We're not alone either. There's LOTS of us who got trapped in the ROAD-E myth.
And honestly my first few attending years were great until the endemic problems accelerated during the run-up to and during covid.
I do think I at least caught a few of the "Golden Ages" of EM, and thank god I internalized the "live like a resident" mantra for effectively the entire time I practiced. It allowed me to escape with the VOO/VTI DCA along with a few concentrated bets.
Here's one question I have for you (as somebody who was swindled on EM in medical school):
Were you shielded from all the BS when you were a rotator? I never even knew how bad the disrespect was from other consultants was a medical student. I had zero concept of billing, and coding, and RVUs and patient satisfaction. Those were not terms I could define as an MS4 who went to a hyper-academic medical school.
Perhaps part of that was when we chose EM, it was a specialty that was a step below Derm in competitiveness. So I had this idea that "well, if it's broadly accepted as a competitive specialty, only have to work 12 days a month, and gets paid pretty damn well, and it's actually sexy to laypeople unlike the rest of the ROAD...."
Seemed like a no-brainer.
Then, I never switched in residency (despite thinking about it) because it was hard to tell what the newness of being a responsible physician vs what I intrinsically hated about the specialty. Thus I pressed on because mentors told me, "This is normal to feel in residency." (THIS IS OFTEN TIMES A MASSIVE LIE TO ANY MEDICAL STUDENT OR RESIDENT READING THIS)
Despite this, and clearly because I am a high-achiever that's pretty damn capable (not trying to fluff myself here, just stating that I have a pretty solid track record throughout my life), I was able to excel at the job.
It just took me YEARS of being an attending to realize that I actually just hated the job, hated the uneducated patients who felt no responsibility towards their own health (educated and reasonable patients were great, but they were 1% of the population), and above all else hated the constant disrespect and uphill battle every ER doc has to face.
EM has to perform at 100%, no-miss, near perfect, all with a smile, 24/7 just to not get **** on and keep your job.
Ortho or cards? They can literally sexually abuse nurses, get caught, and somehow the RNs will be fired, because well, the hospital doesn't want to lose its money makers.
It's so insane to me that we all started on the same footing on day 1 of medical school.
I'm honestly glad medicine is losing popularity among college students. The entire nation needs to feel the deep pain of a tragically undereducated "provider" workforce combined with an increasingly hostile for-profit payor system before anything will change.
Blood in the streets indeed.
We're gonna need a BUS FULL of dead Libby Zions to overwork this behemoth of a system though.
Not hopeful anytime during my life.
Maybe I can start a Walmart drop-ship business. Seems like it has more upside than being a board-certified ER doc if you want to live in a VHCOL/desirable city. Wanna teach me?
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