What’s your life like as an attending? How frequently do you take call? Is there any light at the end of the tunnel?
I’ve been having a bad week with a ridiculous amount of weekend calls on top of fellowship application stress, and difficulty scheduling my 1 week vaca. Maybe burnout is where this is coming from, but I’m just curious.
To the OP—Attending life gets much better. There is still bull****, there will always be unintelligent administrators to deal with, and there is always politics. But the best part of being an attending is that YOU ARE THE ATTENDING.
I am not a rockstar like UTSouthwestern (was, may he rest in peace), pgg, noyac or jet. In residency I was very quiet, but layed low and worked hard. I was extremely unhappy in residency. To the point that I wasn’t sure if I was even going to like Anesthesiology when I finished.
But now, I really love what I do. And I’m very grateful to be able to serve the patients the way in which we do in our profession.
Not many of the attendings I worked with seemed remotely well-adjusted or happy. I didn’t want to go through all this **** only to become them.
I could not understand residents whining and complaining about staying late at the Children’s Hospital for an add-on when the add-on was a port placement for a 16 year with newly diagnosed cancer.
I could not understand attendings talking about who is having an affair with who, when the damn patient was not even under anesthesia yet.
Residency is like the military, you need to just get through it. Do what you’re told, work hard, study hard, and focus on the only thing you really have control over which is yourself. And cultivating yourself into the kind of physician you want to be.
Take note of the bad examples, take more note of the good examples, and you can be whatever kind of doctor you want when you’re done. I genuinely love being in attending in Anesthesiologist now. I really never thought I would.
If you are someone with a work ethic, competence and integrity, your fellow physicians will notice. Nursing staff will notice. You will be appreciated and respected when you show up in the room. If you genuinely care about your patients, they will notice and appreciate it too.
Attending life is so much better. Hang in there. Even if no fiber in your being feels this way, residency will be over before you know it. Good luck