So I'm an M1 at my state's allopathic program. I'm non-traditional, 27 yo, with a wife and 9 month old queen. Medicine is my passion. I'm super thankful to be where I am. I think it's incredible that I get to learn all this awesome stuff about the human body and then actually use it to make people better. This is like real-life Hogwarts for me. It's what I read books over or watch movies on. My path to medical school was a little windy and required a bit of soul searching. I was sitting in my first semester of nursing school when I had a quarter-life crisis and knew that I wanted something more for my life. Went back to grab some pre-reqs, study MCAT, all that jazz. Finally got in. So I KNOW that I'm a little too early in the game to be very concerned about specialty choice. I know that. I know that I'll find out more about what I want to do when 3rd year rolls around. I'm pretty sure I'll be one of those guys that will like almost anything. I could see myself (mildly) enjoying just about everything. But I'm really concerned with finding the real deal, the specialty that I'll be excited to get up in the morning for. I've worked jobs that sucked but paid (reasonably) well. I don't want to end up there.
I've taken all the specialty choice quizzes. I've listened to all the podcasts over specialties. I know that every single specialty has their tradeoffs. You can't have exactly everything you want. No specialty has no call, unlimited family time, great compensation, lots of fun procedures, no bad patients/etiologies, strong sense of purpose. I can dig that. So let me just spill out my thought process so far and if you have any advice for me or thoughts on this please let me know and please be genuine.
The one thing I keep returning to in my mind is that I would love to have a SUBSTANTIAL impact on a daily basis when treating patients. I lean a little more on the gratification side. I don't think that a specialty with a majority of long-term, slow building outcomes would work well for me. I'm also a big variation fan. The idea of working in only one part of the body and only on a handful of diseases isn't exciting to me. I know everyone has to (maybe) specialize a little, but doing 90% ankle replacements or 85% diabetes counseling doesn't rock my socks or anything. I'd like to be well-compensated of course, who wouldn't want to be? But it is not the most important thing for me. My wife and I are pretty low maintenance and I enjoy not filling my life up with a bunch of stuff. I do, however, enjoy a good Broadway show and tickets are not cheap.
So the two specialties I've been wrestling a bit with is OBGYN and General Surgery----->Trauma/Critical Care fellowship.
OBGYN:
Pros:
- Deliver babies (nobody else gets to do that)
- Great variation: little bit of surgery, little bit of clinic, L&D
- Relatively happy moments
- Patients seem like they take a good amount of responsibility for their health on the OB side at least.
- Some primary care
- Some long-term relationship would be nice, but I'm also not crazy about this
Cons:
- Female dominated field is a bit intimidating for me (expanded below)
- I hear that it's a highly litigated field
- On call schedule seems a little hectic if you don't have a large group or aren't academic
Gen Surg--->Trauma/Critical Care
Pros:
- Saving lives sounds pretty great
- Well-equipped physician in both medical and surgical skills
- Adrenaline
- Shift-based model
- Working with hands a lot
- Variation with trauma cases/ different pathologies
Cons:
- Residency sounds grueling
- Family life balancing seems a little difficult
- Bowel contents (not super bothersome by any means)
- Loss of life/notifying families
- Sleep-deprivation
- Stress load
So those are my lists so far. I know that there are other things that I don't know about that probably belong on there, but that's what I have so far. With OBGYN I am a little intimidated about the field for a few reasons. I'm just going to be honest here. I believe that who I work with is just about as important as what I'm doing. I mean your colleagues/peers can make or break experiences for you. If I'm doing a sucky activity, it can be turned around instantly with a good group of people that are sucking it up with me. I have made my best friends out of people that I've worked with. I will be seeing these people more than I will be seeing my family. I know that I can make friendships with women of course. Many of my greatest friendships are with women. However, it is easier for me to get along with guys. I can relate to more guy *stuff.* I generally feel more comfortable having guy friends and I'm sure my wife does as well. Also, I'm worried about how I'll be received as a provider for my future patients. I know that as a medical student I will likely be asked to leave a room for a pelvic exam or something. That's perfectly fine with me. I am a little worried about fostering a trustful relationship with exclusively female patients in this field. I understand now that how I feel being a prospective male OBGYN is very likely how many female medical students feel towards the myriad of male-dominated specialties. I'm worried about Mrs. So and So is here for her new OB appt and here I walk in tall, broad shouldered, with multiple visible forearm tattoos, and I'm trying to convince her that I'm the right person to help bring her most treasured thing into this world. I want to be able to give my patients complete faith and trust that I can care for both them and their child through their pregnancy, that I can have uncomfortable conversations about sexual health, that I can treat/care for them with complete respect and dignity. I know that I will have some patients that prefer female providers and some that will be fine with me. I suppose I'm just worried that I'm stacking the deck against myself. On the surface, all of these things seem like petty issues. But I can understand that petty issues over a long period of time can burn you out as well. There's a big part of me that believes I am overreacting to this side of things. Am I? The thing that really draws me to this field is that women are absolute rockstars, especially on the obstetric side of things. I mean it is absolutely incredible what they can do in that 9 month period and how they unfortunately bear difficulty during heartbreaking loss sometimes. I think I could have a real impact and sense of purpose in this field.
General Surgery. Man I hear residency sucks. I hear that you SHOULD NOT GO INTO GEN SURG IF YOU SEE YOURSELF DOING ANYTHING BESIDES THIS. I hear that the hours suck, you miss loads of family time, your marriage will suffer, your kids will hate you, all that stuff. I will say that I would like to make time with my family important in the future. I don't mind making my job my life as long as I effing enjoy what I'm doing. I don't think I would hate the call and hours if I can wake up knowing that I've got a real shot to turn something around for a patient. I came into medical school interested in EM due to the variety and shift work, but I hear the job market sucks now so I've basically taken that off the list. Saving lives sounds like the coolest thing ever. Being able to run a trauma in a trauma bay, recognize the source of the problem, then go and fix it is just extraordinary. I am a little worried about longevity in the field however. I know I can work hard. I can put in long hours and stay awake for a long time. I can push through a lot. All that being said, I'm afraid it might be a little too much for me and my family to handle.
So I guess I just need someone to tell me, "Hey yeah def don't go into general surgery if you're at all concerned about family life." Or maybe, "You know what, loads of people make it work and they love their job as a trauma surgeon."
Or I need someone to tell me, "Hey don't worry about being a male OB, you're just overreacting on it, it's no big deal at all." Or maybe "yeah honestly a lot of male OBs feel ostracized from the community of their specialty too."
I have shadowed OBGYN clinic and have a shift on L&D lined up to shadow. Also have some trauma/critical care time for shadowing lined up too so I know that I'll have a little bit more perspective on this coming up.
So if you have any advice, tips, suggestions, or thoughts, send them my way. I would greatly appreciate it. If there are some other specialties that you think may be a solid fit for me, let me know. Thanks for listening to the rant and Godspeed.
I've taken all the specialty choice quizzes. I've listened to all the podcasts over specialties. I know that every single specialty has their tradeoffs. You can't have exactly everything you want. No specialty has no call, unlimited family time, great compensation, lots of fun procedures, no bad patients/etiologies, strong sense of purpose. I can dig that. So let me just spill out my thought process so far and if you have any advice for me or thoughts on this please let me know and please be genuine.
The one thing I keep returning to in my mind is that I would love to have a SUBSTANTIAL impact on a daily basis when treating patients. I lean a little more on the gratification side. I don't think that a specialty with a majority of long-term, slow building outcomes would work well for me. I'm also a big variation fan. The idea of working in only one part of the body and only on a handful of diseases isn't exciting to me. I know everyone has to (maybe) specialize a little, but doing 90% ankle replacements or 85% diabetes counseling doesn't rock my socks or anything. I'd like to be well-compensated of course, who wouldn't want to be? But it is not the most important thing for me. My wife and I are pretty low maintenance and I enjoy not filling my life up with a bunch of stuff. I do, however, enjoy a good Broadway show and tickets are not cheap.
So the two specialties I've been wrestling a bit with is OBGYN and General Surgery----->Trauma/Critical Care fellowship.
OBGYN:
Pros:
- Deliver babies (nobody else gets to do that)
- Great variation: little bit of surgery, little bit of clinic, L&D
- Relatively happy moments
- Patients seem like they take a good amount of responsibility for their health on the OB side at least.
- Some primary care
- Some long-term relationship would be nice, but I'm also not crazy about this
Cons:
- Female dominated field is a bit intimidating for me (expanded below)
- I hear that it's a highly litigated field
- On call schedule seems a little hectic if you don't have a large group or aren't academic
Gen Surg--->Trauma/Critical Care
Pros:
- Saving lives sounds pretty great
- Well-equipped physician in both medical and surgical skills
- Adrenaline
- Shift-based model
- Working with hands a lot
- Variation with trauma cases/ different pathologies
Cons:
- Residency sounds grueling
- Family life balancing seems a little difficult
- Bowel contents (not super bothersome by any means)
- Loss of life/notifying families
- Sleep-deprivation
- Stress load
So those are my lists so far. I know that there are other things that I don't know about that probably belong on there, but that's what I have so far. With OBGYN I am a little intimidated about the field for a few reasons. I'm just going to be honest here. I believe that who I work with is just about as important as what I'm doing. I mean your colleagues/peers can make or break experiences for you. If I'm doing a sucky activity, it can be turned around instantly with a good group of people that are sucking it up with me. I have made my best friends out of people that I've worked with. I will be seeing these people more than I will be seeing my family. I know that I can make friendships with women of course. Many of my greatest friendships are with women. However, it is easier for me to get along with guys. I can relate to more guy *stuff.* I generally feel more comfortable having guy friends and I'm sure my wife does as well. Also, I'm worried about how I'll be received as a provider for my future patients. I know that as a medical student I will likely be asked to leave a room for a pelvic exam or something. That's perfectly fine with me. I am a little worried about fostering a trustful relationship with exclusively female patients in this field. I understand now that how I feel being a prospective male OBGYN is very likely how many female medical students feel towards the myriad of male-dominated specialties. I'm worried about Mrs. So and So is here for her new OB appt and here I walk in tall, broad shouldered, with multiple visible forearm tattoos, and I'm trying to convince her that I'm the right person to help bring her most treasured thing into this world. I want to be able to give my patients complete faith and trust that I can care for both them and their child through their pregnancy, that I can have uncomfortable conversations about sexual health, that I can treat/care for them with complete respect and dignity. I know that I will have some patients that prefer female providers and some that will be fine with me. I suppose I'm just worried that I'm stacking the deck against myself. On the surface, all of these things seem like petty issues. But I can understand that petty issues over a long period of time can burn you out as well. There's a big part of me that believes I am overreacting to this side of things. Am I? The thing that really draws me to this field is that women are absolute rockstars, especially on the obstetric side of things. I mean it is absolutely incredible what they can do in that 9 month period and how they unfortunately bear difficulty during heartbreaking loss sometimes. I think I could have a real impact and sense of purpose in this field.
General Surgery. Man I hear residency sucks. I hear that you SHOULD NOT GO INTO GEN SURG IF YOU SEE YOURSELF DOING ANYTHING BESIDES THIS. I hear that the hours suck, you miss loads of family time, your marriage will suffer, your kids will hate you, all that stuff. I will say that I would like to make time with my family important in the future. I don't mind making my job my life as long as I effing enjoy what I'm doing. I don't think I would hate the call and hours if I can wake up knowing that I've got a real shot to turn something around for a patient. I came into medical school interested in EM due to the variety and shift work, but I hear the job market sucks now so I've basically taken that off the list. Saving lives sounds like the coolest thing ever. Being able to run a trauma in a trauma bay, recognize the source of the problem, then go and fix it is just extraordinary. I am a little worried about longevity in the field however. I know I can work hard. I can put in long hours and stay awake for a long time. I can push through a lot. All that being said, I'm afraid it might be a little too much for me and my family to handle.
So I guess I just need someone to tell me, "Hey yeah def don't go into general surgery if you're at all concerned about family life." Or maybe, "You know what, loads of people make it work and they love their job as a trauma surgeon."
Or I need someone to tell me, "Hey don't worry about being a male OB, you're just overreacting on it, it's no big deal at all." Or maybe "yeah honestly a lot of male OBs feel ostracized from the community of their specialty too."
I have shadowed OBGYN clinic and have a shift on L&D lined up to shadow. Also have some trauma/critical care time for shadowing lined up too so I know that I'll have a little bit more perspective on this coming up.
So if you have any advice, tips, suggestions, or thoughts, send them my way. I would greatly appreciate it. If there are some other specialties that you think may be a solid fit for me, let me know. Thanks for listening to the rant and Godspeed.