Who Else Feels Crappy?

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I need a padded room

3 days in heels = one grumpy reconstructed ankle

And on top of that a certain unnamed teen is going to homecoming with a senior 😱
 
No big brothers? Time to call in the Uncles, or older cousins to help stalk this unfortunate Senior.

Good luck, I hope your day gets better.

Nope - she is the oldest.

He is a good kid but still 😱

And the older cousin who would volunteer is not nearby and neither are her uncles - I think her dad and papa can cover though
 
I am having a hard time getting over what happened the night before my last MCAT attempt. I feel that I sacrificed practically everything to do well on that test. I strategically used up all the decent MCAT practice material in the world (including all AAMC, Kaplan, TPR, TBR, EK, Nova, GS, etc.) in order to peak right before the exam. Yes, I took the time to read over 5 feet of books and do every last practice question. I took a practice test every other day for months. Chances are you know what that is like. (This is not even the half of it. I also quit my job since I had to work 80 hour weeks and couldn't get more than 2 weeks off at a time, etc.) I spent a bunch of my savings. I felt that I had finally earned, or more than earned, what was going to be a terrific score. I was consistently scoring in the 99th percentile on practice tests! At one point I was 24 hours away from doing an excellent job on that test. I was so ready!

Then I checked into a nice hotel (at the rate of $260) a week in advance in the town where I planned to take the MCAT. (I arrived early in the week and chose a nice hotel to ensure quiet.) Prior to my arrival, I spoke with the front desk manager to ask about getting a quiet stay before a test. I even rented out all of the rooms around mine (except for one which was unavailable) to help ensure quiet for the MCAT. And every night was quiet until the night just before my test.

As advised, by the front desk manager, I called the front desk in the afternoon prior to the day of my test to mention my situation. The person who answered the phone guaranteed me a quiet stay. He said something like, "You have no need to worry. Trust me it will be quiet.... I guarantee that it will be quiet." (That was true of every night I was there, except for the night before MCAT.)

That night prior to my test was very loud all night long. Even though I was wearing 33 decibel ear plugs, kids were running up and down the halls shouting, squeeling, slamming doors, and there was this super loud "thump" that shook my entire room sporadically several times an hour (which kept scaring me). (I could not address the noise personally because it was coming from concierge level which has restricted access.) I called the hotel's front desk staff about the noise, the person answering sounded like a giggly teenager. He said, "Okay, we'll take care of it," in a tone like he was almost mocking those words he was suppose to say. (I was nice but not weak sounding, I was concise, I was professional, there was no problem with the way I complained.) I called again a couple hours later past midnight about the same noise and got essentially the same response and no results. So, I was up all night without a minute of sleep before my test.

For reasons I won't get into here, I could not reschedule my MCAT without delaying my AMCAS application another year, and risking not ever having another chance to take it. So, I took the MCAT without voiding, hoping for the better, which I still believe was the best decision under the circumstances. I later wrote out a complaint to hotel's upper management. While I understand that there's nothing they can do to give me the extra MCAT points I would have had had I gotten sleep, I would find it easier to forgive them if they would just apologize. Rather than addressing my complaint, management accused me of lying about noise and went on about how great their hotel and staff are.

While I am not an angry person in general, I am postponing checking my score for now. I cannot stand it when people fail to take social responsibility in general, I absolutely despise selfishness and lack of concern for the wellbeing of others (even when it's not about me), and I so far can't get over everything I've sacrificed for what feels like nothing or worse than nothing. I also have a medical condition impacting my appearance that has to wait until after the MCAT to get treated, and various other things on hold....
 
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Gauss,that really stinks. I am so sorry. It sounds like you were incredibly prepared, so I hope that the one-night setback didn't affect your score as much as you're worried it might have.

At the same time, I think your story is very instructive, and I hope you don't mind my armchair-quarterback analysis. As a former competitive athlete (individual sport), I've had experience with the idea of months -- and years -- of training to perform well on nationals day, which is actually similar to how the MCAT works: months of prepping to perform well on one day. You do everything right for months and months: eat, sleep, train, weight room. While some catastrophes can certainly affect your physical race-day performance (getting in a crash on the way to the meet, for example, or having food poisoning the day of), others affect your mental game.

It's important to remember that with the months and months of preparation and good sleeping habits, one night's missed sleep won't affect my race; what will affect my race is if I get freaked out that I missed a night of sleep.

I watched a TED Talks video recently of a presentation by a Stanford Med psych professor who described a study on stress. They looked at people with high and low stress, and how that affected mortality. The people who were under extremely high-stress situations for prolonged periods of time did indeed die earlier...only when they thought stress was bad for you! People in very high-stress positions who did not think stress was bad for you actually had a lower mortality rate than the low-stress people.

Similarly, sleep is good, and you need sleep to function well, and ideally we'd get 8 hours every single night. But I would suggest that missing one night's sleep won't substantially affect performance nearly as much as *worrying* about the one night's missed sleep.

In your case, you were so on the ball! You had everything planned out. You were prepared to rock that MCAT, and I think it's possible that you still did! I'm rooting for you, and hope that you pulled through. The hotel management sounds really frustratingly unresponsive, and I hope you get some sort of acknowledgement.
 
Hi futuremddo,

I just decided to check this thread today after never having done so ever (non trad medical student, currently in second year) and i found what you said really interesting. I am going to try to find that ted talk, but i also would like to know if you had any further references about that in case i have a hard time finding it. The professor's name, etc.

Thanks! And good luck to everyone in their respective endeavors.
 
One of my cats interrupted my breakfast by barfing on the living room carpet. So I had to clean it up while my cereal got soggy. An inauspicious start to the day.
Hahaha oh god I sure know the feeling
 
Gauss, is this degree of control freakishness your normal modus operandi? Because you are going to spend your entire medical training period taking standardized exams under less than optimal sleep and noise conditions, and you really need some flexibility to be able to make it through this training with your sanity intact. The pressure to perform well even when not at your best only gets worse the farther along you go. You might want to consider seeing someone to help you come up with strategies to avoid falling apart when things don't go exactly according to plan.
 
Gauss, is this degree of control freakishness your normal modus operandi? Because you are going to spend your entire medical training period taking standardized exams under less than optimal sleep and noise conditions, and you really need some flexibility to be able to make it through this training with your sanity intact. The pressure to perform well even when not at your best only gets worse the farther along you go. You might want to consider seeing someone to help you come up with strategies to avoid falling apart when things don't go exactly according to plan.

^^

Pretty much exactly what I wanted to say with my long-winded analogy.
 
^^

Pretty much exactly what I wanted to say with my long-winded analogy.
No, your analogy was spot on. Competitive athletes definitely experience mental stressors and have to come up with ways to push past them.

What alarms me about Gauss's story is that s/he went to such extremes to make everything just "perfect," including spending a week in another city and booking several hotel rooms, etc. I'm not sure s/he realizes how that sounds to most people who wouldn't even think of doing those things, let alone do them!
 
Coulda done without the trip to the ED. Could do without paying to get scoped right now. But I'd settle for not being in pain and feeling nauseous all the time.

Don't have time for this crap, too much to do. Not how I need to spend my time right now.


:d
 
I had to take the MCAT while in another city for personal reasons beyond the point of this discussion. I rented out the surrounding rooms because I knew that all hotels in that area would be at 100 percent capacity for vacation season. (I learned that strategy from colleagues during my previous career. It's nothing unusual.) Not taking the MCAT on that date would mean waiting another year to apply to medical school and I'm in my thirties. I planned ahead and made every responsible decision that I could.

You do what you can in life. As pointed out above, sometimes things turn out right; sometimes they don't.

Hope this makes sense now.
 
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Gauss, if it helps, I also spent a ton of preparation for my MCAT. I was averaging 40 across all the practice exams; but due to some health issues (which took 4! months to resolve) I was extremely sick the day of the exam. I ended up scoring lower than I should, and was pretty upset. But - I applied anyway. I have 6 interviews now. Yes, they're not generally the tier of school I could be in if I had gotten my average, but they'll still give me a MD, and it shouldn't hold me back from whatever I decide I wish to do. I haven't gotten in yet, of course, but try to realize that not doing your absolute best (or even average!) isn't a death sentence.

Best of luck to you.
 
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You do what you can in life. As pointed out above, sometimes things turn out right; sometimes they don't.

Hope this makes sense now.

Yep. But the point is if you didn't do was well as you hoped it's not because of the lost sleep. It's because of your reaction to it. So I think a more apt truism is "Control what you can. Don't worry about what you can't."

Freaking out will do you in, as we've said. It's possible that you weren't freaking out as much while taking the MCAT as you were in reflecting upon it. This could very well be the case; when I'm in a bad situation I make the best of it then let loose later upon reflection.

An appropriate response to the noise the night before would be "What are those schmucks doing running around up there the night before my MCAT. They think they're gonna ruin it, huh? C'mon MCAT, bring it! You're no match for me or my 5 foot stack of books!" Well, maybe that's a bit extreme for the MCAT 🙂 but the idea's the same. Have confidence in your preparation, have confidence in yourself, and short of you being unable to physically be present at the MCAT, or, you know, vomiting every 20 minutes, you'll still rock it.

I really hope this episode didn't derail your enthusiasm for this cycle, and that you can use this experience to help you rock the boards, which are only several years away for you! Good luck.
 
Gauss,that really stinks. I am so sorry. It sounds like you were incredibly prepared, so I hope that the one-night setback didn't affect your score as much as you're worried it might have.

Thank you for this response. It felt good to have someone respond. It has also felt very good to have people respond to posts on here in the past in supportive ways. If BeBrave is reading this, I truly appreciated his/her reply last time. I felt a lot better after reading it and meant to say, "thank you," quite a while ago.

At the same time, I think your story is very instructive, and I hope you don't mind my armchair-quarterback analysis. As a former competitive athlete (individual sport), I've had experience with the idea of months -- and years -- of training to perform well on nationals day, which is actually similar to how the MCAT works: months of prepping to perform well on one day. You do everything right for months and months: eat, sleep, train, weight room. While some catastrophes can certainly affect your physical race-day performance (getting in a crash on the way to the meet, for example, or having food poisoning the day of), others affect your mental game.

I am also a former competitive athlete, and agree with you on the entire paragraph above. Maybe not everyone does all that for the MCAT, a lot of people do, and why not knock it out of the park if you have the chance, right?

(I do think that the MCAT is more analogous to try-outs for a team than to nationals although this is a very minor point.)

It's important to remember that with the months and months of preparation and good sleeping habits, one night's missed sleep won't affect my race; what will affect my race is if I get freaked out that I missed a night of sleep.

Because I've read the replies that came after this one, I will mention that while I found this to be a supportive reply and appreciate that, I don't agree with everything you said. I would normally let that go. I'm more responding to the replies that followed your statement and seemed based on it.

1. While, "one night's missed sleep won't affect [your] race," it will affect many people's MCAT performance, especially if you don't even get one minute of sleep the night before.

2. So, you have learned that "getting freaked out" impacts your game. That wasn't my experience in the above post, to clarify, because my psychological game, minus the sleepiness, was great the day of my MCAT. The part about YOUR GAME still makes a good story though and a pleasant reply IMO.

I watched a TED Talks video recently of a presentation by a Stanford Med psych professor who described a study on stress. They looked at people with high and low stress, and how that affected mortality. The people who were under extremely high-stress situations for prolonged periods of time did indeed die earlier...only when they thought stress was bad for you! People in very high-stress positions who did not think stress was bad for you actually had a lower mortality rate than the low-stress people.

This is somehow calming to read. It's in line with my beliefs and (regardless of intention) seems to reassure me that I'm moving in the right direction. I believe that I'm very good at managing stress, and it's almost a hobby of mine (that started in childhood as I tried to counsel other children), and in adulthood I've taken classes to learn about this. I frequently ask about stress management because it interests me and benefits me. To me the very most important things in life are, 1. how you and other people feel, 2. what you and other people fill your lives with. Now I'm interested in watching Ted Talks.

(It may be getting complicated, but there is also a difference between the behavior part of stress and the internal part of stress. I am an extrovert and it is usually calming for me to express myself and I usually feel better if I am vocal about things. On the opposite end of things, I'm sure there are people out there who are quiet and seem "at ease" who are much more stressed than their vocal counterparts.)


Similarly, sleep is good, and you need sleep to function well, and ideally we'd get 8 hours every single night. But I would suggest that missing one night's sleep won't substantially affect performance nearly as much as *worrying* about the one night's missed sleep.

Most importantly, having read the replies after yours, this comment is about your analogy, but it does NOT have anything to do with my experience posted. The day of the MCAT, I was determined to do well and didn't give "lack of sleep" any thought other than in making the decision to not void and to keep my score.

In your case, you were so on the ball! You had everything planned out. You were prepared to rock that MCAT, and I think it's possible that you still did! I'm rooting for you, and hope that you pulled through. The hotel management sounds really frustratingly unresponsive, and I hope you get some sort of acknowledgement.

Thank you for your supportive response. This really made me feel a lot better after reading it. Please don't mind my comments above because they are more to clarify my situation so that people don't get confused.




Gauss, is this degree of control freakishness your normal modus operandi? Because you are going to spend your entire medical training period taking standardized exams under less than optimal sleep and noise conditions, and you really need some flexibility to be able to make it through this training with your sanity intact. The pressure to perform well even when not at your best only gets worse the farther along you go. You might want to consider seeing someone to help you come up with strategies to avoid falling apart when things don't go exactly according to plan.

The answer to your question is, "no." Honestly, given my age and other circumstances this was suppose to be my last try at the MCAT.

In undergrad, I took 20 credits almost every quarter, while participating in several EC's (held offices), holding a part time job, volunteering, performing with a music band, doing things like starting a company, starting an internationally recognized event (all at the same time), and overcame multiple personal problems (I was homeless part of the time, etc.). I am no stranger to hard work and lack of sleep.

The night before the MCAT, however, I had zero sleep, not even one minute of it. However, I am a very spiritual person and believe that good things can happen when least expected. I said a prayer, felt at ease, and took the test to the best of my ability. It is still difficult for me to accept what happened today and to look back on it, mainly because it is likely to cost me dearly (and I don't financially, although that part is true as well). This is not the reality I would have preferred.

In response to the last part of your last sentence, I'm not sure exactly where you are coming from. I am a very extroverted person and like to express myself in good times and bad. In the past, I've been complimented many times on being resilient, strong, and successfully standing up to adversity and adverse circumstances. The secret to the strength I have, is to not go it alone. To me, sometimes it feels so good to just talk about problems. IMO, words have so much power that problems loose their poison after you've said it to another person. When I talk about problems it is usually to solve them and to feel better about them, sort of a healing process, not necessarily representative of, "falling apart." This is not to say I never have, just not over the situation above.

Gauss, if it helps, I am also in my 30s. I also spent a ton of preparation for my MCAT. I was averaging 40 across all the practice exams; but due to some health issues (which took 4! months to resolve) I was extremely sick the day of the exam. I ended up scoring a 33, and was pretty upset. But - I applied anyway. I have 6 interviews now. Yes, they're not generally the tier of school I could be in if I had gotten my average, but they'll still give me a MD, and it shouldn't hold me back from whatever I decide I wish to do. I haven't gotten in yet, of course, but try to realize that not doing your absolute best (or even average!) isn't a death sentence.

Best of luck to you.

Sorry to hear that happened. At least it sounds like it's going to work out for you after all.

I appreciate your reply and hope it works out for me too. There are a lot of personal circumstances that I either barely mentioned or didn't mentioned (because I don't want to get into them) that are playing roles here. The bottom line for me is that I might truly need to get a high score in my predicament which I know I'm capable of (and I am grateful for that). In my predicament, if I don't apply this year and don't forfeit medical school, I will probably have to make some significant sacrifices in my personal life. I also have a medical condition impacting my appearance (and other things) that has to wait until after the MCAT to get treated, and it's getting worse in the meantime. Again, I don't want to get too personal right now. Suffice it to say there's more going on.


Good luck Gauss44, hope it works out with a pleasant surprise.

Thanks! I hope it does too.

Yep. But the point is if you didn't do was well as you hoped it's not because of the lost sleep. It's because of your reaction to it. So I think a more apt truism is "Control what you can. Don't worry about what you can't."

I disagree. I think that not having even a minute of sleep all night long can impact performance.

Freaking out will do you in, as we've said. It's possible that you weren't freaking out as much while taking the MCAT as you were in reflecting upon it. This could very well be the case; when I'm in a bad situation I make the best of it then let loose later upon reflection.

Again, to be clear, I wasn't alarmed during the MCAT. In reflecting upon that situation and my present situation, it's difficult. Like I mentioned above this situation is likely to cause substantial loss that I can't get into on here and need to prepare myself for. I thought that the situation itself was disappointing enough for the, "I feel crappy," thread but apparently it didn't suffice, so suffice it to say that there's more.

An appropriate response to the noise the night before would be "What are those schmucks doing running around up there the night before my MCAT. They think they're gonna ruin it, huh? C'mon MCAT, bring it! You're no match for me or my 5 foot stack of books!" Well, maybe that's a bit extreme for the MCAT 🙂 but the idea's the same. Have confidence in your preparation, have confidence in yourself, and short of you being unable to physically be present at the MCAT, or, you know, vomiting every 20 minutes, you'll still rock it.

We all have our ways of dealing with stuff. I wore 33 decibel ear plugs and was comfortable in bed. I was of the mindset not to judge the situation, to do what I could to stop the noise, and then to essentially "let go and let God." I was going to give that problem to him while I fell asleep; only I didn't fall asleep and kept getting startled by loud noises of heavy objects being dropped on the floor, slamming doors, etc. I tried listening to a soothing meditation tape but I couldn't hear it over all the noise. (It wasn't just kids; it was drunks later on.)

I really hope this episode didn't derail your enthusiasm for this cycle, and that you can use this experience to help you rock the boards, which are only several years away for you! Good luck.

Thanks you for the words of encouragement.
 
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Great! It wasn't my intention to put words in your mouth at all; it's just that your original post was pretty much the loose definition of freak out. In the next sentence, I said "It's possible that you weren't freaking out as much while taking the MCAT as you were in reflecting upon it. This could very well be the case; when I'm in a bad situation I make the best of it then let loose later upon reflection."

So it sounds like that was the case, and if you were "calm and collected and did your best work" during the exam, in other words didn't let the night affect you, you don't have to worry so much about your MCAT score after all. Well, other than the normal worrying everyone does... 🙂

Hope it all works out.
 
Great! It wasn't my intention to put words in your mouth at all...

Okay, this discussion is about me, so I need to correct a rumor:

Just to get things straight, the problem I have with your response quoted below is that the main theme and main idea strongly suggests the opposite of the truth: The truth is that I was calm and not thinking about the hotel problem the day of the MCAT.

The inaccurate message: Below, it comes across as though you are suggesting that I had some weird overreaction or episode, that was the real problem, rather than not getting sleep. Then you go on to talk about "appropriate responses" and learning from the mistake of overreacting. I don't like people suggesting false things like that about me, or making up stories about me, even if there is one sentence to the contrary or a tiny disclaimer somewhere.

Read the first line of this quote below. It is an untrue rumor:

Yep. But the point is if you didn't do as well as you hoped it's not because of the lost sleep. It's because of your reaction to it. So I think a more apt truism is "Control what you can. Don't worry about what you can't."

Freaking out will do you in, as we've said. [deleted]

An appropriate response... would be... [deleted]

I really hope this episode didn't derail your enthusiasm for this cycle, and that you can use this experience to help you rock the boards, which are only several years away for you! Good luck.

(My response was "appropriate," no one "freaked out," there is nothing to "learn from," etc.) There was nothing in my post that even suggested that so I don't know where this fiction came from.

I was not worrying about not getting sleep the day of the MCAT. I accept that it was not your intention to mislead, and that you did include one sentence contrary to this theme. For the sake of this discussion, hopefully, this is the end of that rumor.

(My problem here is not what the rumor was, so much as that there was one in the first place. A lesson here is not to believe anything unless you hear it from the horse's mouth. I'm glad I check this thread and found this in time.)
 
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I feel crappy.

I'll feel better after this week is over though.

thank you for listening. 😛

Hope it gets better for you!

My wife is sick and had to leave work early, something she's never done before. I'm fine, for now, except that I seem to have a case of swimmer's ear that just won't go away. I've been hitting it hard with the hydrogen peroxide but if it doesn't dissipate I'm going through my first MMI partially deaf tomorrow.
 
I willingly ate food today. It remains to be seen whether or not this will be a good thing.

Hope you feel better! 🙂

Hope it gets better for you!

My wife is sick and had to leave work early, something she's never done before. I'm fine, for now, except that I seem to have a case of swimmer's ear that just won't go away. I've been hitting it hard with the hydrogen peroxide but if it doesn't dissipate I'm going through my first MMI partially deaf tomorrow.

Thanks! Hope you and your wife feel better!
 
Hey, wholeheartedly, get better!

Gauss44, no offense, but you really need to learn better stress management. For your own sake.
 
Gauss44, no offense, but you really need to learn better stress management. For your own sake.

Let's assume that you're right. I still didn't ask your opinion. You don't know me. And you don't know the half of it. As I already explained above (and shouldn't have had to), this is not the full story.

No one asked for your judgement. It's rude to go around giving people unsolicited advice.

(I mistakingly thought the purpose of this thread was to be a safe space to vent. I'm aware that I didn't explain myself well, as explained above. I didn't think I had to. Now let's assume that I've had similar experiences to the above scenario several times without getting upset at all, and it was just this last time that other factors aligned to irritate me. My point? You're jumping to a conclusion and judging me based on little evidence. I would have been more careful about explaining myself if I thought there was a need to be. This isn't the pre-allo forum. I didn't think I need to watch my back. I felt safe. Plus, the title of this thread is, "I feel crappy," and this sort of response is unprecedented.)

In my opinion, you are lucky that I have stress management skills (that assumes you care about your impact on others). If you contributed to a response like this for someone who truly had PTSD or something, you may have succeeded at retraumatizing a mentally ill person or pushing someone over the edge. As a premed, I think you should consider that whenever speaking to a stranger, be they a patient or on an internet forum. You don't know who you are dealing with. Even if the person is mentally sound, it's still rude and unpleasant. I'm really sick of this discussion.
 
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I just saw my bus departing in front of me. Got on the next, same story with the one that I connect to. Overall, I'll be half an hour later than I could have been, had I left work half a minute earlier. Yes, I know, 1st world problems.

To anyone sick (Cisco, Amy..., whole...) - good luck, hope you all get better soon.

Gauss - I agree, someone on the internet is wrong and there will be no sleep until that is fixed. 😉
 
I just saw my bus departing in front of me. Got on the next, same story with the one that I connect to. Overall, I'll be half an hour later than I could have been, had I left work half a minute earlier. Yes, I know, 1st world problems.

To anyone sick (Cisco, Amy..., whole...) - good luck, hope you all get better soon.

Gauss - I agree, someone on the internet is wrong and there will be no sleep until that is fixed. 😉

Lol, I don't like to sleep at night anyway (night owl).

The worst is when the bus driver or train driver sees you coming and stares at you as they close the doors in your face. That happens in Boston all the time. On my first day here, a guy was kicking the train and yelling at it (because he didn't make it through the doors on time). The passengers just stared at him through the window. My friend said, "The moral of this story is not to throw a temper tantrum when you miss the train." People often do. I'm surprised no one's made a video of people missing the train or bus yet. The second worst part, IMO, is that you know it's going to be a while before the next one.

If anyone has the flu (sore throat, super fatigued, aches, nausea, dizziness) this year, take it seriously. A colleague and I got it for 3 weeks each! That's part of why I was feeling lousy above, although I didn't know it at the time. This flu would then seem to go away until you walked somewhere and then it would come right back with a vengeance.
 
Lol, I don't like to sleep at night anyway (night owl).

The worst is when the bus driver or train driver sees you coming and stares at you as they close the doors in your face. That happens in Boston all the time. On my first day here, a guy was kicking the train and yelling at it (because he didn't make it through the doors on time). The passengers just stared at him through the window. My friend said, "The moral of this story is not to throw a temper tantrum when you miss the train." People often do. I'm surprised no one's made a video of people missing the train or bus yet. The second worst part, IMO, is that you know it's going to be a while before the next one.

If anyone has the flu (sore throat, super fatigued, aches, nausea, dizziness) this year, take it seriously. A colleague and I got it for 3 weeks each! That's part of why I was feeling lousy above, although I didn't know it at the time. This flu would then seem to go away until you walked somewhere and then it would come right back with a vengeance.

Whenever I miss the train, bus, or plane, or if I'm feeling sick or under the weather, I blame Obamacare and the president. Seems to be a popular option these days.
 
Whenever I miss the train, bus, or plane, or if I'm feeling sick or under the weather, I blame Obamacare and the president. Seems to be a popular option these days.

Thank you, Obama!
 
Haha. I love the videos asking people to choose whether they like the Affordable Care Act or Obamacare, and most say that they love the ACA but Obamacare is a socialist plan designed to ruin the country or something 🙂 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sx2scvIFGjE

Gauss, I'm completely willing to accept your response and the fact that your response the day of the exam was completely appropriate. But I would also suggest that perhaps your original post didn't convey what you intended it to convey, as everyone who has read it has thought your reaction was a bit extreme.
 
FML, so one o f my biggest weaknesses is that I get nervous giving talks in front of large groups of people, large being oh., greater than 30. (used to be like 15, lol) and I had to give a brief talk on an environmental health topic for class today.

Unfortunately due to my illness/trip to the ED last week I missed class on Wed. When I was getting the class notes I missed before class today, I realized that someone already gave a talk on my exact topic and apparently hit a lot of the same content (we didn't have to chose ahead of time or post what we were discussing). I find this out literally 5 minutes before I'm supposed to give my talk. 🙁

I caught the instructor in the hall and explained it to him, but he said not to worry about it, they'd probably forgotten everything anyway. Not really reassuring.
 
Gauss, I'm completely willing to accept your response and the fact that your response the day of the exam was completely appropriate. But I would also suggest that perhaps your original post didn't convey what you intended it to convey, as everyone who has read it has thought your reaction was a bit extreme.

"Futremddo:"

And I just confronted you about putting words in my mouth (a few replies above). Don't pretend like that's not the context here.

Sometimes people feel lousy for personal reasons that they can't share 100 percent of or have to keep confidential. That's where the value of a place to vent without being judged is really helpful. Sometimes if you are feeling completely rotten and cannot tell the full story, you can still find support. (Sure, if you start judging someone based on half the story, it won't add up. - That's the point!) Additionally, normal people do feel "extreme" sometimes. (Extreme emotions =/= extreme behavior.) Emotions are part of what make us human.

Your attacking people on a safe space* thread is completely out of line. In the past, the "I feel crappy" thread has been a safe place to vent or essentially cry on a shoulder. It's been a safe haven for the times people feel the most emotionally vulnerable and have no one at their side in the moment. Emotion and logic don't always go together, especially when you have the flu, a complex situation, etc.

Quit attacking people who are down. That's weak, unethical, and speaks volumes about you. You're unwillingness to forgive, finding fault in others, and continuing to accuse and mischaracterize is disgusting.

*That's what this thread has been in the past 9 or so pages.
 
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"Futremddo:"

I just caught you putting words in my mouth and telling lies about me. Don't pretend like that's not the context here.

Sometimes people feel lousy for personal reasons that they can't share 100 percent of or have to keep confidential. That's where the value of a place to vent without being judged is really helpful. Sometimes if you are feeling completely rotten and cannot tell the full story, you can still find support. (Sure, if you start judging someone based on half the story, it won't add up. - That's the point!) Additionally, normal people do feel "extreme" sometimes. (Extreme emotions =/= extreme behavior.) Emotions are part of what make us human.

Your attacking people on a safe space* thread is completely out of line. In the past, the "I feel crappy" thread has been a safe place to vent or essentially cry on a shoulder. It's been a safe haven for the times people feel the most emotionally vulnerable and have no one at their side in the moment. Emotion and logic don't always go together, especially when you have the flu, a complex situation, etc.

Quit attacking people who are down. That's weak, unethical, and speaks volumes about you. You're unwillingness to forgive, finding fault in others, and continuing to accuse and mischaracterize is disgusting.

*That's what this thread has been in the past 9 or so pages.

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"Futremddo:"

And I just confronted you about putting words in my mouth (a few replies above). Don't pretend like that's not the context here.

Sometimes people feel lousy for personal reasons that they can't share 100 percent of or have to keep confidential. That's where the value of a place to vent without being judged is really helpful. Sometimes if you are feeling completely rotten and cannot tell the full story, you can still find support. (Sure, if you start judging someone based on half the story, it won't add up. - That's the point!) Additionally, normal people do feel "extreme" sometimes. (Extreme emotions =/= extreme behavior.) Emotions are part of what make us human.

Your attacking people on a safe space* thread is completely out of line. In the past, the "I feel crappy" thread has been a safe place to vent or essentially cry on a shoulder. It's been a safe haven for the times people feel the most emotionally vulnerable and have no one at their side in the moment. Emotion and logic don't always go together, especially when you have the flu, a complex situation, etc.

Quit attacking people who are down. That's weak, unethical, and speaks volumes about you. You're unwillingness to forgive, finding fault in others, and continuing to accuse and mischaracterize is disgusting.

*That's what this thread has been in the past 9 or so pages.

There is nothing in futuremddo's posts that suggests that he/she is attacking or "telling lies" about you. Most of what he/she is posting seemed like friendly advice. Also, when you leave out parts of a story, as you admit, it shouldn't really be surprising when they get the wrong idea about you.

I'm sorry that your MCAT didn't go as planned. However, this is the internet. There is no such thing as a safe place:laugh:. Constructive criticism shouldn't always be construed as an attack.
 
There is nothing in futuremddo's posts that suggests that he/she is attacking or "telling lies" about you. Most of what he/she is posting seemed like friendly advice. Also, when you leave out parts of a story, as you admit, it shouldn't really be surprising when they get the wrong idea about you.

I'm sorry that your MCAT didn't go as planned. However, this is the internet. There is no such thing as a safe place:laugh:. Constructive criticism shouldn't always be construed as an attack.

I was referring to futuremddo's previous replies. I also caught you red-handed doing the same thing right here (see part in red): http://forums.studentdoctor.net/showthread.php?t=1033046

Futuremddo and TheWeelceMan are either a couple internet trolls backing each other up or the same person. I do believe that deliberately or unapologetically mischaracterizing a person or putting words in someone's mouth is a form of a verbal attack.
 
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I'm about ready to STOP RESPONDING to this discussion about my previous post. I think the below reply (by me) explains my part better than anything else I've said.

I think my explanation does suffice, and at this point, people who insist on reopening this discussion are just trying to egg me on.


"Futremddo:"

And I just confronted you about putting words in my mouth (a few replies above). Don't pretend like that's not the context here.

Sometimes people feel lousy for personal reasons that they can't share 100 percent of or have to keep confidential. That's where the value of a place to vent without being judged is really helpful. Sometimes if you are feeling completely rotten and cannot tell the full story, you can still find support. (Sure, if you start judging someone based on half the story, it won't add up. - That's the point!) Additionally, normal people do feel "extreme" sometimes. (Extreme emotions =/= extreme behavior.) Emotions are part of what make us human.

Your attacking people on a safe space* thread is completely out of line. In the past, the "I feel crappy" thread has been a safe place to vent or essentially cry on a shoulder. It's been a safe haven for the times people feel the most emotionally vulnerable and have no one at their side in the moment. Emotion and logic don't always go together, especially when you have the flu, a complex situation, etc.

Quit attacking people who are down. That's weak, unethical, and speaks volumes about you. You're unwillingness to forgive, finding fault in others, and continuing to accuse and mischaracterize is disgusting.

*That's what this thread has been in the past 9 or so pages.
 
I was referring to futuremddo's previous replies. I also caught you red-handed doing the same thing right here (see part in red): http://forums.studentdoctor.net/showthread.php?t=1033046

Futuremddo and TheWeelceMan are a couple internet trolls backing each other up, or the same person.

I checked all of his/her posts on this page before I posted. I had a feeling you were going to think that I'm attacking you, but I assure you that I am not.

As to the referenced thread, I 100% stand by what I said in it. Not everyone who disagrees with you is out to attack you or "put words in your mouth."

I have no idea why you think I'm a troll for what I posted and the idea that we are the same poster is laughable.

I humbly suggest that you try to stop over-reacting and playing the victim based on what people post.

I will let this drop as well.
 
Back to feeling crappy, I just had the worst set of interviews, ever. And I'm still partially deaf. And my wife is still sick. And i haven't received an ii in days!

/whine
 
Back to feeling crappy, I just had the worst set of interviews, ever. And I'm still partially deaf. And my wife is still sick. And i haven't received an ii in days!

/whine

With how many interviews you got, at some point you will have to add more schools to your application - eventually they will all invite you. 🙂

There is an analogy going around, comparing applying to med school to dating. If that's anywhere near close to true, I would not worry about the "bad interviews." Some of my worse "what the **** was I thinking saying/doing this" have had surprisingly nice results!
 
To everyone who is sick: get well soon!
To anyone who had a bad interview or public speaking fumbles: sorry to hear that! Hope things out turn out for the better.
To poor MCAT preps, test days, & lack of sleep: welp, it's over now so here's hoping you did well!

New here. I feel absolutely awful. This is probably the second worst day of my life. I had written more, but it just sounded like I was a teenager filled with angst. 🙁
 
New here. I feel absolutely awful. This is probably the second worst day of my life. I had written more, but it just sounded like I was a teenager filled with angst. 🙁

That's ok, that's kinda the whole point of the thread.



As for Gauss and Futuremddo I love you guys, but, :hijacked: take it outside :beat:


Your posts are swallowing up my pity party 😛 :meanie:
 
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Two days - two days until my freshman daughter wanders off to her first homecoming with a senior
I am in need of a margarita, a padded room or soft restraints - or a combo of all three

Inhale - serenity now - exhale

I survived anatomy - this can not be as bad , right?!?!?!?!
 
That's ok, that's kinda the whole point of the thread.



As for Gauss and Futuremddo I love you guys, but, :hijacked: take it outside :beat:


Your posts are swallowing up my pity party 😛 :meanie:

I would have rather spent my time doing almost anything else this week (than defending myself after leaving a reply on this thread, that led to a chain of other replies about mine). Like most other people on this thread, I initially came here after having a bad day and never imagined that it would turn into this long ordeal. I felt backed into a corner where I could either allow rumors to prevail or step in over and over. I've had the flu, numerous things go wrong this week, and this thread on top of it all.

Going forward, I think it's sad that people might feel as though they need to cut their "feeling crappy" replies short so that they don't have to respond to a long insensitive commentaries or less than accurate interpretations of their post.

I don't mean to rehash anything. I do feel like we've lost something after this last discussion.
 
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I would have rather spent my time doing almost anything else this week (than defending myself after leaving a reply on this thread, that led to a chain of other replies about mine). Like most other people on this thread, I initially came here after having a bad day and never imagined that it would turn into this long ordeal. I felt backed into a corner where I could either allow rumors to prevail or step in over and over. I've had the flu, numerous things go wrong this week, and this thread on top of it all.

Going forward, I think it's sad that people might feel as though they need to cut their "feeling crappy" replies short so that they don't have to respond to a long insensitive commentaries or less than accurate interpretations of their post.

I don't mean to rehash anything. I do feel like we've lost something after this last discussion.

No one is spreading rumors about you I have no clue where you are getting that - and this comes from someone who has had rumors actually spread about her

In your original post you talk about taking responsibility - while that is true there is only so much we can control as your experience shows.

Yes you had a craptastic day - yes it was the worse day of your life

Absolutely no one is attacking you and perhaps all the other stress you are dealing with is spilling over and coloring the way you view thing which is completely understandable and human

Take a day do something just for you then come back with fresh eyes and I think you will see that no one is being malicious
 
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