Feeling really down/depressed.
I have three work friends that I hang out with outside of work with sometimes.
My oldest work friend is Lynn. Lynn and I have never been BFFs but with that said we’ve been friendly for almost 2 years now. We even took an international week long trip last summer that we both had a great time on. We, together with my second work friend who quickly became her BFF, took a local weekend trip outside of town in November and we all had a great time.
Over the past couple months I felt her draw away a little but I kind of brushed it off. I am very sensitive so I notice small changes in behavior very well but I also sometimes over analyze things. So when she stopped replying to my texts even less than normal and didn’t seem to wanna hang out outside of work, I told myself it didn’t mean anything.
Last week she wasn’t at work and I texted her a couple of times. No reply. Idk what caused me to look on her instagram, but when I looked, she wasn’t following me anymore.
I texted her and asked if we were okay. She replied saying she no longer wanted any kind of relationship with me outside of work. She said we have different values and are at very different places in our lives.
I feel a little blindsided by this. And obviously very sad. I don’t know what changed between us.
Now I back at work with her again. We share the exact same schedule. Her and her BFF are not being rude but they’re noticeably more distant from me.
It is such a difference walking into work when you know you have people who like you compared to people who actively want nothing to do with you. I wish I could quit. I can’t wait to leave for school.
I’ve always had a hard time making and keeping friends. I have always wondered what’s wrong with me. It feels like I release this chemical that keeps people away from me.
I really hope I make friends in vet school that last. I’m so lonely 🙁