LOL but seriously, at my interview this past Thursday, I was the ONLY ONE not wearing a black or grey suit. I wore a grey dress shirt that looked kinda doctor-ey and solid black jeans, with cute black leather boots - the kind of outfit I felt would look great under a white coat. No suit - I don't own one. I'm genuinely scared it'll screw me over - I feel I looked professional but because everyone was doing something I didn't, I felt maybe I did something really wrong? I felt like my interviewer liked me but I'm afraid I'll lose too many points for professionalism. Nevertheless the school seemed laid back enough so I'm hoping it was actually a plus. Also suits really don't match my personality - the interviewer knew I'm a free spirit, it was obvious from my application, and he seemed to like that about me, so wearing a suit for me would've been too wrong anyway.
That school is my dream. My fiancé can easily get a job in that city, and it's a perfect city for us to live in - suits both our personalities well. I had this eery feeling when I walked through the city streets, as if it was to be the city I would bring up my family in. I feel like it would be too perfect to be real.... which is why I fear rejection. I fear that I did something stupid without realizing it. I fear my exuberance and passion were misconstrued as immaturity and naivety. Nevertheless, my interviewer seemed to like me and told me I had a good chance upon leaving his office (after I said how much I love the school and hope to get in). I'm just afraid of getting my hopes up too high because getting in really would be perfect, not just for me but for my soon-to-be-husband, and the last thing I want to do is jinx it.
