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This is a really good and really healthy perspective. Remind your colleagues of this too whenever you get a chance because I promise you that a few of your classmates are probably in the position from the first half of your post but are still struggling to arrive at the conclusions in the second half.This is not what expected.
No matter how many times you hear about it from other people it doesn’t really sink in until it happens to you. I went from being a straight A student to hoping I can pull a 3.0 this semester so I can qualify for applying to scholarships. It is no longer possible to shine in vet school the way I did in undergrad. Everyone is extremely bright. Everyone is very qualified. Everyone is academically exceptional. You had some really cool veterinary experience with sea turtles in the Maldives? No big deal, Everyone has done something extraordinary (research on Narwhals in the arctic, killer whale necropsies, Mountain lion rehabilitation just to name a few). You are no longer special, you are just one speck in the sea of people who are also the cream of the crop. Coming to terms with being okay with what I used to consider mediocre can sometimes be a challenge.
But you know what? I am so incredibly lucky to be surrounded by such extraordinary people. Props to the CSU admissions department for choosing some of the most supportive, non-competitive, kindest people I’ve ever met. I am proud that one day these people will be my colleagues. We spend so much time in the classroom learning from professors, that its easy to overlook how much we have learned from each other. And its easy to forget how hard we all worked to be here, and how many years of our lives we dedicated to having a small chance to one day sit in the seats we are sitting in - a seat that over 2,000 people fought for. Somehow these people I’ve only spent two months with already feel like family, and even when I’m not doing as well as I’d like I find myself cheering them on when they are.
So yeah, some days I want to scream. I’m tired of feeling guilty all the time for doing something other than studying. I bet if I spent every waking moment of my life studying I’d be making straight A’s like in undergrad. But I don’t. Sometimes I watch Netflix. Sometimes I go to the gym. Sometimes I take a nap. And you know what I have instead of a 4.0? My sanity. And that, I’ve discovered, is the secret to vet school; every day, do what you need to do to stay sane. Somehow everything else works out.
By the way, if you ever want to chat about first year or life in general feel free to hit me up