Tbh most of it was the fact that I'm not competitive GPA-wise...no point in wasting my money/ranks when I'm fairly confident they'd toss me based on my GPA alone. The Illinois grading system makes it really hard. Hell, most of my class is probably under a 3.0! Combo that with the general consensus telling me that academia internships actually can really suck in terms of experience and whatnot...I just figured it wasn't worth it given the gamble you take. I know a few schools had to scramble last year and I wouldn't say no if I was also scrambling. I've talked to what feels like 100 people about it...most clinicians/mentor-types have told me that private practice internships tend to be more standardized than academia (which is counterintuitive imo, but it made sense once it was explained to me) and I like the idea of that.
I've got a few private practices I'm really liking the sound of for my first internship, and my local zoo's head vet is going to push for funding to get a zoo internship program so I can be her first intern in 2020 (not holding my breath, but you never know).
I also am taking my fiance into account, he has a salary we can both live off of and then some so I'm trying not to interfere there. If I have to move, I have to move, but it would be nice to just have to worry about working and loan payments