When I applied last cycle, I was figuring things out on the fly and improvising. Like, I didn’t know **** about primaries, secondaries, interviews all of that... all while preparing for my MCAT (which I took in June of last year) and finishing up my undergrad thesis etc. remotely. It was a lot. Like I didn’t even know if I was gonna have a good enough MCAT to apply!! And I still managed to do it! I think of the ways I’ve really grown this year in terms of the app but also otherwise. I moved back home due to COVID disrupting our dorms, managed to live with my toxic ass parents, and set a workout routine which I basically never had in undergrad. While I’m obviously sad I couldn’t get in, I realize that I’m in a MUCH BETTER position this time around. I’ve gained a lot of knowledge about this process along the way which I never had last year. I’ve identified potential areas of weakness like perhaps not having a strong enough “narrative” or story in my PS, or perhaps not coming off as personable in my interviews. I’m researching alternate careers. I’ve been thinking of writing the LSAT because law school doesn’t have interviews 😂😂 and I can try to pass off my hard science degree as an interest in patent law LMAO. I decided to cut my losses and get excited for the future and get working once again — no matter how demoralized I had been feeling! Imma just hold off on putting any schools on my AMCAS until July 1 though because still holding out that tiny sliver of hope and don’t want to spend another 3 thousand dollars if I don’t have to 🤣