About a month ago, I would come to this thread and see a new "FIRST ACCEPTANCE" or "got in!" post every few replies or so. And it made me happy. Even though I wasn't in, my excitement lived vicariously through those individuals. And on top of that, movement for one can induce a domino effect, travelling throughout the system and possibly knocking down my still standing block.
These posts have slowed over time, seemingly coming to a stand still. Being on 2 waitlists with 0 acceptances, knowing orientation for both schools is less than a month and a half away, its ultimately the waiting and the possibility of the unknown that is digging away my morale.
I will soon re-submit my application, not in defeat, but in preparation on all fronts.
To all anxious waitlist students, those with numb fingers due to email refreshing, those who fight the urge to call the admissions office knowing exactly the answer you will receive, those who can't focus in research or clinic, those whose hands sweat at every unknown call during business hours, those trying to figure out how to pay for another round of secondaries, those who get approached by parents/professionals/friends/colleagues with the same question, only to reply with "still nothing yet...", I hope you realize there are many of us. Most suffer in silence, with the impression that no one understands the stress, each day building upon the previous. But through all the wait we can find solace.
I wanted to utlimately say, do not let this capricious process turn you into a pessimistic, jaded cynic. Learn from it. GROW from it. If it ends up working out, great! We will be right here waiting to celebrate with you. But if it doesn't, then take a look back and realize all the hard work shouldn't stop here. You did this for a reason. There are people you may need to validate with your goals, but none more important than yourself.
That being said, it's still not over.....
