Hey I feel the same way as well...i've kinda given up, trying hard not to but also facing reality...and its hard to trust in God when u see things not working out for u, but I won't fall into the trap of the enemy into the feeling of despair, God knew what, when and why I applied to this school, why I have the desire to become a doctor so I have to allow Him (as hard as it may be) to take over because only He knows the future and only HE knows what is best for me....this is when ur faith truly gets tested but I believe that God can bring you through any fire, and if I don't get in this year then I will know that it wasn't God's plan for me yet because I have trusted in Him thus far, He cannot lead me to despair....let's continue to hold on to our faith....it ain't over until God says its over!