We had a beautiful young belgian malinois come in with an incredibly large bladder stone. Upon palpation, you could grasp it in your hand..it was cylindrical and probably 4-5 inches long or so, and on the xray it was massive. She was a sweet dog, unfortunately suffering from all the symptoms of a terrible uti. The owner began to refer to her as "it" about halfway through the exam and talk about his other dogs, he had many. He was a young, rough sort of guy, and I instantly disliked him. When the doctor discussed surgery with him he didn't even want to listen, he got a little angry and insisted that he just wanted to "put it down" to avoid the care and recovery after surgery. He said it wasn't a question of money, he just didn't want to deal with "it". The doctor backed off because we were clearly dealing with someone unreasonable who was likely not going to listen to anything anyone else had to say about it. Of course the man didn't want to be present, he had coward written all over him. He waited outside, and we euthanized her about 10 ten minutes later. Yes it was hard to look her in the eyes, we all wanted so badly to perform that surgery and alleviate her suffering so that she would live pain-free and grow into an even more beautiful animal with many years of life. And it might sound bad, but it was also disappointing because I wanted very much to see that massive bladder stone in person, as did the doctor. But the reality is that her owner was not your ideal human being. Her recovery would not have been easy, and it's also very unlikely that he would he have followed instructions about diet, medication, rechecks, etc. If we had refused euthanasia she would have gone home, suffered even more, and died a terrible death. Sometimes there's nothing you can do but alleviate not only the suffering that is occurring, but also the suffering that is sure to come without treatment.
I had a bad day yesterday because I did everything in my power as a technician to guide the owners of a dog suffering from late-stage leptospirosis to understand that their dog was going to die and that he was suffering very much. Of course I didn't push them towards it per say or verbally state that he was going to die. The most I could do was inform them that their animal was very critical, that the bloodwork indicates full liver and kidney failure (per the doctor's instructions), and that euthanasia is their decision, and that we can also continue treatment if they so choose to. They couldn't bring themselves to euthanize, and it was so much more about themselves vs. what was better for the animal. So they left convincing themselves to feel hopeful, and in the meantime I watched the dog suffer and slowly deteriorate for hours in the isolation ward. I believe it is the veterinarian's job to express to the owner the prognosis and the severity of the situation, and I feel that this was not done yesterday. The veterinarian on the case had a day off that day, and I felt it was left to me to fight for the right decision for that dog, and I did my best but it wasn't good enough because I'm not a doctor and I cannot give a prognosis no matter what. I can understand why the owners wanted to be hopeful, but I also feel like they were not quite given the quick and dirty facts about what was happening and what was going to happen from a doctor as in "there is no recovery at this point, and euthanasia would be my recommendation." Anyway, bad day for me but nothing compared to what the animal was feeling.