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I know how you feel dawg. The crazy leaps and bounds my brain makes...Its crazy how much this process controls your emotions. Im not an anxious person at all normally. Today I got one rejection and instantly wondered if I had applied to enough programs (Family med applied to 50 with zero red flags lol). Then my brain went to really dark places. I am on a sub-i at a place with psychology residents and pharmacy residents and even PA residents. They've had students this past week rotating with them as well and I seriously started thinking "what if the residency placed these other students here to test how I interact with them... Are they even students? How much did the residency pay them? Wtf. I can't believe they'd do something like that. I don't even wanna go here anymore."
I snapped outta it
“Was my tone of voice appropriate? Was I asking too many questions? Too few? Is everyone saying I’m doing a good job just to get me to leave them alone because they don’t want to deal with how much I suck?”
Crazy how much my brain wants to self sabotage