Im loving the support and optimism in this thread! Special shout out to
@M12B and
@Ace Khalifa. I haven't received an acceptance yet either, and thoughts of reapplication/worry/anxiety/panic always creep up into my mind.
However, I was talking to my non-premed best friend yesterday (without whom I would not be able to get through this) and telling him how stressed out I was and all I wanted was one acceptance in hand to feel at peace again, when he said something that I think is really true, and because we are so caught up in this madness, its sometimes hard to see it for ourselves. He told me that no, this is probably the only true moment of peace I am ever going to have, the time between submitting my apps and waiting for responses, because this might be the only time in like that there is NOTHING WE HAVE TO DO. We have worked hard for 4+ years, we have poured blood sweat and tears into our applications, we have prepped for our interviews: In this moment, there is nothing to do. Once we get an acceptance, there will once again be things to get done! Decisions to be made, arrangements to be made, new life to be prepared for, etc. And instead of getting anxious about this period of limbo, he told me to see it for what it is: a unique time in our lives where we have already done all that we could do, and now we do things we have always wanted to do! Read books, learn french, watch all the woody allen movies, eat a ton of ice cream... whatever!
So a shift in perspective can really help get through this process. Sure, we might have to re-apply. That possibility is always there. But that will come when it comes (Im not going to worry about that till February personally!) and till then Im going to enjoy every minute in my amazing city with my incredible friends, because who knows, I might be leaving them next year to start med school somewhere!