Blergh, been depressed all this month. Recently dumped (sucks) but can't recover because I'm getting dumped/ignored by medical schools (my true love) left and right. Waiting to hear back from 8 medical schools, 4 of which stop interviewing in like 3 weeks. And all this waiting and dumping and nursing heartbreak is terrible for my liver.
I had my last interview invite (my only one) on Thanksgiving and then...nothing all of December, nothing all of January. And now, it's almost February. On one hand, I'm wildly optimistic that I will get into my alma mater school that thankfully interviewed me. On one hand, I'm deathly pessimistic that they will see right through my desperation and hopelessness and heartbreak and will reject me, and I will be jobless and will be the one person out of all my friends who will never get in anywhere. And the kid who dumped me will continue to be wildly successful, which shouldn't matter but feels really infuriating right now.
I'm taking a class at the local university to sharpen my chemistry skills to retake my MCAT, but honestly, I can't even think about reapplying without feeling my heart break into a million more pieces. Is that sappy enough or is that sappy enough?
Anyway...posting about all my deepest darkest fears on SDN really does make me feel better, so...yeah. Good luck everyone. Hope y'all are faring better than me.