing in around us? Seeing the genocide in Gaza continue and continue, and seeing the continued affronts to democracy worldwide, alongside climate catastrophe…… this all kinda feels pointless. I know it’s not, but it feels that way.

Have a therapist and am working on it. I just……. am having trouble caring at all……guess I’m just screaming into the void.

 

[justachillgirl]

I honestly feel so hopeless for this cycle. I know I shouldn’t compare, but it feels like so many people have better GPAs, so many more hours, more unique experiences, better essays and LORs, etc. I have so much regret not applying last cycle and I have so much regret about my senior year. I feel so sad because I feel like there’s no way I’d get accepted. I honestly wish I could erased everything from the second semester of my junior year to today and start over. At least I’ve learned a lot this cycle and can improve my application next year!

I do not feel like I am the best person to give out my two cents (especially when I have also posted these thoughts in other threads lol), but I feel the same thing. But at the same time, I applied last year and I also felt like it wasn't enough. I believe that the feeling will not go away because there is always the "what ifs" every year you apply. There will always be something to improve on, something you wish could have explained better, dedicated more time, eliminated, etc. There will also be people that have higher GPA, have traveled to Africa, have vet hours since they were born, they were born and automatically knew how to put a catheter. There will be others that may also think that maybe YOU are way better than them.

What I am trying to say is, the feeling won't go away. Sometimes understanding that is the first step to accept your doubts, but also to embrace them and learn to hope for the best because of what you specifically bring to the table. All it takes is for one school adcom to see your worth and your drive to excel in the field to believe in you. And if they don't you can then work on the things that worry you and try again.

Edit: I literally had a crashout two days ago over this too, and was worried I would be left out again. But I also think that if you don't believe in yourself, who would?

 

[vampyrica]

today is the day i came to terms with the fact i need a therapist.

 

[oweue]

I am SO frustrated and disappointed in myself. just submitted my applications, then did a check of them and noticed in my explanation statement the first word is missing the first letter, so it starts with “he” instead of “The”. how did I not catch this BEFORE submitting???? I feel like I’ve just ruined this for myself, I know it’s such a tiny thing in a huge application but I can’t help but think this just reflects badly. this is my third time applying and I’m just so exhausted with thinking nothing will ever be enough and then I catch a typo :/

 

[_rae_]

Y'know those scenes in movies before the world ends, where someone is reading increasingly horrible news, living their life as it always was, completely unaware of what's to come?

I get this eery feeling that's where we're at. I sent my spouse on vacation, made myself dinner, fed my cats, ate dessert, had a glass of wine, and it feels like I'm in that scene. So yeah, vet school can be very hard to focus on during that.

I am SO frustrated and disappointed in myself. just submitted my applications, then did a check of them and noticed in my explanation statement the first word is missing the first letter, so it starts with “he” instead of “The”. how did I not catch this BEFORE submitting???? I feel like I’ve just ruined this for myself, I know it’s such a tiny thing in a huge application but I can’t help but think this just reflects badly. this is my third time applying and I’m just so exhausted with thinking nothing will ever be enough and then I catch a typo :/

I will once again share that one of my recommenders spelled my name completely incorrectly in my recommendation later she submitted; someone who was vouching for my character, my clinical skills, my client communication, and who had worked with me for over three years. A singular, simple typo is highly unlikely to be the thing that stops you from getting into vet school, especially one that could be a copy/paste or formatting error.

Also, easier said than done, all of you submitting your applications, don't go back and read them. There's nothing you can change once you click that button, for better or for worse.

 

[spiane]

I am SO frustrated and disappointed in myself. just submitted my applications, then did a check of them and noticed in my explanation statement the first word is missing the first letter, so it starts with “he” instead of “The”. how did I not catch this BEFORE submitting???? I feel like I’ve just ruined this for myself, I know it’s such a tiny thing in a huge application but I can’t help but think this just reflects badly. this is my third time applying and I’m just so exhausted with thinking nothing will ever be enough and then I catch a typo :/

Admissions understand that real (and very stressed) people are writing up 100-page applications. A couple of reasonable typos won't make or break your application. If you went and spelled like, 30% or more of the words wrong on your app that would be a different story. Like Rae said, don't look at it again. It's over and done, so just try to cope while you wait to hear back.

 

[Shiloh47]

After 900 something miles and a day and half of driving coast to coast to Oregon for vet school, my cars goddamn alternator (that I had replaced a MONTH ago) decided to **** the bed. Ended up stranded in the middle of Iowa and had to tow my car to a dealer in Nebraska. Weirdest drive with the tow truck driver in my life, he said “you don’t ever need to lay hands on a woman” I thought yes yes good take, “you just have to restrain them cause they’re light.” I was like dear lord you should have stopped at the first sentence are my dog and I gonna survive this. Anyways the old shop is gonna refund and pay for this repair but the tow and diagnostic were still 300 dollars. Hoping I can get my car back today. Y'all 1,700 miles left to go 🙃

 

[spiane]

After 900 something miles and a day and half of driving coast to coast to Oregon for vet school, my cars goddamn alternator (that I had replaced a MONTH ago) decided to **** the bed. Ended up stranded in the middle of Iowa and had to tow my car to a dealer in Nebraska. Weirdest drive with the tow truck driver in my life, he said “you don’t ever need to lay hands on a woman” I thought yes yes good take, “you just have to restrain them cause they’re light.” I was like dear lord you should have stopped at the first sentence are my dog and I gonna survive this. Anyways the old shop is gonna refund and pay for this repair but the tow and diagnostic were still 300 dollars. Hoping I can get my car back today. Y'all 1,700 miles left to go 🙃

Holy ****. I'm so sorry! The old shop 100% owes you a refund and to cover the cost of tow and diagnostics. I hope everything goes smoothly from now on and you get to Oregon safe!

 

[vampyrica]

I am SO frustrated and disappointed in myself. just submitted my applications, then did a check of them and noticed in my explanation statement the first word is missing the first letter, so it starts with “he” instead of “The”. how did I not catch this BEFORE submitting???? I feel like I’ve just ruined this for myself, I know it’s such a tiny thing in a huge application but I can’t help but think this just reflects badly. this is my third time applying and I’m just so exhausted with thinking nothing will ever be enough and then I catch a typo :/

i did the same thing. DONT RE-READ !!!

i’ll share something funny with you though to bring you some comfort: for one of my experiences i totally forgot to write a blurb about it and all it says is “text text text”

also: totally butchered my grammar and spelling for an experience with 1,000+ hours.

“Competed in annumal Greek Orthodox church competititons, deepending my connection with the community and culture.”

you’ll be okay, i promise !

 

[spiane]

i did the same thing. DONT RE-READ !!!

i’ll share something funny with you though to bring you some comfort: for one of my experiences i totally forgot to write a blurb about it and all it says is “text text text”

also: totally butchered my grammar and spelling for an experience with 1,000+ hours.

“Competed in annumal Greek Orthodox church competititons, deepending my connection with the community and culture.”

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you’ll be okay, i promise !

It happens!

"text text text" is pretty funny 🤣

 

[fauna]

Anyone else having a hard time caring about vet school when the world is literally collapsing in around us? Seeing the genocide in Gaza continue and continue, and seeing the continued affronts to democracy worldwide, alongside climate catastrophe…… this all kinda feels pointless. I know it’s not, but it feels that way.

Have a therapist and am working on it. I just……. am having trouble caring at all……guess I’m just screaming into the void.

yesterday was a new low for me in terms of feeling absolute despair about the state of the world. i do not want to spark a debate so i am trying to be tactful about what i say right now but like it breaks my heart that we cannot get people to care about school children or immigrants or palestinians in any capacity but i learned that they are in fact capable of caring about one singular man's death. just literally nobody else's. and i just don't know what to do about any of it. i don't know how we make things better or how we save children or get people to care in the first place.

 

[pp9]

yesterday was a new low for me in terms of feeling absolute despair about the state of the world. i do not want to spark a debate so i am trying to be tactful about what i say right now but like it breaks my heart that we cannot get people to care about school children or immigrants or palestinians in any capacity but i learned that they are in fact capable of caring about one singular man's death. just literally nobody else's. and i just don't know what to do about any of it. i don't know how we make things better or how we save children or get people to care in the first place.

You're definitely not alone in that. I'm dumbfounded that these people don't really see the irony/hypocrisy in this.

 

[_rae_]

I'm definitely feeling a lot of big feelings, and I'm struggling because they don't seem like productive feelings. I'm angry. I feel like I'm seeing something coming down the pipeline so clearly, and have for a while, and the people who matter are burying their heads in the sand. I'm tired of being the bigger person. I'm tired of taking the high road. I want to be mad and I want that to be heard. I want others to hurt the way I have been hurting, because I feel like it's the only way they'll understand, even though this whole thing proves that that idea is wrong. I'm tired of trying to reason with people who don't see reason.

I don't think it's partisan to say that no one deserves to be executed, and that includes Melissa Hortman, her husband, and her dog, and the children from Annunciation, and the children from Evergreen, and the children from Uvalde, and the queer people from Pulse, and the children from Sandy Hook, and anyone who has ever been killed by a gun.