Maybe I should start my own thread, sorry...I didn't mean to go off topic.
But, maybe it does have to do with the fact that he is long-distance from me.
It is hard to know what someone is thinking or doing when you can't see
them daily or weekly, you know?
So, I guess thats why I did post it on this thread - while a lot of people on this thread seem to have LDR's that are already established relationships, I guess I'm wondering if anyone STARTED a relationship with someone in medical school while already being long-distance.
I have had a couple LDR's before. Of course, they ended, but it wasn't because of the distance - it was because the relationships just ran their course and we realized we weren't right for eachother.
But, i have not dated anyone in medical school before (long or short distance!).
I do come from a family where a lot of people have been thru med-school, my dad's a doctor - so I know conceptually how tough the program is, and I know how tough residency can be too, even if it is from an 'outsiders' point of view.
But, I don't know how to communicate with someone romantically while they are going thru it, especially when they are 5hrs away.
And yes - I guess you could say we are 'dating', but we are in a very transitionary point of the friendship. We are friends, but there has always been that attraction (at first this attraction was more intellectual, since we did meet online, and of course we knew how we looked b/c of photographs...), and we flirt, and we went out once with the understanding that if he is in my town again for interviews, that we would go out again.
But...so far, I think it is going *really* slowly - he did mention the very first time we met in person (we /flirted for 2yrs before we met in person about a month ago!), that he was very shy to meet me, and he was just taking this experience all in...and in some ways he couldn't believe that we were actually meeting.
We went out, and he treated me so well - no we did not kiss or hold hands (except for the kiss he gave me at the end of the night, on the cheek)...but we had the greatest time - he actually stayed an extra day just to hang out with me. We talked more about our lives, families, values....we seemed to still jive pretty well in person as we did online. Of course...there's only so much we can talk about on the first date...so I don't know EVERYthing i need to know about him.
On his way back to school...on his 6hr drive, he called me to say he had a really good time and was really glad he met me. He called me a couple times after that, and even called me 'cutie'
But..shortly after that, he started his crazy rotation, and applications, and studying for boards..he just about fell off the planet. Our last conversation was really great, but that was about 3wks ago. Since then, he is hardly online...and when he is, I just say 'hey..hope its going well'..and our convos are very brief, and he has sounded almost non-interested. I don't know if this is b/c he has all of a sudden lost interest....or if med-school is just kickin his butt so hard, and he is so focused on his work/applications..that he would rather not talk to me during this time.
Being long-distance, I can't just casually 'drop in' to see him either. So...I can only speculate from afar what he's up to.
I told him BEFORE met met that I was interested in him, from the conversations we had, but of course...that I understood for something to happen, he would have to feel the same way about me. He agreed, and said, well...i guess in order to figure that out, we would have to meet! it was shortly after I told him that, that we met for the first time.
But...Penhorse, you are right - AFTER our date, i have NOT told him how I felt about it. But..I guess I AM scared. He is 6hrs away...busy busy busy......can he handle someone telling him "oh....by the way....i thnk i'm in love with you!" (ok, not to that extent, but you know what i mean!).
You are right, i'm scared $hitless!!! lol. I think it is because......this past year I have been having no luck with guys
I dunno what it is, but since my last boyfriend (we broke up more than a year ago!), my dating life has sucked! Everytime I meet someone I like.....when I take the initiatve and tell them....they run.
This guy is different..i care about him...i don't want him to run :-(
I can see a future with him. I know this sounds prematures, but...I'm in my early 30's, and at this point in my life I know what i want, and what I"m looking for. I know I could bring him home to my parents and know he would just...fit.
<sigh>