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So I need to post here because a lot is happening and I don’t know how to handle all this.

A) found out my 6 year old German Shepherd (whose the love of my life) May or may not have oral melanoma. If he does have melanoma, even with treatment, he’ll knly have about a year to live
I’ll get biopsy results back tomorrow.
B) I live in Los Angeles and everything in my area is on fire. I’m scared to death of needing to evacuate and losing everything.
C) there was a mass shooting the other night at a bar I used to frequent when I was younger and makes me scared of the world
And last but not least,
D) I’ve been rejected from davis today.

Needed to get that off my chest.
 
So I need to post here because a lot is happening and I don’t know how to handle all this.

A) found out my 6 year old German Shepherd (whose the love of my life) May or may not have oral melanoma. If he does have melanoma, even with treatment, he’ll knly have about a year to live
I’ll get biopsy results back tomorrow.
B) I live in Los Angeles and everything in my area is on fire. I’m scared to death of needing to evacuate and losing everything.
C) there was a mass shooting the other night at a bar I used to frequent when I was younger and makes me scared of the world
And last but not least,
D) I’ve been rejected from davis today.

Needed to get that off my chest.

I’m so sorry.
I was also rejected from Davis today. And I’m currently hanging out with one of my best friends who was evacuated at 2am for the fires and one of her childhood friends was killed in the Borderline shooting.
If you need to talk I’m here [emoji3590]
 
So I need to post here because a lot is happening and I don’t know how to handle all this.

A) found out my 6 year old German Shepherd (whose the love of my life) May or may not have oral melanoma. If he does have melanoma, even with treatment, he’ll knly have about a year to live
I’ll get biopsy results back tomorrow.
B) I live in Los Angeles and everything in my area is on fire. I’m scared to death of needing to evacuate and losing everything.
C) there was a mass shooting the other night at a bar I used to frequent when I was younger and makes me scared of the world
And last but not least,
D) I’ve been rejected from davis today.

Needed to get that off my chest.
I don't know what to say, but I'm sending internet hugs your way. Any one of those things would be heartbreaking enough but all at once is so rough. I hope the fire skips your area and I hope the biopsy results aren't worst case scenario. For the rest, massive hugs.
 
I’m so sorry.
I was also rejected from Davis today. And I’m currently hanging out with one of my best friends who was evacuated at 2am for the fires and one of her childhood friends was killed in the Borderline shooting.
If you need to talk I’m here [emoji3590]
I don't know what to say, but I'm sending internet hugs your way. Any one of those things would be heartbreaking enough but all at once is so rough. I hope the fire skips your area and I hope the biopsy results aren't worst case scenario. For the rest, massive hugs.


Thank you both for the kind words. I’m praying to God it’s not melanoma because I’m physically not ready to lose him. He’s my fur baby and he’s such a happy and sweet dog.
As for Los Angeles, I’m safe for now but I’m watching the news like a hawk
 
I'm so sorry PP. 🙁 I know you had been through a lot with her.
Thank you (and everyone). Just so sudden and right it front of me. I'm glad I was with her, but talk about traumatic. I was very aware that sudden death was a huge thing for her, but I always pictured coming home to her dead or waking up to her dead. Not dropping right in front of me like that. Literally me taking her out for a potty break killed her. She may have been having v-tach for every syncopal-ish episode she was having, but we never had an ECG handy until she had one at school. This was the one she couldn't come back from, even lidocaine didn't help before she converted to vfib. She survived like 8-10 hours of anesthesia + her heart getting poked, she survived her spay, but a potty break is what did her in. It doesn't seem right.

I still don't quite understand what happened so hopefully when the time is right I'll be ready to talk about it. I just learned they actually had gotten a rhythm/beat back (or something, I still am putting the pieces together) but she never recovered (based on capnography) so apparently they gave her pentobarb at that time. I didn't know, I would have liked to have been by her side for that. Just very grateful for my classmates who are picking me up right now.

Also eta: The cardiologists/residents are still planning on writing her up so hopefully I'll be able to share a link with you all sometime in the future. She really was one of a kind and was dealt some supremely sh*tty cards.
 
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I had cancer as a kid and now I get MRIs q3years. My surgery, treatment, and follow-up have always been in Boston, and I have always just flown in for my MRIs over school breaks.
Now though, I'm living and working in LA and it's hard to get time off to fly across the country, so I've been trying to get a referral to an oncologist in LA for my next MRI. It's been about a month since I asked for the referral, and I keep calling, like at least once a week, to get an update on my referral, and I keep being told "someone will call you back" and nobody calls me back.
This appointment is increasingly time sensitive because I'm 25 years old, turning 26 in January, and I lose health insurance on Feb 1st, so I need to get this MRI before that happens. But MRI appointments book up FAST and EARLY.

I FINALLY got a call back today from Boston. They said that my dr contacted a colleague in LA about my referral, but they haven't heard back from LA, so they just gave me his name so that I could contact his office directly.
I call LA onc's office, they tell me that I can't make an appointment without a referral. I tell them that they should have a referral from my ped onc in boston. They don't. They tell me to tell Boston to send the referral and then I will be able to make an appointment. Now it's past 5pm in Boston and nobody is there.

So I'm just laying in my bed crying because I have no idea WTF i'm doing and I was SO HAPPY to finally get a name and now I'm back at square one and I'm very quickly running out of time to make this ****ing appointment.

JUST SCAN MY BRAIN YOU TURNIPS
@grebes4lyfe ... hoping your Boston ped onc office can provide the referral to the LA oncologist this week. If you want to talk, feel free to PM me.
 
Thank you both for the kind words. I’m praying to God it’s not melanoma because I’m physically not ready to lose him. He’s my fur baby and he’s such a happy and sweet dog.
As for Los Angeles, I’m safe for now but I’m watching the news like a hawk
@Tru108 ... the wildfires have been awful ... feel free to PM me if you want to talk.
 
@grebes4lyfe ... hoping your Boston ped onc office can provide the referral to the LA oncologist this week. If you want to talk, feel free to PM me.

Thanks DocS! I’m gonna see today if the referral went through since it’s the first business day since this whole **** show began. Fingers crossed lol

Thank you for reaching out!!


ETA: just realized it’s not a business day. It’s Veterans Day.
I appreciate the meaning of this day and understand why it is a holiday and happy Veterans Day to all and thank you everyone for your service.

... but UGH I WANT TO RESOLVE THIS BS RIGHT NOW
 
Thanks DocS! I’m gonna see today if the referral went through since it’s the first business day since this whole **** show began. Fingers crossed lol

Thank you for reaching out!!


ETA: just realized it’s not a business day. It’s Veterans Day.
I appreciate the meaning of this day and understand why it is a holiday and happy Veterans Day to all and thank you everyone for your service.

... but UGH I WANT TO RESOLVE THIS BS RIGHT NOW
On behalf of veterans everywhere thank you, and this is much how the VA "works" for us.
You're getting the real immersive experience 🙂
 
Im posting a lot in this thread lately.

But today sucked.

Context: i work in seabird rehab

It started with 4 back to back euthanasias. Pxs came in late last night as we were closing so the other staff thought they would give them overnight and let us better evaluate them today.
They all failed this evaluation.

Then, all of our stable, release-track grebes stopped eating and were put on very intense (q2h) gavaging schedules. 2 of the 3 dropped dead this afternoon for no apparent reason.
One was floating dead in the pool after lunch.
Another was found at 5 pm non responsive and drowning. We brought him in and he was CRITICALLY hypothermic and soaking wet. We immediately put him under a dryer and within 5 min he was dead.
The third one is still not eating but is very BAR and diving. But he started looking wet in the pool at the end of the day. I checked him and it was just surface wetness (all of the insulating down was dry), and he was thermoregulating, so I dried him and moved him into a different pool in case the pool water was contaminated????
I’m really really hoping he won’t die tonight and now that I’m home Im wishing I had been even more conservative and just kept him inside overnight because I’m terrified of going in tomorrow to find him dead.

The 2 will get necropsied tomorrow. I really hope we find something like aspergillosis or signs of organ failure (they both came in critically emaciated) and that it wasn’t because one of my volunteers did something ****ing stupid like feeding the wrong fish and contaminating the water and ruining their waterproofing so that they drowned.

As you can probably tell, grebes are my favorite birds we work with and it was a really tough day.
 
Anyone else here going into this whole vet school journey without supportive family? My parents are vehemently against me becoming a veterinarian for no reason other than they want me to go into human medicine (because it makes more money) and are trying to prevent me from attending interviews that are “too far away”. It’s their opinion that I should just go to one or two of the closest interviews (mind you I’m absolutely floored that I received more than one, but it’s not like I have a lot of options even with that!) They’ve also implied multiple times that they’re kicking me out in May when I finish undergrad- I commute from home to classes now. I would love to move out, but I can’t afford rent with my part time job in-between classes. It’s just incredibly stressful trying to deal with the actual admission process with almost no support and constant discouragement from family.
 
Anyone else here going into this whole vet school journey without supportive family? My parents are vehemently against me becoming a veterinarian for no reason other than they want me to go into human medicine (because it makes more money) and are trying to prevent me from attending interviews that are “too far away”. It’s their opinion that I should just go to one or two of the closest interviews (mind you I’m absolutely floored that I received more than one, but it’s not like I have a lot of options even with that!) They’ve also implied multiple times that they’re kicking me out in May when I finish undergrad- I commute from home to classes now. I would love to move out, but I can’t afford rent with my part time job in-between classes. It’s just incredibly stressful trying to deal with the actual admission process with almost no support and constant discouragement from family.
You should say "Well, if I don't get into vet school my backup plan is to take up underwater basket weaving and dedicate myself to my art full time," and then maybe vet school won't seem so awful to your family in comparison.

I'm sorry you're dealing with that. 🙁
 
You should say "Well, if I don't get into vet school my backup plan is to take up underwater basket weaving and dedicate myself to my art full time," and then maybe vet school won't seem so awful to your family in comparison.

I'm sorry you're dealing with that. 🙁
Nah the back up plan is obviously prostitution or drug dealing
 
🙁
You should say "Well, if I don't get into vet school my backup plan is to take up underwater basket weaving and dedicate myself to my art full time," and then maybe vet school won't seem so awful to your family in comparison.

I'm sorry you're dealing with that. 🙁
Thanks... I just got into yet another argument about how I should turn down my interviews because “traveling to them is too expensive” and I’m wasting my money. Because that makes total sense
 
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Thanks... I just got into yet another argument about how I should turn down my interviews because “traveling to them is too expensive” and I’m wasting my money. Because that makes total sense
This might not really help but if itll make logical sense to them- veterinary clinics are the second safest business loan banks give. One of the lowest default rates behind funeral homes. The loan officer said he'd rather loan money to us over med or especially dentists any day. Just because they make alot of money does not mean they have alot of money.

You could always tell them you want to specialize and you'll make all this money as a veterinarian *insert telemed boarded radiology specialist salary here*

But yes I'm sorry they're being so vehemently against it that's rough. Keep trucking!
 
This might not really help but if itll make logical sense to them- veterinary clinics are the second safest business loan banks give. One of the lowest default rates behind funeral homes. The loan officer said he'd rather loan money to us over med or especially dentists any day. Just because they make alot of money does not mean they have alot of money.

You could always tell them you want to specialize and you'll make all this money as a veterinarian *insert telemed boarded radiology specialist salary here*

But yes I'm sorry they're being so vehemently against it that's rough. Keep trucking!
Thank you, I appreciate the encouragement and advice!
 
I forgot to take pictures during surgery of the hermaphrodite cat I neutered :arghh:
When am I ever going to do that again?
True hermaphrodite or pseudo? Either way that's pretty cool, I would have loved to see pics!
 
True hermaphrodite or pseudo? Either way that's pretty cool, I would have loved to see pics!
Pseudo! Immature testes that were smaller than ovaries, where you’d expect to find ovaries. No uterus, but there was a blind pouch like a vagina, couldn’t find a penis. Fun call to the owner to tell them I wasn’t sure whether I removed testes or ovaries, and we’d have to see what the pathologist said.
 
We had bad weather today and the roads were awful. Work called a delayed opening...OK, but weather only supposed to get worse throughout the day...?

So I went in for four hours, did literally nothing (of course all appts canceled) and then they let us go early. Usually 20min drive was an hour. So glad we went in :yeahright:
 
We had bad weather today and the roads were awful. Work called a delayed opening...OK, but weather only supposed to get worse throughout the day...?

So I went in for four hours, did literally nothing (of course all appts canceled) and then they let us go early. Usually 20min drive was an hour. So glad we went in :yeahright:
We opened on time, but ended up closing super early, as soon as surgical patients were good to be discharged. Was not expecting nearly this much weather!
 
Awe no! It’s bound to happen from at least one school! I’m sure I’ll have some rolling in soon as well..
Yeah it was sad. I just hate that I financially couldn’t apply to as many as I originally planned to be strategic. But hopefully one of my last few I’m waiting for will be good news.
 
Awe no! It’s bound to happen from at least one school! I’m sure I’ll have some rolling in soon as well..
Also don’t say that! You gotta stay positive, you could get nothing but good news. Or so much good news that one bad thing is like a blip.
 
Nearly every appointment I have had this week has been about an hour late. Today, I called my 3:30 around 4:30 to see if everything was okay (we had some snow overnight), and the owner said 'Oh, we've been lost for a while now.' WHY WOULDN'T YOU CALL THE CLINIC?! Then she tried to tell me she was given the wrong address by whoever scheduled the appointment (and it was a pretty drastically wrong address she was using, so I don't think that's what happened). She ended up being only 5 minutes away from the teaching hospital when I called, and it still took her another 40 minutes to actually get to the front door.
 
So like, back in January of this year I injured my knee. MRI showed tear of ACL and LCL and also a moderate sized full thickness cartilage defect of the medial femoral condyle. My surgeon recommended a staged approach with 2 surgeries, one to fix the ACL and measure the defect, and the second to repair the defect. I had my first surgery in March, an ACL reconstruction using quad tendon graft. Recovery from that was rough but it went okay with minimal pain and good PT but always in the back of my mind was the knowledge that I had to go through it all over again, and of course my actual function was still severely limited by the cartilage injury. I had to put off the second surgery until the fall (semester-long research/coursework block) since I would be on clinics from mid May until mid August and obviously couldn't really have a surgery then. The surgery to repair the osteocondral defect was an allograft surgery (from donor cartilage) a little over 3 weeks ago and honestly, recovery as far as my knee goes has been going great! I'm further along than expected, able to start bearing weight 3 weeks earlier than they had originally projected. And I'm in better spirits because I know as long as this surgery was successful and I work hard at PT, the light at the end of the long tunnel is finally near and I may be able to run and hike and play hockey and do agility and all that fun stuff again. That's obviously not my rant. Those are below.

They used a closure device that I was pretty impressed by at first on the main incision. It was basically 2 adhesive panels with zip tie closure in between. I looked it up online, everything looked pretty cool and their evidence that it improved scar aesthetics while maintaining a good closure was good. Like 3 days before I was scheduled to have that and the other sutures removed, the whole thing started to itch intensely. I debated taking it off myself since the incision looked okay to me but friends persuaded me to just wait until I saw the doctor. Well, when he took it off there were basically huge blisters over the whole area that it was on top of, some ruptured when the adhesive came off. Great. So I had to do some dressing changes, etc, and though infection was pretty unlikely, he started me on clindamycin since a few of the blisters were open and well, obviously an infection around the area where an open knee surgery was performed and a donor graft was put in is suboptimal. They put a steri-strip on the smaller port incision which started itching 48 hours later so I just pulled that stupid thing right off, and it still left a big red rectangular raised area where it previously was.
Remembering to take clindamycin 4 times a day was not easy but I did it, even when I thought I was going to get some nasty esophagitis because I had to take it right before bed and didn't have a lot of water with me and was not in a position where getting up and getting water was something easy to do and I felt like my throat was on fire for hours and couldn't sleep. My recheck earlier this week was good, the blistering has resolved and everything is healing great. He said I could stop with the dressing changes but just finish out the course of clindamycin (basically another 3-4 days worth). So 2 days ago I forgot the bottle of clindamycin on campus and didn't take any doses after noon that day. Later that afternoon, I started itching intensely. All over my back, and then chest, and then arms. I thought maybe it was just the weather change or dry skin or something. I could barely sleep because of it, so I took some diphenhydramine which helped a little. I woke up the next morning and hopped in the shower and noticed that I had basically broken out in a rash like everywhere but my face. I did some of my own research, confirmed that clindamycin can cause maculopapular exanthema 7-10 days after starting it in previously unexposed people, and called my doctor's office. The nurse told me that it was really weird that it would cause it this late instead of right away, and I explained that I had never been exposed to clinda before so this is exactly what I would expect from a reaction to it. She talked to my doctor who basically just said stop the clinda, which I already had - because of my own forgetfulness I missed 2-3 doses that I would have probably taken before I put two and two together and realized what was up. So I bought some steroid cream and a couple different non-drowsy antihistamines for the daytime and now I'm sitting here with skin that feels like it's on fire and I am really annoyed that apparently my immune system is freaking out over everything. THANKS FOR NOTHING IMMUNE SYSTEM!!
 
Oh jeez that's a lot of words. Here's the tl;dr with emoji illustration

-had planned second knee surgery, everything went okay and knee is feeling good :hardy:
-had blistering awful skin reaction to the device they used for skin closure :eyebrow:
-put on clindamycin as precaution because of open blisters by incision :shrug:
-having awful itchy generalized skin reaction to clindamycin :bang:
 
So like, back in January of this year I injured my knee. MRI showed tear of ACL and LCL and also a moderate sized full thickness cartilage defect of the medial femoral condyle. My surgeon recommended a staged approach with 2 surgeries, one to fix the ACL and measure the defect, and the second to repair the defect. I had my first surgery in March, an ACL reconstruction using quad tendon graft. Recovery from that was rough but it went okay with minimal pain and good PT but always in the back of my mind was the knowledge that I had to go through it all over again, and of course my actual function was still severely limited by the cartilage injury. I had to put off the second surgery until the fall (semester-long research/coursework block) since I would be on clinics from mid May until mid August and obviously couldn't really have a surgery then. The surgery to repair the osteocondral defect was an allograft surgery (from donor cartilage) a little over 3 weeks ago and honestly, recovery as far as my knee goes has been going great! I'm further along than expected, able to start bearing weight 3 weeks earlier than they had originally projected. And I'm in better spirits because I know as long as this surgery was successful and I work hard at PT, the light at the end of the long tunnel is finally near and I may be able to run and hike and play hockey and do agility and all that fun stuff again. That's obviously not my rant. Those are below.

They used a closure device that I was pretty impressed by at first on the main incision. It was basically 2 adhesive panels with zip tie closure in between. I looked it up online, everything looked pretty cool and their evidence that it improved scar aesthetics while maintaining a good closure was good. Like 3 days before I was scheduled to have that and the other sutures removed, the whole thing started to itch intensely. I debated taking it off myself since the incision looked okay to me but friends persuaded me to just wait until I saw the doctor. Well, when he took it off there were basically huge blisters over the whole area that it was on top of, some ruptured when the adhesive came off. Great. So I had to do some dressing changes, etc, and though infection was pretty unlikely, he started me on clindamycin since a few of the blisters were open and well, obviously an infection around the area where an open knee surgery was performed and a donor graft was put in is suboptimal. They put a steri-strip on the smaller port incision which started itching 48 hours later so I just pulled that stupid thing right off, and it still left a big red rectangular raised area where it previously was.
Remembering to take clindamycin 4 times a day was not easy but I did it, even when I thought I was going to get some nasty esophagitis because I had to take it right before bed and didn't have a lot of water with me and was not in a position where getting up and getting water was something easy to do and I felt like my throat was on fire for hours and couldn't sleep. My recheck earlier this week was good, the blistering has resolved and everything is healing great. He said I could stop with the dressing changes but just finish out the course of clindamycin (basically another 3-4 days worth). So 2 days ago I forgot the bottle of clindamycin on campus and didn't take any doses after noon that day. Later that afternoon, I started itching intensely. All over my back, and then chest, and then arms. I thought maybe it was just the weather change or dry skin or something. I could barely sleep because of it, so I took some diphenhydramine which helped a little. I woke up the next morning and hopped in the shower and noticed that I had basically broken out in a rash like everywhere but my face. I did some of my own research, confirmed that clindamycin can cause maculopapular exanthema 7-10 days after starting it in previously unexposed people, and called my doctor's office. The nurse told me that it was really weird that it would cause it this late instead of right away, and I explained that I had never been exposed to clinda before so this is exactly what I would expect from a reaction to it. She talked to my doctor who basically just said stop the clinda, which I already had - because of my own forgetfulness I missed 2-3 doses that I would have probably taken before I put two and two together and realized what was up. So I bought some steroid cream and a couple different non-drowsy antihistamines for the daytime and now I'm sitting here with skin that feels like it's on fire and I am really annoyed that apparently my immune system is freaking out over everything. THANKS FOR NOTHING IMMUNE SYSTEM!!

Sounds like a hot mess ..... hope you feel better soon or at least be able to down yourself into a benadryl coma.
 
Oh jeez that's a lot of words. Here's the tl;dr with emoji illustration

-had planned second knee surgery, everything went okay and knee is feeling good :hardy:
-had blistering awful skin reaction to the device they used for skin closure :eyebrow:
-put on clindamycin as precaution because of open blisters by incision :shrug:
-having awful itchy generalized skin reaction to clindamycin :bang:
That sounds awful. I spit on this for you.
 
Oh jeez that's a lot of words. Here's the tl;dr with emoji illustration

-had planned second knee surgery, everything went okay and knee is feeling good :hardy:
-had blistering awful skin reaction to the device they used for skin closure :eyebrow:
-put on clindamycin as precaution because of open blisters by incision :shrug:
-having awful itchy generalized skin reaction to clindamycin :bang:

Sounds like whole bunch of horse doo-doo to me.

(I read the long one!)

Hope you continue to heal (and become less itchy) and that you can get back to hockey sooner rather than later.
 
Oh jeez that's a lot of words. Here's the tl;dr with emoji illustration

-had planned second knee surgery, everything went okay and knee is feeling good :hardy:
-had blistering awful skin reaction to the device they used for skin closure :eyebrow:
-put on clindamycin as precaution because of open blisters by incision :shrug:
-having awful itchy generalized skin reaction to clindamycin :bang:
Sorry to hear about your itching-all-over condition - sounds awful!

On the other hand, very glad to hear your knee recovery is going well! That's good news! 🙂
 
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So Tundra has been having a couple "teenager issues" and with all the crate rest, his socialization has really suffered.

Now that he is cleared for full activity, we are upping our training game. Our two current issues are lunging at vehicles (especially large/loud ones) and tall men that are standing upright. Needless to say, I figured Lowe's was the perfect place to work on both...

So I'm standing out in front of the store, next to a Christmas tree display facing the parking lot, far away from the doors. Tundra is between me and the display, and there's still about 15 feet to the left of us for people to walk by.

So here comes this lady, with a cart of full of clothes (?) and a growling/snarling westie in the cart. As she's telling her dog what a good boy he is -- as he's snarling and trying to climb out, she rolls the cart right up to Tundra, literally three inches from his feet. I try to back up and nearly get hit by a car -- lady keeps pushing us forward. So I'm standing 2 feet out in the road, holding Tundra by his collar because I can't tell if he's reacting to the cars whizzing by or trying to say hi to the other dog, but he's spazzing out at the restraint, this lady is still angling her cart so her "sweet boy" can get a good look at Tundra, and I repeatedly tell the lady to please give us space -- because I had absolutely nowhere to get away. Finally I put a hand on the cart (away from the teeth!) and push it away from my dog's feet. And she starts screaming "how dare you assault my dog!" "You can't talk to us like that!" "The nerve of some people" before storming off.

I hate people. Luckily we were able to spend a few more minutes in a down stay after watching the cars go by and end on a good note.


TL/DR - people are stupid. people should need to pass a test to own dogs.
 
I joined my friend's blackberry bush removal work party, clearing bushes for 3 hours, and OMG I'm still finding thorns embedded into me.

The only good thing to come of it is now those bushes aren't around to be evil anymore. Take THAT blackberry bushes :cigar:
 
I joined my friend's blackberry bush removal work party, clearing bushes for 3 hours, and OMG I'm still finding thorns embedded into me.

The only good thing to come of it is now those bushes aren't around to be evil anymore. Take THAT blackberry bushes :cigar:
I have an odd love of removing blackberry bushes. It’s just so satisfying when you get a big patch cleared haha
 
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