cowgirla: Unfortunately, I don't think it is at this point. But you're right, and that's my big problem with turning it down - I have an acceptance! And there's no guarantee I'll get in anywhere next year, so losing that opportunity would be bad.
der: I have been to Edinburgh and all over Scotland a number of times since I was a teenager, and I love it there. I have friends in Aberdeen and up on the northern coast. Lots of good points. I made a pros and cons list (I hate those things) that includes lots of those. The big thing it comes down to is sacrifice, really. I've worked so hard and sacrificed so much to make it to vet school. But what about all the work and time and sacrifice I've made for my relationship and my life here, owning a horse and competing? And the responsibility I have to my horse and my cats as an owner? At least a cat or two could come with me, but bringing all 4 sounds a little insane. The boyfriend is thinking of ways to come join me, but he has his own ambitions for graduate study, and isn't sure any of the programs in the UK would suit him because his field is specialized. I have my own opinions about this, but it's his decision and I can't ask him to leave the country just for me.
I'd probably be ok without my horse, and even my boyfriend and splitting up my cats, but I might always regret it. I worry about regretting NOT going to Edinburgh, because really, how cool would that be. But giving up everything I've worked for here doesn't sound that great either. 5 years isn't that long, but it's not exactly a quick visit either. I'm trying to ignore the financial factors in favor of what would actually be best for me, and fortunately the loss of the deposit wouldn't be the end of the world.
Oh dear, this has turned into the world's longest thread hijack. 🙄 Can you tell I've been thinking about this nonstop for the past 3 months? Thanks for the kind words and advice you guys have given me!
