SadNutellaGirl
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I am currently an intern in a DO FM residency. I am returning back to the medical field after taking a 3 year break. I was super excited when I first started , but once I started IM rotation in mid August, everything started falling apart. I realized I forgotten a lot of medicine and was criticized daily for not reaching resident standards. I was placed on probation and by the end of February the administration will make a decision whether to keep me or not. Although I feel like I improved over the months, but I always feel like there's so much I don't know and with the long hours, it seems almost impossible to regain the medical knowledge that is required to be a doctor. I actually did above average on the in-service exam so I guess I know something, but for some reason I'm having a lot difficulty recalling information . I find it even hard explaining to patient simple things or about their diagnosis.
I feel like I lost all enthusiasm for it and starting to thinking maybe this isn't the right field for me. My first choice was psychiatry. The only part of my job that I enjoy is talking to people and learning about their lives and stories. I like the counseling aspect of it - which I know is a little part of FM, but it isn't the focus. I am not too sure if the residency will keep me or not...but if it seems like they are leaning towards dismissing me - is it better to quit, get dismissed or makes no difference. Is there any chance I can reapply to psychiatry in the future or would I pretty much be black listed
I feel like I lost all enthusiasm for it and starting to thinking maybe this isn't the right field for me. My first choice was psychiatry. The only part of my job that I enjoy is talking to people and learning about their lives and stories. I like the counseling aspect of it - which I know is a little part of FM, but it isn't the focus. I am not too sure if the residency will keep me or not...but if it seems like they are leaning towards dismissing me - is it better to quit, get dismissed or makes no difference. Is there any chance I can reapply to psychiatry in the future or would I pretty much be black listed