so sick of it all
. i don't even have anything in particular to complain about, but life is just not very enjoyable and i don't see that changing anytime soon. school is so freaking boring, and i have a hard time motivating myself to get up in the morning to go (and most days i end up not going at all, and if i do, i rarely can keep up the motivation to stay more than half a day). i feel like i'm wasting tuition by not going, but then i feel like i'm wasting time and energy by going to watch some lecturer read off of a powerpoint. so i sit around with an everlasting list of to-do's, but don't ever really feel like i'm accomplishing
anything. days come and go, and i take exam after exam. whoopti-effing-doo. i try to break up my week by getting clinical experience, hanging out with friends and such, and doing some research stuff but it's still all just blah. i just feel like i have nothing to look forward to at all in the forseeable future. it's especially depressing when i talk to friends outside of vet school enjoying the prime of their lives. i really need an attitude change... and i guess that's the most frustrating part of it all. i feel like such a brat for not being all uber ecstatic about the opportunities in front of me.
anyone else feel this way, or am i like the only loser out there?