wondering if anyone else pre-vet is dealing with this huge battle between their heart and their brain. being a veterinarian is what i am called to do. if there is anything else that i wanted to do with my life, trust me, i would be pursuing it but this is it for me. and i love that about myself, i love how driven i am to my passions but it also leads to such immense pressure. i have told myself it's going to be okay. no matter how many tries it takes to get in, i will do it. i am 22 years old, i am not in a massive rush. but as i go into this second cycle of applying, what kills me is trying to strategize. i will do whatever it takes to get in (which i understand will not help on this cycle but perhaps the next cycle) but the trouble is knowing WHAT IT TAKES! i mean, hell, you spend over half of the year wondering if you got in, and then, it's time to apply again. i don't know what lane i should get in. i consider something new DAILY. i consider moving to a different state to try and get into their in-state pool. i consider a master's program. i consider retaking undergrad classes. i consider just keeping on with what i am doing which is working full-time in vetmed. there's no right answer. i could invest everything into any one of these options and it could be for nothing, which is perhaps my biggest fear in all of this. i worry that my gpa (3.5) is just beyond reasonable repair and that this will forever be the barrier. i will do what it takes but god. at what point does it just feel unreasonable. retaking classes is expensive on top of the debt i already have from undergrad and on top of the HUGE amount of debt i am bound to take on in vet school. i can retake a couple? maybe one at a time as i work full-time, but then.. what difference am i even making? grad school is more debt too and i don't even know if that will work. i don't want to do grad school necessarily either, which makes me scared i won't do well and then i will cause more harm. i don't know. it's just a big spiral that i cannot turn off lately. i know no one has THE answer but any advice or even solace would be appreciated.