Lol for real!
However, in the topic of "looking bad" to admissions, I did communicate with the Dean of School A personally after the scholarship was offered, so I do feel that extra guilt of suddenly declining. I will feel bad regardless. And I am taking comfort in the fact that School A's scholarship was unconditional and classes are pass/fail. School B goes by a letter grade system, and I would hate to lose the scholarship because I wound up with a B- average (tbh I'd rather focus my energy on preparing for Step 1 than acing coursework (Yes, I know a B isn't considered acing but you know what i mean)-- things I should have considered before writing the LOI, I'll admit. I'm an idiot who really just liked the school's energy and location. School A was still a top choice as well).
Y'all my mind is racing. I have anxiety farts rn and kinda want to puke. I never thought I be in this situation; I figured I'd be lucky to even get into a single school. I'm sorry if this whining is annoying to those who are still waiting :/