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I have been feeling very discouraged lately...
I have never been a strong writer, so I wasn’t expecting the essays to be easy for me. But I cannot put my thoughts into sentences, and I can’t make them sound intelligent either. I’m terrified the essays will bring my application down. My boyfriend and my sister offered to read them and give feedback, but I just can’t get anything on the page to give to them to proofread.
Also, I work at a clinic where two other girls are applying this cycle as well. I’m friendly with them, but honestly they intimidate me. I can’t stop thinking about what they have that I don’t, how they’re way more outgoing than me and will do better at interviews, and how they constantly talk with the doctors about their applications. I’m very introverted, and I don’t like talking about myself. I’ll only talk about myself if somebody asks me, and it’s just because I don’t feel the need to share stuff with everyone around me. I’ll ask the doctors questions when I’m helping them with patients, but I have never talked to them about the schools I’m applying to, my experiences, my grades, anything like that. And I’ve just noticed the other girls are more outgoing and talkative and talk about themselves a lot more, so it seems like I probably don’t care as much because I don’t talk about it. I’m afraid that because of that, it makes the doctors think I’m not serious about vet school or I’m not putting as much into it. I want to sit down with the doctors individually and just let them know that this whole process scares me because there’s a chance I could be rejected but that I still want this more than anything. I love learning and I want to go back to school, and if I don’t get in anywhere I want to go for my masters because I just want to keep learning. It’s just that the application process is really hard for me because I am comparing myself to everyone else and making myself discouraged because there are so many people that are better than me who will probably get in and I might not. I don’t feel like listing my stats, and they’re not bad, but I just haven’t had as many opportunities readily available throughout my life and it seems like everyone has so much more than me and it sucks. It doesn’t mean I won’t be a great vet or that I don’t want this, it just means I didn’t start at a young age or that I don’t have the money to do any unique trips abroad or work an unpaid internship. It’s also really discouraging to know that everyone on here always says to have more varied experiences, or go back and retake classes to bring up your gpa, when it’s very difficult to find varied experiences in some regions, and it costs a lot of money to retake classes just to go to vet school to be in even more debt. It sucks that I have to compare myself to others in order to motivate myself to make my app better, but in some ways it’s just not possible. It sucks that the two girls I work with might get in and I might not and then I would have to deal with the pain of watching them move away and start school and I would still be here living at home saving up my money for another application cycle.
Long rant over, but this is a thread for that so don’t come at me.
I have never been a strong writer, so I wasn’t expecting the essays to be easy for me. But I cannot put my thoughts into sentences, and I can’t make them sound intelligent either. I’m terrified the essays will bring my application down. My boyfriend and my sister offered to read them and give feedback, but I just can’t get anything on the page to give to them to proofread.
Also, I work at a clinic where two other girls are applying this cycle as well. I’m friendly with them, but honestly they intimidate me. I can’t stop thinking about what they have that I don’t, how they’re way more outgoing than me and will do better at interviews, and how they constantly talk with the doctors about their applications. I’m very introverted, and I don’t like talking about myself. I’ll only talk about myself if somebody asks me, and it’s just because I don’t feel the need to share stuff with everyone around me. I’ll ask the doctors questions when I’m helping them with patients, but I have never talked to them about the schools I’m applying to, my experiences, my grades, anything like that. And I’ve just noticed the other girls are more outgoing and talkative and talk about themselves a lot more, so it seems like I probably don’t care as much because I don’t talk about it. I’m afraid that because of that, it makes the doctors think I’m not serious about vet school or I’m not putting as much into it. I want to sit down with the doctors individually and just let them know that this whole process scares me because there’s a chance I could be rejected but that I still want this more than anything. I love learning and I want to go back to school, and if I don’t get in anywhere I want to go for my masters because I just want to keep learning. It’s just that the application process is really hard for me because I am comparing myself to everyone else and making myself discouraged because there are so many people that are better than me who will probably get in and I might not. I don’t feel like listing my stats, and they’re not bad, but I just haven’t had as many opportunities readily available throughout my life and it seems like everyone has so much more than me and it sucks. It doesn’t mean I won’t be a great vet or that I don’t want this, it just means I didn’t start at a young age or that I don’t have the money to do any unique trips abroad or work an unpaid internship. It’s also really discouraging to know that everyone on here always says to have more varied experiences, or go back and retake classes to bring up your gpa, when it’s very difficult to find varied experiences in some regions, and it costs a lot of money to retake classes just to go to vet school to be in even more debt. It sucks that I have to compare myself to others in order to motivate myself to make my app better, but in some ways it’s just not possible. It sucks that the two girls I work with might get in and I might not and then I would have to deal with the pain of watching them move away and start school and I would still be here living at home saving up my money for another application cycle.
Long rant over, but this is a thread for that so don’t come at me.